[.:+Evill Mutterings+:.]

4 days of holiday

2012-02-04T14:20:00.001+08:00

Woohoo!

And that should speak for itself.

Yesterday, for the first time, I felt comforted at the failure that was my final project.
I had a good idea and I just did not execute it well enough.
And it has bothered me for the past two years.

Oh, well.. better now than never I suppose.

It's been a while..

2012-01-31T00:19:00.002+08:00

.. Since my birthday at least. Ho-hum, pigs bum.

Surely my absence here speak volumes of the monotonous life that I now live.

Job has changed. Hair has changed. The boredom hasn't.
It's not so much boredom with my job (that aspect of my life is definitely more exciting, satisfying and rewarding now) but rather boredom with the fact that I have become one of those people I use to swear I'll never become.
A person who has become comfortable with routine.
Day in, day out, it's the same thing.

You know what this means...

This means that I indulge my loves.
My loves being loves of the materialistic persuasion.
I am now Queen of the Impulse Buyers.
(Although, my computer did take a LOT of contemplation but only because of the price)
I see clothes I like, I buy.
I see bags I like, I buy.
Do I even need to talk about SHOES?

Somehow, through the act of shopping, I feel comforted.
Yes, I believe in retail therapy.
While my Mum has long stood by the fact that WINDOW shopping comforted her, I can't be comforted by merely looking.
I need to OWN.
It's a problem, it truly is.

On a non-rambling hand, I have discovered a new side of me.
People who know me generally know that I am hardly serious or sober.
However, I've come to realise, through my classes and my teaching.. I can be the most serious and sober person when it needs to be.
I generally have a habit of drawing boundaries.
With teachers, I could never treat them as friendly as some of the peers could.
With my students however, I can talk to them as an equal (for you know, I am all for equality) but when it comes to tutorials, I find that the boundary is immediately drawn.
If people were to watch me, I don't think they'll recognise me.

Speaking of my job... I love what I'm doing now.
I wake up every morning and look forward to what will happen.
I enjoy the fact, of course, that Mike works with me which means I have company that is on the same wavelength.
But I just enjoy the fact that I can speak of my passions without people looking at me weirdly.
However, there are many around me (of the familial-persuasion) that I know do not approve of my decision.
I think, in a lot of ways, I should take it as an insult because obviously they don't think I am able to teach.
But I try not to think about it. I know what I'm doing and I know I can do it so I try to ignore.. but at times, it bothers me because nobody wants to know how I'm doing at my job and even when they ask, it's the vague-est question imaginable and the conversation usually drops after I answer.
And I can see it in their looks that they find it incredibly silly that I've decided to do this.
I should say "Suck it" but.. out of respect, I shan't.

And on another hand, when I first saw an Alienware, I swore to myself that one day, I shall own one.

I own one :)

I've never felt more proud of myself.

10 More Days

2011-10-18T20:46:00.002+08:00

... And I'll be old(er).

When I was 14 and was desperate to be older.. I used to dream of being 18.
18 is good, I thought.
18 is when I'm legal.
18 is when I'll probably gain the freedom I want.
18 is when I'll probably be able to make good decisions for myself.
18 is when I'll be a rockstar.
... Is what I thought.

When I became 18 and realised that it isn't all it's cracked up to be.. I fantasised about being 20.
20 will be better, I thought.
20 is when I'll no longer be treated as an irrational, irritating, immature teenager.
20 is when I'll officially be an adult.
20 is when I'll definitely be able to make good decisions for myself.
20 is when I'll be able to go out without having to seek permission beforehand.
20 is when I'll realise that rockstar-dom isn't going to happen and I'll be cool with it.
... And I was right.
I loved being 20.

But now... I'm going to be 23.

I'm not the kind of girl who looks forward to my birthday.
I don't sit around thinking about what people are gonna give me for presents.
I don't care much for parties, celebrations or festivities of any sort.
For as long as I can remember, I've always thought of birthdays as just another year closer to my inevitable doom.

However, as it occured to me 5 minutes ago, that I'll be 23 years old in 10 days time.. I started to wonder.
What if I had looked forward to my birthday as every other girl has?

Don't get me wrong.. It's not like I grimace at the thought of a birthday cake. My parents made sure we all had a cake at every birthday to celebrate.
I got a few presents over the years and it was always a surprise... especially from my parents for they aren't the present-giving sort.

But what if I had parties?
I had a party when I was 8 years old... and I hated it. It is filed under 'Horrible Memories to Forget' in the shelves of my mind.
I told my parents (who convinced me to have the party that year) that I'll never have another party.
I thought it was a waste of time.
For most of my 'party', I sat with my grandma at the dining table reading a book...

I had one at 18.. and it was comparatively better but it still wasn't how I'd have liked to spend my birthday.
My 18th birthday barbecue party was due to my father wanting a barbecue party... not me.

However, every year.. people ask me 'How are you going to celebrate your birthday?'
And when I say "Not celebrating"... They ask me "Why?"

Why?
Because it isn't important to me...
It's just another day...

And also...
Because I do not have enough friends to invite to make a 'party'.
All my friends on both sides of the rainbow that I will invite to a party can be counted with all the fingers I have attached to me.

So No.
I'm not having a party this year (Stop asking, by the way)
I'll be celebrating it like how I have been celebrating it for the past how many years.

With my family and the friends that I care for.

By the way... It falls on a Friday night... DRINKS!

大切な友達は宝物

2011-10-16T00:14:00.005+08:00

I don't blog much these days.
That is an understatement in the true-est meaning of the word.
However, I have crawled out of my self-dug hole in this blog-o-sphere to expand upon Claire's recent blog post and all the sweet things she said about us.
(She called me fickle, bossy and talkative and still I say it's sweet because she also called me her Wikipedia.. Hopefully without all the false information)

I never realised just how much I relied on them all for my sanity until a few weeks ago when I stumbled into really bad bumps on my proverbial work road.

But I'm getting ahead of myself... As I so often do.

It started, as Claire mentioned, when she was unhappy with work.
It was a simple tweet of "Let's meet up"
And we did.
She ranted and we joked and we laughed over drinks.
After that session of mindless chit chat, we said "We should make this a weekly thing".
However, the members of this weekly happening kept changing and waning.
I cannot pin point when exactly the current group became the core group because as with all good things, it was never planned.

The second time another of us was unhappy with life, Mike sent out a tweet saying "YL is upset. Let's meet him".. Thanks to the power that is Twitter, within minutes I was out of the house and surprising YL at Starbucks and minutes later, Claire was there and just as soon as she was settled, Mike appeared and then we bugged YL to spill his problems.
Personally, I'd like to think we cheered him up that night for he smiled a lot more towards the end.

And that's the thing about our sessions that I enjoy.. the fact that it's just a group of people getting together to make one or each other feel better about something or another.
I was always happy just being there for them.

Then, September came.
And for some reason, life at work became hard.
Maybe I had enough of it or maybe the people didn't like me.
I would probably never figure out why and I don't think I want to.
I'm not the easiest person to be with and through my almost-23 years of life, I have learned to accept it. I'm not a like-able person but there are people who love me for who I am and so I wouldn't change just to fit in.
It all happened one fine day when I had a brilliant string of bad luck followed by what shall henceforth be known as My Worst Phone Conversation Ever.
I tweeted Mike, Jasmine and Claire about meeting up that night because I needed some group therapy (YL does not have Twitter, I need to see to this)
We met, we ate Hokkien Mee, I imbibed and I complained.
And the moment I was done complaining, I felt so much better, words cannot begin to describe (for I am not the best writer and user of words)..

So here's what I love about the people that I meet weekly...
Their individual quirks and characteristics are always what lifts a down person's spirits up.
(And I'm doing this to reciprocate Claire's kindness on her blog)

Claire: The one with the wittiest retorts and sarcasm. So witty that it never offends but always amuses and lifts my spirits. Always says I'm bossy/fickle but somehow never literally stuffs the shoe down my throat... though, I'm assuming if I don't watch my back, you might.. soon. I love you for always listening to me talk about whatever random thing that is on my mind although you make it very clear that you aren't interested/have no idea what I'm talking about. You suck it up like a boss!

Jasmine: I'll always find our friendship to be unique and that's what I like about it. I don't remember being particularly close to you in college. I think we can thank Twitter for getting us closer together for I got to know you over random tweets and my random responses. You appear to be the embodiment of everything that I am not and that's what I love. Don't go back to Singapore.

Mike: The first person in my life who has made me feel like I have acquired useful knowledge. I spent my life reading every single thing from encyclopedias to newspaper clippings I find lying around on the road and all people have ever told me about it is that I am weird or I'm wasting my time. You also acknowledged the one thing that I do best - talking. You guys are kind for not telling me to shut my trap outright.. for many people have done so when they don't want to hear me speak of my favourite things. I love you for inviting me to give that lecture... I really do. You made me feel smart.. which I've never felt before.

Raymond: Ah, so many words so little time. I stand by my word that I love you for your pride. Your pride in who you are and your confidence in yourself. Whether or not you really feel that does not matter for that is what you show. And that is your greatest asset. You do not let people walk all over you and as much as I poke fun at you, know that I do it all in jest. Although sometimes I want to pummel you into literal pulp, you know I love you.

Yeow Long: To this day, I always have to double check as to whether I spelt your name right. In fact, I have a suspicion that I spelt it wrong already. Although your recent topic of 'changing people' shone some light on what may be a dormant megalomaniac lying within the black holes of your being... know that it is weird, random things like that that makes you unique. And it is your unique-ness that I love. Stop saying that I "suddenly became cute", though. I've caught you doing it on two different occasions now and I'm not loving it at all. However, that also magnifies your 'uniqueness'... You're probably the only person out there who says I'm "CUTE". I'm not. And it'll be good for your physical well-being to take note of that fact.

お久しぶり

2011-10-01T20:40:00.003+08:00

おす～！
私は最近大変忙しいかったから、ブログが出来ない。

私のライフはつまなくなってしまったよ～
前の気がない。
毎日は働いてと寝て。
少しアドベンチャも無い。
幸せか、俺？

今月の仕事は全部多きなエベント。。つかれすぎるけど休みが出来なかった。

Sigh...
You don't know how much I'm hoping for it.
[The English might or might not be related to the Japanese]

RIP TAIJI

2011-07-18T20:49:00.002+08:00

1966 - 2011

It's been almost 10 hours since I heard the news and I still cannot believe it.

I'm trying to type how and why he ended up dead but... I seriously do not how to do that.
All I know is, he finally got his life/career back together and then... this.
I didn't even know he got arrested.
I didn't even know he attempted suicide.
And then today, my sister messages me saying that he was brain dead after his attempt and that they decided to unplug the life support...
It's not good to start off your week by crying at work.

I had so much of hope of actually seeing him live after he popped up on stage at the X Japan concerts.

Now.. from the original 5 members, we're left with 3.
I do a little tribute to hide every year and I do feel sad whenever I think of the fact that he is gone.. but somehow, because I wasn't aware of the fact that hide died until a few years later it isn't as sad as it is with Taiji.

I probably don't make much sense typing but my brain is a little muddled with the fact that Taiji is dead.
Taiji!
The cowboy hat-wearing, tattoo-sporting, bike-riding, bass-ripping piece of awesome that composed Voiceless Screaming.

Mum said "Life isn't fair" when I practically wailed that "It is unfair".
It is.
I'm going to be selfish and immature and insist upon the fact that IT IS UNFAIR!
It is unfair that people like Taiji die and useless people are left to prowl the earth.

Updates Updates, read all about it.

2011-07-02T00:37:00.002+08:00

I say this a lot and I know I'm going to sound like a really broken recorder but life cannot get anymore mundane than it is now.
Seriously.
Where is the adventure?
Where is the excitement?
I used to wake up everyday thinking and wondering about the endless possibilities life might give me...
Now I just wake up, go to work, come home and sleep.
I'm not a very happy person.

Been listening to loads of Yann Tiersen, X Japan, E.S Posthumus, Immediate Music and Globus these past few days.
Yann Tiersen is one of those composers that you listen to, sip a cup of tea, close your eyes and illustrate a children's book in your mind. Full of fantasy creatures and adventures. It makes me happy. You (whoever you are) should really listen to him.
Now I feel like drinking my strawberry tea.

My head's been cloudier these past few days.
My teachers used to complain about me constantly day dreaming... wait till they see me now. They're just gonna slice off a piece of foot in agony at how I turned out.

So apparently, the new Miss USA knows quite a bit about Star Wars and the media is going ape-shit crazy over that.
Why?
Can't a girl like Star Wars?
Wait till I win a beauty pageant, you idiots are gonna lose your pants AND panties over the amount of shit I know about Star Wars.
I'm not proud of it but my brother and I watched A New Hope AND Empire Strikes Back more times than we can count. (Vader was attractive even to a naive, innocent young me though he scared the Jesus out of me)
And that was before we reached the double digits.

... I'm actually quite proud of it.

Lately, I've been reminiscing...
Not about much, I assure you.
It isn't so much that I'm reminiscing but I'm just thinking about things from the past and indulging myself in more day dreams.

Oh and the dreams have gotten a tad weirder.
You thought cannibalism, cut-and-run limb mutilation and killer chess-playing clowns were weird.. I actually dreamed of REAL people and REAL friends the other day.
*shudder*

久しぶり

2011-06-11T22:22:00.001+08:00

Masked Dancer

Le Corset

Brassaï..
♥ his pictures :D

2011-05-07T03:35:00.002+08:00

I drink.

That fact has been much established over the years.

But!

Why is it that people find it weird/strange/amazing/fascinating that I like my whiskey, neat?

Take today for example.
I said "Black Label. Neat"
The guy says "With Coke?"
I scowl and say "NO. NEAT"
He says "OH? No mixer for you, miss?"
I glanced at him and say "No. Neat. No mixer, no 'rocks'...." and look at him pointedly to further reinforce my order.
He says "Oh. WOW!"
I think I looked a little offended.

The second time I ordered that, the man that poured me my drink asked me thrice whether I wanted to mix it with water or something else.
3 times.
WHY?
I'm honestly questioning why they doubt me when I say "Neat".

But the bar tonight (we adjourned to a bar after Raymond's birthday dinner for drinks) was honestly QUITE crap.
They only have ONE type of beer. NO stout. NO draught stout.
I think it's safe to say it was one of the crappier bars I've been to but the company made up for the lack of drinks.

Does RACE really matter?

2011-04-21T21:32:00.003+08:00

I will always say NO.

As far back as I can recall.. My closest friends were all half something or another.
The only person whom I can safely say is 100% purely Chinese is SJ.
For the entirety of my school life (college excluded), the amount of friends I was close to can be counted with one hand (or half of it if we're going to be nitpicky about things but I won't be)

My Mum reckons that my friends were never confined to the perimeters of the Chinese realm because I couldn't speak Chinese (and still can't).
Which is true.

Few incidences involving my friends and their race will ALWAYS stay in my mind only because it makes me question the necessity of recording the race of EACH and EVERY student at the start of a new school year.

Take Nut for example.. she's half Chinese (Dad) and half Eurasian (Mum).
The prefect came in to ask for all our races and she raised her hand at Chinese because by right (and I'm not sure who ordered it to be this way) our race would usually follow our Dad's race.
The prefect was convinced she was mucking around and insisted she was under 'lain-lain' (which means, 'others') to which Nut replied a very simple "No, I'm Chinese" followed by a recital of her full name.
Not five minutes before that, Shari raised her hand at 'lain-lain'.
Shari, as I understand, is half Phillipino (Dad) and half Indian (Mum) and she does fall under 'lain-lain' if the need ever arises to categorise us by race.
Again, the prefect insisted she must be Indian just because her skin is darker.
Which she refuted until the prefect relented and listed her as is right.

It is amusing to note, that in this country.. we are categorised not by what we're registered as but by our skin colour.

Chris is half Indian (Dad) and half Chinese (Mum) but she is probably fairer than me at the best of times.
In Form 5, she raised her hand at Indian and the prefect, quite bluntly, told her to be serious and was going to right her down for Chinese.
Her name, if I'm allowed to say this, starts with Christina and ends with Sebastian.
In which time, place, dimension and parallel universe does that ring the Chinese bell?

Why is it so important to know one's race and religion?
If not for the purpose of discrimination?

Now that I'm working and meeting alot of people I wouldn't usually have met.. I've realised just how many people in this world play the race cards without a full deck.

Why is it important to know whether the company I work for is a Malay company or a Chinese company?
Why is it important to know whether that girl with the darker complexion and small eyes is Malay or Chinese?
Why is it important to know whether the girl dating the Caucasian man is a Malay, Chinese or Indian?

(I'm quoting real questions that were raised in my presence)

Even in places that I wish did NOT have racist people I hear things like "Of course, he's Malay". As though, that explains EVERYTHING.
It does not.
You can't stereotype people based on 'common knowledge'.
There are those who fit the stereotype and there are those who don't.
A person is always more complex than what you think.
Allowing a person's race to alter your decisions or even change the way you look at the person or think of the person means you are RACIST and there is NO other way that I will ever say it.

Anybody who has made a decision based on RACE alone is racist. I'm sorry.

[I'm Chinese with Chinese friends and for some reason in this country, the Chinese are really against the Malays for whatever reason I do not understand.. therefore, you would notice that the examples I mentioned involves these two races alot]

2011-04-13T23:16:00.003+08:00

The kind of thing that just makes u lose hope in mankind.
I hope the guy is proud of himself.

2011-04-12T01:18:00.002+08:00

When I was very young (around kindergarten), my grandma used to take me for walks in the evening. We'd either go to the park behind my house or we'd go to this small road two blocks away from my house.

This road had a whole lot of trees on one side and there was a tree with really pretty red flowers that my grandma used to tell me was a rain tree.
Therefore, I called that place a rainforest.
As I was the daydreamer sort, the idea of a 'rain tree' was something that tickled my fancy (Only because I didn't quite get it)
I always imagined that it only rained around the tree therefore, it's a rain tree.

I drive by my old house everyday now to get to work.
It irks me to know that the small road is now the side of a new mall... and all the trees have gone.

I don't deal well with change.

What is this?

2011-03-22T22:39:00.002+08:00

I'm updating???
\o\ \o/ /o/ <-[people cheering]

I'm here to record a dream I had the other night.

I dreamed I was back in secondary school. I know it was Sports Day because people were running in track suits and I was in a cheerleading uniform.
I dreamed a big black cloud suddenly rolled over the stadium (which we were in, which is weird since my secondary school never had Sports Day in a stadium).
I dreamed it started to thunder and I looked up.. only to find fire.. and cloud. It was an odd mix of black cloud and fire that could be seen amongst the black fluff.
I dreamed that a man, holding a lit torch, was running in the stands towards the black cloud and with a sick smile, a demonic laugh (and face, by the way), he jumped into the cloud.
I dreamed that it started to rain sparks. The type of sparks you see when someone welds.
I FELT the sparks on my skin and it burned so bad (which is strange since those sparks don't actually hurt normally)
I dreamed that I was stuck and couldn't run and a guy ran towards me, pushed me down and covered me but I could still feel the burns on my legs.

I woke up that night perplexed and completely at a lost for the first time in a long time.
I can never interpret my dreams but this is the first dream that had something as real as Sports Day and a stadium.

I fell back asleep and I started dreaming again. The continuation.

I was with Christina.
I walked into her house (which isn't actually her REAL house in REAL life) and I opened the back door that led into the very same stadium.
I said "Isn't it so weird? What happened yesterday?"
She said "What happened yesterday?"
I said "The cloud? The guy? The sparks? I still feel the pain"
She said "Uh, Lyd, nothing happened yesterday"

And then I woke up to go to work.

WEIRD.
Even SJ agrees with me that it's weird.
As I remembered, the Torch Guy looked like a demon. His eyes weren't really eyes, his lips weren't really lips and his nose wasn't really a nose.
He looked human but not.
Does that make sense?

2011-03-17T19:05:00.001+08:00

TRUTH : I don't blog as I used to.

FALSE : I try.

TRUTH : There's too many things going on.

FALSE : There's too little time in the day.

So.. see ya when I see ya.

2011-03-05T02:20:00.003+08:00

I always say that I feel satisfied with my job when I see people having fun and not complaining during the event.
But today, despite his drunkenness, repetitive-ness and long winded-ness... I would say that I was quite pleased that he bothered to come up to us four (Natasha, Bread-chan, SJ and I) to tell us that he was impressed with our work. Thanks :)

Today's event was relatively small in comparison to the ones I've been doing but it was fun.

I left my notebook in the hotel and I'm feeling quite depressed about it.
I hate losing things and I don't know why I lose things so easily.
I really don't know.
I actually take the effort to NOT lose things and yet I still do.

Kinda hate myself sometimes.

*sigh*

Dream, dream, dream...

2011-03-02T20:45:00.002+08:00

Ever woke up deep in thought?
That's what I've been doing for the past few weeks.
I wake up deep in thought because I've been dreaming of the past and I'm wondering why.

*cue emo music*

But seriously. I am.

I've been dreaming up my past experiences, past meetings and past acquaintances.
The good, the bad and the better off forgotten.

I have dreamed of Loaf and I discussing Sailormoon in Standard 2.
I dreamed of Nut and I in Standard5 talking while waiting for the stairs' shutter to open.
I dreamed of the time I sat on the same chair as SJ in Standard 4 copying notes from the blackboard.
I dreamed of Michelle crying in Standard 3 because of something Intan said.
I dreamed of Ain, Atikah, Aisyah, Rachel, Nut and I in Standard 1.. all sitting around the same tables.
I even dreamed of people that I no longer can remember.... when awake.
I dreamed of my kindergarten friends... that girl I coloured with for the competition. The girl with the thick headbands. The girl with the straight long hair. The girl who said she wanted to become a mother. The boy who never buttoned up his shirt. The boy who kept crying.

WHY?

My dreams have always been weird but they've never been REAL.
Now I'm dreaming of things that has happened in the past and I do not know why.
I have not been thinking about it lately.
I have not been second guessing my life decisions.
I have not been missing friends or anything.

I want to know why because I could really use a good night's sleep.

2011-02-25T22:17:00.002+08:00

Hello, All!

It's been awhile, hasn't it?

...

Helllooooo?
*clears out dust and webs*

:D

Okay, so I haven't been free enough to blog lately.
Ever thought you'd see the day when I'm not free enough to blog?

... Neither did I.

Anyway, work's been the same ol' same ol'.

I don't actually have anything to blog about or say... *sigh*
Just wanted to blog out the dust.

2011-02-06T13:20:00.003+08:00

Chinese New Year gets quieter and quieter each year.
*sigh*..
This year, on the second day, my Uncle brought Mum, Bro and I to Papan in Perak to watch fireworks... up close!
It was awesome-exciting and he also gave me this book which has postcards from Perak all those years ago. It is quite something to see pictures of Perak way back when and notice the buildings that are still standing.
And I love any gift in the form of BOOK.

Work starts tomorrow again.
The hectic six-day working weeks are here again. Oh, hello.

Ever feel like you've had enough?

2011-01-30T19:19:00.002+08:00

... Yes.

I'm honestly glad I have work to get my mind off things.

It's the 30th of January. I have been working for... a month, almost.
It's been tiring but strangely, fun.
The part I like best about my job is, it's not a desk job.
I don't sit around behind a desk, under the air conditioning from 9 to 5.
I don't sit in front of the computer.
And best of all, I don't have to deal with colleagues all day.

However, I do have to deal with annoying people who don't understand words.
I'm not the type to waste time telling you what to do when I know I can do it and handle it by myself.
Unfortunately, some of the waiters that I've met are irritatingly nosy, intrusive, obstructive and stupid.
I'm sorry.
When I have to do something within a certain time, I get annoyed when stupid people get in my way. I understand that they may be trying to help and I honestly appreciate it.
But when I say I can do it myself, I mean it.

Today, I've been feeling melancholic.
Not sure why.
I'm not angry, I'm not happy, I'm not irritated.
I just feel like crap.
I want to tell someone (Ivan) how I feel but I don't even know how I feel.
Perhaps, I do.
Perhaps, I just want to deny it.
Therefore, I am unconsciously making myself forget the real reason why.

Either that or I am actually bored because it's my offday.

If that is true, then my sensei was correct in labeling me a はたらきばち (hatarakibachi - working bee)
Either way, I'm not in top condition now.

I think its about time I cut my hair. I'm bored.

Something old but remembered

2011-01-24T01:56:00.002+08:00

When I was in Standard 1, I recall, a teacher took a few students out of the hall during assembly for making noise.
Apparently, they were to remain outside the hall and wait for further punishment once the assembly was over.
I was seated inside and stared at them the entire time (I was quite shameless, obviously).
Then I heard that teacher tell another teacher that if the punishment doesn't set them straight, she will take them to the wheel.

...

Something about that always managed to stay in my memory purely because my curious mind wanted to know what the heck she meant by 'the wheel'.
Why would a wheel be more of a threat than the punishment?
Want to know what my curious mind managed to figure out when I became a teenager?
I figured she must've meant THE WHEEL.
The Breaking wheel.
The Catherine wheel.
I have insane obsessions with different aspects of history every once in awhile (most of the time) and my obsession with medieval torture/killing devices was probably one that people knew about the most because it lasted the longest.
When I read about the wheel, and how they tie a person to a wheel and pretty much beat the shit out of them till all bones are broken and they eventually die of dehydration or whatever (or in some cases, they sped up the death with fatal blows), the memory of that teacher came back and I had an EUREKA moment.

And then I got a little horrified.
Did that teacher know what it meant by the wheel?
Or was she just quoting a line she heard and liked?
Did she know the historical context of it?

If I had known then what I know now, I would've informed her that some people were broken on the wheel for NOT TALKING.
And maybe it would've been a suitable punishment if those kids killed someone.

2011-01-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

It's been four days of me running up and down in Bukit Jalil because of the Proton Malaysian Open... the event that I'm currently tangled up in.

Four days of irregular meals.
Four days of caterers who think they can decorate as well.
Four days of international badminton players who somehow, all stare at me strangely.
Four days of STAIRS.
Four days of walking.
Four days of craving proper food.
Four days of being all aloney on my owney.
Four days of non-stop calls and messages.
Four days of parking in a smelly loading bay.
Four days of random conversations with RELA people and TV crews.
Four days of last minute changes and decisions.
Four days of having to chase people to get things done.

All I can tell myself now is... TWO MORE DAYS!

And then I'm done. I hope I don't need to work on Monday.
My back hurts.

2011-01-21T02:12:00.001+08:00

Now I gotta make sure I don't have any events on that day.
I should start praying really hard now.

Video Games Live is coming to Malaysia again!

2011-01-21T02:03:00.003+08:00

I am literally beside myself with joy here~
Just in case you demanded proof.

I had such a bad day at work today and Rye-chan gives me good news and bad news.
The bad news is, my Date Masamune Nendoroid's release date has been postponed.
The good news is....

VGL IS RETURNING!
A WHOLE NIGHT OF GEEKS ENJOYING GOOD GAME MUSIC!
THE ONE NIGHT OF 2010 THAT I THOROUGHLY ENJOYED!
THE ONLY TIME I'VE EVER BEEN SO EXCITED AT THE WORDS "Oldie but a goodie"!

*runs off screaming with excitement into the night*

2011-01-16T21:21:00.002+08:00

If you are to read the latest tag in the chatbox.. you would notice the spammer/bot/whatever said "Thank you for helping educate people"...

All I can say is, thank you for thinking my blog is educational for if anything, it isn't.

Lately, my music choices have been questionable. If the ME from three years ago were to go through my list now, she'll be shaking her head in disappointment and fearing for her future.
(Do not worry for I have not been sucked into the proverbial black hole of mainstream pop music.. it's just been very mild and nobody has complained abt noise pollution for ages)

This whole week I'll be in Bukit Jalil.
I'm doing that badminton open thing.
It's Proton something or another, I don't even know the name! All I know is I'm going to be there -.-

The thunder must have a tracking device on my computer...

2011-01-14T18:11:00.002+08:00

... for it ALWAYS thunders when I'm on it.

Next week is gonna be Hell on Earth.
I have, what can only be referred to as 'One Long Ass Event'.
And it sort of overlaps with another event on the 21st.
Good luck ME.
That means I have to go to the dungeon tomorrow (Saturday).
*sigh*

On a geekier note...

I always knew that real otaku are insane (and possibly living in a vivid make-believe world).
But I guess, I just never really gave it much thought until Ryebread (Loafie) linked me to a page that reported news about them.
Sad to say, two of the articles I read was about MALAYSIAN otaku.
Seriously, it was quite surprising to see my own country's otaku painted in such an insane light.
Stalking a seiyuu and stealing a seiyuu's bottle (just for the thrill of an 'indirect kiss') is just crazy crazy crazy.
(Not to mention, the Indonesian people were of, as usual, insulting the whole of Malaysia in the comments.. not sure why they hate so much but, I honestly couldn't care less)

There IS a reason why I've never seriously called myself or anybody an otaku.
Because it IS still considered an insulting term and I honestly do not think it is something that I can be proud of.
In jest, yes, I have referred to myself as that but... seriously, the things I do does not qualify me to be one.

Then I told Loafie that if it was Hayami Sho, Midorikawa Hikaru or Morikawa Toshiyuki... I MIGHT want to stalk them.
But she pointed out that I have said they were not too gentle on the eyes.
So I said, "I'll say 'Hello' and while they reply my greeting, I'll close my eyes and imagine their anime characters"
I think it's a good plan. My Mum tutted at me when I told her my plan.
I don't think she understands.

2011-01-11T20:39:00.003+08:00

So work has started... *nod nod*... and it's honestly not as exciting as some parties make it out to be. My parents were all excited for me on the 'first day'.. and they were saying 'Have a good time' and 'Enjoy yourself' and I had 'Meh' going through my mind.
Maybe it's because I ended up working full-time for people I used to part-time with so I pretty much knew all of them.
Today's event was in Zouk.
COLD AS HECK.
Also, it stank worse than a toilet.
I kid you not.
One side smelled dank, damp and sweaty while the other side, the side I where I was hiding, smelled like a party of drunk kids threw up together.
Again, I kid you not.
Also, I was alone there. For the first time.
It was a pretty small event so, I guess that's why they figured I'd be okay on my own.
However, it was so cold. Thank GOD for extra tablecloths because I used those as my blanket.
I hid under it and played Harvest Moon. Then I fell asleep.

I was working.

Honestly.

Then I packed up and braved the BLOODY jam home.

Jalan Ampang is honestly CRAP at all hours of the damn day.
I was so afraid my radiator will overheat AGAIN and leave me stranded AGAIN.
(My car's radiator is not in the best working condition and I have to check its water level before leaving the house everyday)

2011-01-05T02:18:00.003+08:00

Ryebread's post on her blog triggered me to write this... HAHA
My first encounter with BL...

If I think about it too hard my brain might crack under the pressure because I honestly cannot be sure about it.

BUT, if my memory serves me right, it was a Gundam Wing doujinshi.
HeeroXDuo, I remember.
Before you start vomitting sand and run screaming to the mountains, hear me out.
I only downloaded it because the drawing looked amazing.
After I started reading it, I said, "Okay... Interesting" (Interesting because I never thought that Heero might have a thing for Duo's hair :S)
At the end, I think it's safe to say I became quite hooked.
Then came Yami no Matsuei.
May the Lord forever shine down on AXN for running it.
From the get-go, I was rooting for MurakiXTsuzuki.
And this is before I even understood what the bloody 'X' meant.
Gravitation came after that and then came all the manga.
I cannot remember which one was first but I do remember these few titles as being the first ones that I was really hooked on.

Dear Myself, Bukiyou na Silent, Love Mode, Only the Ring Finger Knows, Boys Next Door, Keijijyou na Bokura, Loveholic, Hybrid Child, Cut, Bondz and OF COURSE Zetsuai1989/Bronze.

These are, to this day, still my favourites.
Particularly Zetsuai 1989 and Bronze (Zetsuai is the prequel to Bronze).

It's so weird to see these titles now and know that they are SO MILD compared to alot that I've encountered.

LOL.
Good thing or bad thing, I shall not decide in fear that it'll affect my ONE and ONLY source of entertainment.

Ryebread and I also had a very serious conversation.
The question posed at the beginning was "Why do girls like yaoi?"
It went on to "Probably the same reason why boys like yuri.... but why do boys like yuri?"
I told her that I always use something Minami Ozaki (author of Zetsuai1989/Bronze) said about it.. It is something along the lines of "I like men so I like to see two men together"
I swear I read it in an interview she did.

For whatever reason.. it rocks. End of story.

It's so weird that one sex-less doujinshi has led to Togainu no Chi and Viewfinder. WTF!

2011-01-03T23:33:00.002+08:00

When these two arrived in my mail, I jokingly said "Now, I just need to get Chousokabe Motochika"
Then... I started to seriously want Chousokabe Motochika but held back because, he didn't have his rival.

Today, I went online and found this...
Mori Motonari AND Chousokabe Motochika.
The rivals.
.... and it was going for 999yen on AmiAmi.

The little green men in my brain started sending signals...
"Now you NEED both", they said.

Guess who's waiting for another two Revoltech's?

あけましておめでとう！

2010-12-31T23:02:00.004+08:00

It's that time of the year again.
31st December.
2010.
What have I achieved this year?
What have I done this year?
What am I going to do next year?
Should I bother with resolutions and all that bullshit?

This year:

I turned 22 years old
I got over the death of Nozomi after a new furry pal came home with me in March. We named him Yuki and he is very fat and spoiled.
I graduated after a tough and very stressful final year. Despite the potholes, bumps and spontaneous cave-ins in the road to graduating, I managed to pull through and graduate with all my buddies.
I delved further into geek-dom this year with Ryebread-chan poisoning me with Nendoroids.
I got a job which I'm starting next year.
My sister got married :D
I got her room HAHA
My kanji reading skills became better~
I realised that I do enjoy spending time on my own, doing my own thing.

What should I do next year?
Here's what I think I should do.
(No, it isn't resolutions)

I should work hard, earn money and be useful ~~and BUY A PS3 and PSP~~.
Cuddle and love the furry pal like there is not tomorrow.
Be a better mother to my DEAR IVAN.
Maybe I'll try to be more sociable... and be more accepting of stupid people.
... I should also try to STOP PLANNING.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYBODY!
　皆さん、あけましてましておめでとう！
SELAMAT TAHUN BARU!
:D

2010-12-27T02:48:00.002+08:00

Decided to put up the chatbox again.
Just for fun... and also because this blog is collecting dust D:

Christmas came and went without much drama this year.
:D
In the course of buying presents for people.. I obtained a new set of green headphones and two new tank tops (one of which features PINK prominently XD)
It is a problem with me.. I love shopping for people but at the same time, I'd be weaker to temptations.
One year, I bought myself a black dress and a silver clutch.
The next year, I bought myself a pair of black, knee-high, lace-up boots.
At least this year, I didn't spend quite as much on myself.

The other thing is... I'm starting work in January.
FINALLY.
I actually hear the silent cries of joy from my family and from the people who seem to have had a problem with me not working.

Tomorrow, Monday, I'll be in Ryebread's house loon-ing.. geek-ing.. and just being our usual selves.

I'll tell you something that is disappointing.
... When you've liked a certain musical group for quite some time...
Like from when they were still virtually unknown unless you move in that certain circle of people.
And then, to find out later when they become MORE popular than before... that the singer can't really sing live. -.-
That is disappointing.

2010-12-25T23:00:00.002+08:00

"One night, in the year 1713 I dreamed I had made a pact with the devil for my soul. Everything went as I wished: my new servant anticipated my every desire. Among other things, I gave him my violin to see if he could play. How great was my astonishment on hearing a sonata so wonderful and so beautiful, played with such great art and intelligence, as I had never even conceived in my boldest flights of fantasy. I felt enraptured, transported, enchanted: my breath failed me, and - I awoke. I immediately grasped my violin in order to retain, in part at least, the impression of my dream. In vain! The music which I at this time composed is indeed the best that I ever wrote, and I still call it the "Devil's Trill", but the difference between it and that which so moved me is so great that I would have destroyed my instrument and have said farewell to music forever if it had been possible for me to live without the enjoyment it affords me." - Giuseppe Tartini

When's this devil entering my dreams?
I especially liked the part where he said "I felt enraptured, transported, enchanted: my breath failed me, and - I awoke"... don't you just HATE when that happens?

I've always liked Tartini's Sonata in G Minor.
But whenever I think about the real story behind the music, I yearn to meet this devil and have him play it for me.
This might sound dangerous to say but perhaps, out of curiosity, I would trade my soul to listen :S

久しぶりだね

2010-12-19T21:08:00.002+08:00

As the title says - "Long time no see"

I don't blog as much anymore :(
I'm too busy being an “おたく” (otaku)
As much as I have avoided using that word to describe myself - (for I do not think being called a 'house' is a nice thing) - I think I have reached that point.

...

But lets push that aside and let me describe, in a few words, Comic Fiesta this year.
猫耳, コノエ, Detroit Metal City, Hetalia, Kuroshitsuji, BRS and that super amazing group of cosplayers outside the exit doors.

猫耳 (nekomimi) is cat ears.. of which I bought myself a pair.. because.

コノエ (Konoe) would be the default uke in Lamento. I saw a girl cosplaying him standing by a map who was pretty and looks JUST like Konoe. So spot-on was her cosplaying that I almost shouted 'KONOE' when I saw her. I didn't need to stare, wonder or guess her character. Either that or my brain is just permanently filled with anything BL. Even her tail was crooked! Hooray for detail~!

Detroit Metal City would only mean Krauser whom I saw upon entering the hall. Funny as HELL. I liked his air guitar performance to Satsugai.

Hetalia and Kuroshitsuji was sooo popular in the artists section. Pin badges, bookmarks, full-sized printouts.. anything you can think of, it had Ciel, Sebastian, Grell, Alois, Claude and all the countries on it.

BRS (Black Rock Shooter) was the last cosplayer I saw and DAMN was she HOT.

Along with that super amazing group of cosplayers. I have no clue what anime they were doing but DANG IT, their costumes were so amazing. The detail and the workmanship was incredible.

2010-12-13T22:43:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night was the long-awaited dinner for my sister's wedding :)

To make a long story short...

No sleep + No food + Alcohol = DEATH.

Before I got anything to eat, my dad whisked me away and made me drink with his friends.
That kinda did it for me.

As usual.. When I'm drunk.. I repeat myself too many times.

I apologise to everybody sitting at my table.. for not warning you about the alcohol consumption.

Something old and something violent

2010-12-05T18:49:00.003+08:00

In primary school, right around the time I was 11 and started turning into a full-fledged tween, my Mum gave me her old Samsonite vanity case.
And when I mean OLD, I mean OLD.
Take a look.
Mine is in a beige/cream.
Obviously, these pictures are not mine for I do not own curling irons.

For some reason I loved it.
I guess I've always loved old, hand-me-down stuff.
I used it to keep all my 'secret' stuff in it.
My diary was in it and so was all the little sketches that I made.
[And those hate-letters that I used to write to people who pissed me off.. I shall explain more later]
In the later years though, junk piled up in it and I hardly used it anymore though I refused to let my Mum give it away or throw it.
That is because somehow, to me, it is of massive value and I refuse to let anybody else own something that I find valuable.
Not even if they pay.

I brought it out from under my old room's curtain just now and gave it a wipe down.
I opened it to discover that for the past four years, it has been storing all my cheerleading medals. So THAT IS where they disappeared to.
Anyway, I've decided to clear out the medals and use it to store proper things in it.
... And I think I need to use some real cleaners to clean up the surface. It'll be really pretty if I clean up the years of dust and dirt.
It is still in very good condition with the locks working perfect and everything :)

***

Now, on to the hate letters.
*Takes a second to laugh at my idiocy*
I'm a coin-box... according to my older sister.
I keep things in me.
So, in the past when family/friends piss me off.. on the surface, I took it really well and remained calm and was even capable of ignoring (because I've always found it troublesome to fight).
My sister once said "It's good that Lydia's able to ignore all of it"..
Little did she or anyone know that I'm not good at it at all.
My storage time can only last so long..
To manage my anger.. I used to 'write letters' to the people who annoy me. Without sending it to them of course.
I would even start of with "DEAR: so and so" and sign off with my signature.
The contents of the letter would describe in detail how I wish beat them up (usually for family) and how I wish to see them die (usually friends/enemies).
I kid you not. I was 10/11 around the time I started doing this.
In 2003, when we were clearing out our room to accomodate new beds, I discovered them hidden in the vanity case's lining. Which is apparently where I used to keep them.
I was truly shocked that my 10/11 year old mind was capable of conjuring up all that violent crap... and was somewhat amused at my apparent (closeted) insanity.

Now, I feel.. that the situation could have been potentially dangerous for me and for people around me for it is one thing to yell all that shit out at the people you hate but another thing altogether to plan 'murders' in the quiet.

I even had a 'hit-list'.. and it started off, I remember very clearly, along the lines of :
"If I've had enough of living and am going to kill myself, I shall bring these people with me..."
And then I listed down all the people I hated (and some of 'em.. still hating right now)
Seriously.
I might still have that list around somewhere.
Of course, the hate was for completely juvenile reasons but still... :S
It's kinda troubling to know I had those thoughts.

But I guess it kinda explains why, sometimes, I have spontaneous violent urges.
And if you annoy me enough, I might just physically hit you while pretending I'm doing it in jest.
I do believe there has been a few people that has experienced it.

In a way though, I feel like those hate-letters probably saved me from a whole lot of unwanted confrontations.. and knowing me, physical confrontations.
Nowadays, I keep my fists to myself.. just in case.

2010-12-04T22:35:00.002+08:00

Amidst our (my second sister and me) excitement after watching Harry Potter 7 (Part 1), we decided, yesterday night, to watch Harry Potter 5 and believe it or not, she totally missed the starting!
When she watched it all those years back, she only started watching from the part where Hermione's cat was messing with the suspended ear.
Anyway, Snape is sexy.
...
...
...
Yeah, that's all I have to say. HAHA.

Oh and Luna Lovegood is really awesome.

And, despite not having read the sixth and the seventh books, I seem to know ALOT about it.
That just proves how far people went to spoil it for me...
Lemme explain..
I told my sister "Okay, you read the book (sixth) first and I'll read it after you"
Shortly before she completed the book.. I walked past a guy in an irritatingly striking pink shirt that read "DUMBLEDORE DIES IN PAGEXXX".. (Replace XXX with the real page number).
I went "!(&$@(#"
So, I never read it because I really heart Dumbledore and didn't wanna read anymore death after Sirius Black.
I invest so much emotion in the book that by the time I'm done with any Harry Potter book (Book 3 onwards), I'm tired out mentally, emotionally and physically.
Physically because who's idea was it to make the books so damn freaking heavy. LOL.

2010-12-02T21:39:00.002+08:00

Went out with Ryebread-chan today.
Went to Kinokuniya where I picked up Togainu no Chi, Hetalia and Lamento's artbook.. (FINALLY. They've been sitting on that shelf for the longest time)
Ryebread-chan got the Kazuaki artbook!!! (It was so thick, it feel soo worth it for the price.. I kinda want one now)
Because my bill was quite.. uh, high. I got the discount vouchers thing which I used for my Togainu manga which turned the prices into what I remember the prices to be for the Japanese manga.
Then we headed to 1Utama to watch Harry Potter 7.
I would say that I thoroughly enjoyed the movie :)
Among all the 7 that I've seen, this was the best, in my opinion.
I really like Luna Lovegood.
Anyway, the amount of times I cried?
[SPOILER ALERT!]
When George got injured, when they said "Mad-Eye is dead", when Dobby died, when Harry found his parents' grave, when Harry found the house they died in... etc.
[SPOILER END]
I was so afraid people will hear me sniffing LOL.

Listening to Togainu no Chi's Drama CD now (the Shiki one)
I'm confused.. the entire time, Akira was hidden in Shiki's little room, right?
Cause I hear Arbitro, Shiki, Gunji and Kiriwar fighting and screaming around..
Also hear Rin attacking Shiki...
But all scenes with Akira in it involves Shiki mentioning the 'piercing' and.. uh well, THOSE scenes.
Does that mean, in Track 2.. or 3, Shiki already abducted Akira?

CONFUSION.

I <3 the way Gunji calls Shiki, Shiki-ti.
HAHAHA.
My inner, irritating fangirl just did an excited leap.
Akira's seiyuu does a really good job as gasping.. am I allowed to say that?

... Is it wrong that I found Track 7... romantic?
Why is Akira resisting? Can't he just give in already?
Shiki's sprouting all these words and Akira's still being like that. Grr.
Don't go to sleep now, arse! -.-

2010-12-02T01:14:00.003+08:00

Me: Yeah.. it's my Peter Pan Syndrome.
SJ: ... HUH? It's your period pants in Germany?
Me: ... WTF?
SJ: ... What?
Me: ...

I either need to attend speech therapy classes or SJ needs her ears checked.

2010-12-01T18:16:00.003+08:00

While in Daiso with SJ...

I discovered cloth.
Pretty Japanese-y cloth.
And I was so tempted to get it.. the only problem is "What will I do with it?"
So I decided...
...
I'll make a Yukata for Ivan. Complete with Haori.. (perhaps)..

I've already got the pieces cut out and I just need to starch the cloth before cutting and sewing for the cloth is quite soft.

The only problem that I'm worried about now is these two facts..
- Ivan is tiny. The kimono is 4 inches in length. The stitching will need to fit the scale.
- I HAVE NEVER STITCHED ANYTHING IN MY LIFE. Unless the line of stuffed shirts I stitched my sister for her birthday counts.

2010-11-29T22:16:00.006+08:00

I first began reading GetBackers at age 11 when my second sister came home one day with volumes 1 to 3 of the Malay version.
I read it all the time and everything about it piqued my imagination.
From the men with extraordinary powers.. to the Unlimited Fortress or as it's called in the original Japanese version, "Mugenjou" (which translates as unlimited castle/fortress).
I always thought "It'd be cool if such a place exists"
Imagine, a place with absolutely no law.
You can do anything and the long hand of the law will never reach you because they have sworn never to touch such a place.
It drove my imagination wild.

Mugenjou as it appears in the manga

I never thought it possible but... a few days ago, I discovered an article about the Kowloon Walled City.

A picture of the dank, dark hallways cannot be found and these are pictures of the few areas that were lit by sunlight

It was so densely populated that they kept building ON it and it rendered the lower levels void of any sunlight and had to be illuminated using fluorescents.
It was a city of mazes and scraps leftover from the constant building.
It was a hotbed of crime and was controlled by the triads.
It was unsanitary and damp at all times.

The place that was once, for me, an imaginary place I could only dream of, is actually a real place.
However, it has been demolished (1993).
And I shouldn't bear any hope to ever see it.
(I saved the article and decided to only read into it today.. that's when I discovered the similarities between Mugenjou and this city)
Unsurprisingly, many writers/creators of anything have been influenced by this city.
Too bad they tore it down.
Would've been a really interesting place for tourism XD

2010-11-24T03:39:00.002+08:00

If ANYBODY sees this in ANY SHOP at ALL.
LET ME KNOW!!!
(Revoltech Sengoku Basara Date Masamune and Yukimura Sanada)

2010-11-22T18:59:00.001+08:00

:D
Bottom right corner... Phoenix Wright, Professor Layton, Luke and Maya!

2010-11-22T04:08:00.003+08:00

Masayo... my dear friend who growls better than most guys that I've heard live.

...

I helped her pick Barbie Dolls today.

It's quite oxymoronic and paradoxical in all meanings of the words (of which, I believe there's only one each).

While I checked out Star Wars, Legos, Tranformers, Nerfs (Nerves, if we're being grammatically correct) and Gundams...
She checked out Barbie Dolls.

It might be confusing.

Hence, never judge a book by its cover.
Or, never judge a person by what they wear.
For I was in a prissy skirt and she was in a heavy metal t-shirt.

2010-11-20T23:59:00.003+08:00

This is here because this part of the chibi segment in Hetalia is SO CUTE.
Just so you know, that was the part where HolyRomanEmpire (blondie) was leaving the house in which Italy, Hungary and Austria were in. And he is kissing Italy goodbye.
Awwwwwwwww :/

I was surfing the net when I read a snippet of a summary that said "... Jesus and Buddha living in the same apartment as young men and trying to adapt to modern life in Japan..."
I immediately wanted to find out the title.
While my eyes were searching for the title the window changed for I already clicked a link prior to noticing that lil bit of summary.

I tweeted "so apparently, there's this manga abt buddha and jesus as young men living in the same apartment? what's the title and where can i find it?"

RyeBread immediately said "WHERE? GOOGLE!".
We both found it at the same time. Apparently, neither could wait for the other to find it and inform the other.

It's called Saint Young Men and it is HILARIOUS.
It is SO blasphemous that it is sinful to laugh.

yukirye: ..... *attempts to stop self from laughing* ......
yukirye: ......... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
yukirye: Forgive me for I have laughed.

It's really funny.
Jesus has Judas stalking his blog.
Buddha chants sutras everytime he is nervous.. and then develops a halo, which cannot go away.

I think I need to visit a church and a temple to personally apologise for laughing.

Oh, hello there

2010-11-15T19:47:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging much these days.
Truth is, I couldn't be arsed enough.
Its not as if I'm doing nothing, therefore having nothing to blog about but...
Oh, wait. Who am I kidding?
I AM doing nothing.
But, on another note, I have improved my 3DMax skills.

*waits for applaud that will never come*

Anyway.
On Saturday, Ryebread and I took a trip to Kinokuniya for our Chayamachi Chiral Works artbook.
The moment the lady touched the books and Ryebread saw the words 'CCW', she went 'Aaaah!' next to me.
Our excitement was unparalleled.
We then went to Sunway Pyramid for lunch and upon finding a parking spot, I switched on the lights in the car and opened my book (for she was too OCD about the perfection of hers before wrapping and I was just impatient).
We saw the image of Shiki (Togainu) and Rai (Lamento) fighting and we were screaming like we have never screamed before.
I actually looked over my shoulder to make sure nobody's around, just in case they could hear us. I bet we sounded like somebody got murdered... HAHA.
We were going 'aww' over the one, lone Sweet Pool image.. and the FF10 song came on on my stereo. It was oddly, fitting... and Ryebread broke through our sentimental moment by laughing.
Then, we were flipping through the manga section and just as we laid eyes upon Rai going 'いいかげんにしろ!'.... One Winged Angel came on... and we just broke out in over-the-top laughing.
(If you had seen that picture of Rai and know what One Winged Angel sounds like, you'd understand the hilarity of the situation)
I started to wonder if my stereo has a mind of its own.
Otherwise, what's with all the on-cue music.

To people who follow me on Twitter, I'm sorry for, what Ryebread calls, my 'loon' tweets.
Lately, that's all the excitement in my life. :(

2010-11-10T01:17:00.002+08:00

Was doing my 3D images just now.
All I'm doing now is playing with it until it allows me to render. Why Max is being such an arse to me, I wouldn't know.
I just realised, it's fun.
I probably won't be saying that next year but.. for now, it's fun :)

Yesterday night, 7 of us met up in Centrepoint.
Not our usual sessions, yes but.. but... *coming soon*

Received a text from Kinokuniya two days ago and today :)
Now, I'll just be waiting for the third text to tell me that Ryebread's and my artbook has arrived and we'll go to KL!
We should definitely make it another outing! :D

A4-sized. 146 pages

2010-11-08T16:25:00.002+08:00

That is what I'm waiting for now.
Chayamachi CHiRAL Works.
I smile like a little loon everytime I think of it.
Saw a preview and the art is AMAZING.
Shiki!
*Squeal*
It cannot come fast enough.

2010-11-06T13:50:00.003+08:00

Last night was our weekly sessions in places with food.
Less people are coming and last night was considerably quieter with a lot more phone touching (oo-er).

So, I returned home around 12.
After doing the normal things one does when one arrives home, I sit at my computer and proceed with whatever it is I was doing before I went out.
My brother comes up and says "Again, you know?"
I go "Huh"
But inwardly, I was thinking...
No, seriously.
You'd think they'd have enough by now but apparently, no.

So I choose to ignore it and watch Kuroshitsuji (1) and I realised.. that anime is so full of crack.
Even fuller of crack then I was led to believe.
Why does the dog have NO CLOTHES ON?
It's so obscene.
And the dog licking Sebby in admiration.. is just the manifestation of the authors' yaoi-mind.
Once you've read yaoi manga, you'll never be able to think normal again.

2010-11-04T16:03:00.002+08:00

twixt_arcana
@yukirye hmmm ok... :D i'm loving 07-ghost so far. i might be liking frau(??) more than ayanami NOO
yukirye
@twixt_arcana haha Frau is funnyyy But I love Ayanami more. U can take Frau, I'll take Ayanami. =D
twixt_arcana
@yukirye no no!! i only think i like frau more bcuz they have been depriving me off ayanami!! he doesn't show up enough! (yet)
yukirye
@twixt_arcana HAHAHA even in Manga also la. Sad right... I dun mind for some Ayanami x Teito. Young Teito is uber cute!
twixt_arcana
@yukirye ayanami x teito... *repeats it a few times in head*... YES! :D
yukirye
@twixt_arcana HAHAHAHAH I like some Hakuren x Teito tooooXD
twixt_arcana
@yukirye basically... the manlier ones x teito la (i haven't seen hakuren yet) mine is ayanami x anyone. :D another super seme in the making
yukirye
@twixt_arcana LOL. Check out aarin for fanarts yeah. Don't u think that Mikage reincarnation is so cute?XD
twixt_arcana
@yukirye D: i haven't watched that far yet!!!! MIKAGE DIES?!?!?!?!?!?!? T________T why do u do this to me??
yukirye
@twixt_arcana *gasps* I'm sorry.

Lol. It reminded me of the time in Moral class...
(wait, backstory)... Okay, Ryebread did her A-Levels in the same college that I did my foundation in art.. and my degree too actually.
So, for the LAN subjects, they kinda piled in all the students from the different schools and faculties together so she was in my Moral class as well (end backstory).
During one of those Moral classes, while I was talking to her before the teacher came in, I mentioned Godchild and how I was seriously lacking in books 5 onwards. Then she said she thinks there's only 6 books (or was it 8? Not quite sure)..
[Beware: Potential spoiler]
And I said "Oh? So its going to end soon?"
And she said "Yeah.."
And I said "I wonder how it ends"
She said "Huh? Cain dies, I think"
And I proceeded to strangle her.
Cain, is the main character.
[If you read on and I spoiled it for you, sorry. But I warned]

I also like the fact that all the people I talk to now (those that I've known from school not college) are all really old friends.
People that I knew as a small kid, drifted apart as we grew older and somehow, someway we kinda reconnected towards the end of our school life.
Nut, I was only REALLY close to her Std1-2, F2-3 and then in college for those few years.
I knew SJ in Std4, was close to her for two freaking days in Std6 and then in F2 we became really close until now.
Everybody knows these stories already but probably do not know much about Ryebread.

I became friends with Ryebread towards the end of Std2. We then bonded over our shared loved of Sailormoon and I distinctly remember us playing with paperdolls during class only to get them confiscated. It was Ryebread that ignited my love for sketching people when she taught me how to draw one of the characters (Before that I loved sketching Doraemon and mice, note, I was 8 years old).
But as fate would have it, we fell in with different groups and never really spoke much after and there might have been moments of confused animosity (Although, I do not recall any such occasions but like I said "confused").
See, I was always awkward around people in school and people mistook that as intentional bitchiness and I admit, I decided it was easier to let them think so than to correct them. Even if it was people that I know and were close to before, I never knew what to say or what to do and it felt awkward for me to smile and wave so I never did.
[Sometimes, I find that I'm still kind of the same although I worked really hard at changing that part of me but I guess it's impossible to change who I am completely]
When she entered the same class as SJ, that's when we really started talking again.
And guess what?
It was still anime and manga that made us talk.
It was also all those subjects I used to skip in school (Maths, Economics, Accounts etc.) that caused me to inadvertently end up in their class and thus, end up in conversation with all of them.

In many ways, I'm happy that I'm still in touch with these few friends because among all of the people I got to know in school, these are the ones who were probably the least problematic of the lot.

melts

2010-11-02T20:22:00.002+08:00

Everybody who has talked to me about anime/manga will know that my love for Zetsuai and Bronze surpasses alot of other things.
Although, I cannot watch it a million and one times (like I've done with Get Backers etc.) I will put it at the top of my list.
And it's an unlikely pick too because the choices that I make in anime/manga is always based 70% on drawing and 30% on storyline. Seriously.
And Zetsuai is one of those manga that I decided to read because of the story.
Dramatic? Yes.
Did I cry like a crazy? Yes.
Do I consider it emotional torture to watch? Yes.
Have I watched it more often than my emotional well-being can handle? YES.
Have I talked about it more often than I should? YES.
But, every time I listen to the soundtrack, it makes me want to watch it again and it makes me want to talk about it D:
If you've not watched the show or if you do not know the storyline, the lyrics to the music won't make sense.
However, I like the lyrics.
I like it so much because it is pretty much telling the story without spoiling.
(Actually, I think that only applies to the song Bronze ~Saishuushou~)

(Yes, Rye-chan.. I wrote this after remembering I sent the songs to you. Zetsuai makes me such an emotional fool)

I was about to click on the anime in my folder... until I decided against it
Then I thought I'll just read the manga but realised it'll only leave me hanging precariously off another cliff.. so I decided to play Ace Attorney.

And that's when I went on to the Turnabout Goodbyes chapter.
And *something* von Karma is such an irritating backside!
I'd rather take Miles Edgworth's irritating 'tsks' anyday against von Karma's irritating 'tsks'.
I wanted to jump into my DS and slap his stupid buttface!
*fumes fumes*

*inhale exhale*

*hummmmmm*
(Sorry. This humming business is a stupid inside joke)

Rye-bread + Evill + SJ = Loons on crack

2010-10-31T01:43:00.002+08:00

Got a phone call at 12PM today.
For some reason, I completely overslept my alarm clock.
It was Rye-bread.
"Are you still ASLEEP!?"
"urk.. Yeah?"
"SJ's coming to get me already"
"OK"
...
They arrived about two hours later.
We went to Kinokuniya where I picked up Are You Alice Vol.1 and 2 along with Togainu no Chi Vol.1.
The joy of holding books in your hand surpasses all forms of material joy.
I also decided to throw the Lamento artbook into reservation.
Rye-bread discovered Trinity Blood (published by CY) and bought 5 volumes. That is hardcore.
SJ FINALLY got her Junjou Romantica Vol.13 and Kuroshitsuji.
Then, we travelled to 1Utama where I popped in on Nut working.
She's currently holding the job I had in 2007.
After that, we settled into Zanmai Sushi where we ate and looned more.
Then Rye-bread bought a deck of Monopoly cards while SJ was buying another book.
We returned home and while transferring all the wanted files into each other's drives, we played the Monopoly game which turned out to be more fun than expected.
We were screaming at each other.
Like, REALLY screaming. If we were the rough, tough, rumble and tumble type, we would have gotten into physical fights (in a good, fun way) over the damn action cards that allowed players to steal WHOLE sets of property, force swap property or steal any property.
One of SJ's action cards said that she can demand money from all players.
She thought it was just one player so she turned to me and said "2 million, BITCH!~"
Then she decided to re-read the damn card and said "Oh, I mean, bitches"
-_-"
Yes. We weren't only screaming at each other but were cursing as well.
That is how we roll as business people!

Anyway, it was a fun day.
I enjoyed it lots!!
:D

An expression of gratitude?

2010-10-29T21:27:00.003+08:00

I've always felt this way ever since 2007..

I had a fantastic teacher in my foundation classes that taught us drawing and all the details and technicalities that will improve one's drawing.
It was probably our second class in our second semester, when he came in and announced that we were going to be drawing our own portraits.
He then taught us the symmetry of a person's face/body.
How your foot is always the same length as your forearm (elbow to wrist) and all of that.
The corners of lips are usually right below the middle of each eye.
The space between both eyes is an eye.
Your ears starts on the same line as your eyes.
The nose fits right between the eyes.
Until today, every time I doodle for fun, I always end up thinking about everything that was taught and I will always inadvertently try to stick to it.

Perhaps it isn't such a good thing that I allow such 'rules' to dictate my drawing but I find that it works for me...

And I suppose that will be the ONE class that I will always thank the powers that Be for.

If you don't play Phoenix Wright on DS, stop reading.

2010-10-29T00:55:00.002+08:00

Rye-bread and I were arguing over who was dramatic for she accused me of being so.
Somehow, someway, somewhere (on Twitter, actually).. we started debating in the style of Ace Attorney. Complete with the catchphrases.

twixt_arcana
yes u ARE dramatic. :D

yukirye
*gasps in horror* Objection! That's a total lie.

twixt_arcana
objection overruled~

yukirye
and on what basis do you say that? You aren't the judge. Tsk tsk tsk. Where's the evidence?

twixt_arcana
*presents chat history/fb history/twitter history* TAKE THAT!

yukirye
http://bit.ly/cMMQcg Urk! (Link was to a GIF image of Miles Edgeworth doing his "URK" movement)

twixt_arcana
is that a response to the evidence that i have presented? if so, *points accusingly at you* then you are GUILTY of being dramatic!

yukirye
No. That is just the damaged response. You still have not won! Tsk tsk tsk.. Take that! *presents personality report*

yukirye
It says introverted! Those who are introverted are generally not dramatic at all!

twixt_arcana
Gaaah! (Where did he get that?) How can you prove that the report is the truth? Perhaps you aren't really introverted?

yukirye
Tsk tsk tsk.. http://bit.ly/9ciLeQ This is a 16PF report based on real scale and real scoring done by accredited Psychologist!

twixt_arcana
(G-G-GAH! I have no idea what he is talking about) ...

twixt_arcana
If this report is crucial to the case, why wasn't it presented at the beginning of the trial??

yukirye
The reason is due to P&C.It should not be revealed until the situation requires it. At the current moment, it does. TAKE THAT!

twixt_arcana
... Your Honor, the defence requests that the trial be suspended until tomorrow.. (Why don't I have anything to fight back?)

yukirye
*smirks* Judge: Court adjourned. We shall continue tomorrow.

twixt_arcana
Judge: Do you have anything more to say? Me: ...No, Your Honor (I will get you for this!)

yukirye
heh

Right.
And I now declare Rye-bread and I officially.... INSANE!

Combichrist - Parental Content

2010-10-26T01:05:00.003+08:00

Got tagged in Facebook but as usual, I'm gonna do it here. Not that the tagger can see this but whatever.
I know I've done this before but I reasoned that since my playlist is now different (and not as violent), I can do it again.

1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OK?" YOU SAY?
Nightwish - Higher than Hope [What?]

2) HOW WOULD YOU BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Far East Movement - Lowridin' [HAHAHA]

3) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
The Advantage - Castlevania 3 [I would like a little Castlevania in my guy, thanks]

4) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Bruno Coulais (Coraline OST) - Mechanical Lullaby [Yes, yes so true]

5) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Era - I Believe [No, I don't]

6) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Combichrist - Enjoy The Abuse [No, it isn't]

7) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Era - Don't Go Away [This is really how I feel.. not what I think]

8) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Powerglove - The Real Adventures of Johnny Quest [I don't.. not all the time]

9) WHAT IS 2+2?
Tsuneyoshi Saito (Yami no Matsuei OST) - The Nether World of Cherry Blossoms Silhouette [It's four]

10) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Jan A.P. Kaczmarek (Finding Neverland OST) - The Peter Pan Overture [Well, we both have a thing against growing up in away]

11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I Love The Whole World (Boom di ya da).. that Discovery Channel song [Counting the PEOPLE I like, it does seem like I love the whole world]

12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Combichrist - This Is My Rifle [Ha?]

13) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Dokusatsu Terrorist - Doraemon [NOO... maybe]

14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Monica - Angel of Mine [Noooo!]

15) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Tomohito Nishiura (Professor Layton OST) - Suspicion [HAH! I think so too]

16) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Bertie Higgins - Casablanca [Pure coincidence! This IS my 'first dance song' that I've planned for the wedding I'll never have! :D]

17) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Combichrist - God Bless [This damn list needs to be shuffled a little bit more. What's with all the Combichrist?!]

18) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Bond - Midnight Garden [What does it mean?]

19) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Nightwish - End Of All Hope [...]

20) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Takashi Sorimachi (GTO OST) - Poison [... AHAHAHA. Sorry, guys]

21)WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Combichrist - Parental Content [Again.. this damn list needs to be shuffled more]

2010-10-24T03:47:00.002+08:00

Okay. Tagbox taken down.
I cannot stand those strange messages anymore.
Wanna say something? Do it in the comments section.
That's what they're there for.

And dear, MIKE-of-the-tagbox, you did not give me 'traffic' and NO, I won't hit you back. But I WILL hit you if you will show your face.

Imaginations on a highway

2010-10-20T22:04:00.005+08:00

Rye-chan and I have been talking.
We think it'll be perfect to have a school full of all the gorgeous men in our anime and manga.
That way, the motivation to go to school will be twice as strong.
However, the motivation to fail all tests also become stronger for there is NO way you'd want to graduate that school. EVER.

Here's what we have so far...

Principal: Rufus (FFVII)
Secretary: Mookyul (Totally Captivated)
Head of Discipline: Tseng (FFVII)
Assistant to the above: Elena (FFVII)
The people who enforce the rules: Rude, Reno (FFVII), Gunji, Kiriwar (Togainu no Chi)
School Doctor: Watari (Yami no Matsuei)
Person in charge of cafeteria: Dante (Devil May Cry)

English: Gackt (Subject to change for he is a real person)
Chinese: Fei Long (Viewfinder)
Japanese: Oriya (Yami no Matsuei)
General Science: Toshiya (Subject to change for he is a real person)
Chemistry: Asami (Viewfinder)
Biology: Hatori (Fruits Basket)
Physics: Kuja (FFIX)
Art: Soubi (Loveless)
Maths: Sephiroth (FFVII)
Music: Nanjo Koji (Zetsuai/Bronze)
Accounts: Tatsumi (Yami no Matsuei)
Moral: L (Deathnote)
Literature: Usami Akihito (Junjou Romantica)
Business Studies: Kanou (Okane ga Nai)
Economics: Kyoya Hatori (Ouran High School Host Club)
Law: Ewon/FoxJung (Totally Captivated)
P.E: Zack (FFVII)

Then we invented a few of our own subjects..
(Psychology subjects overload because of Rye-chan)

Martial Arts: Shiki (Togainu no Chi)
Cognitive Psychology: Professor Layton
Criminal Psychology: Akabane (GetBackers)
Forensic Psychology: Muraki (Yami no Matsuei)
Personality Psychology: Arbitro (Togainu no Chi)
Sewing: Kazuki

And oh yeah...
School Directors: EVILL & RYE-CHAN

Some of the choices will be very obvious to some.. note that we chose with a hint of irony.
While some are inside jokes that you'll have to know to understand.

Rye-chan, don't forget to replace Toshiya and Gackt with 2D guys.
And to think up more subjects.
While I try to add in more design elements. XD

2010-10-19T23:36:00.000+08:00

Rye-chan linked me to this.
I really want Shiki and Arbitro. :D

I question our ability to create intelligent conversation

2010-10-19T23:17:00.003+08:00

Rye-chan and I on Twitter again.

CY: Hmmm Asami in glasses and lab coat.. I think he would make an intimidating science teacher

LL: yes that is HOT. takaba as a student~! :D

CY: oppps... hahahah don't startttt =P How abt Gackt? I think he would make a good PE teacher. HAHA

LL: no.. gackt will make a good language teacher cuz that'll mean he'll speak alot. his voice is awesome.

CY: hahahahaha Hyde?

LL: that's for sj to fantasize... LOL

CY: LOL. Sephy?XD

LL: SEPHY... can be my math teacher. only he can make math equations sexy. i might just pass.. XD

CY: LOL. *cough* If u say soooooXD

LL: but just imagine sephy reciting linear equations. *nosebleed*

CY: as well as detention, after u attempted to fail his class........

LL: I KNOW. i won't attempt, I WILL. but maths with sephy will b dangerously sexy. u'd never know when he'd bring masamune as a ruler.

CY: but really, what u wanna do in detention, keep in within u. u dun need to share. REALLY. NO NEED

LL: hahaha dont worry. i wasn't planning on sharing ^_~. detention with sephy might end in my death.

Like I said.
No intelligent conversation.
And they call us 'intelligent life-forms'.
Meh.
They should change it to 'creative life-forms'.

So here goes nothing...

2010-10-19T14:37:00.003+08:00

[BEWARE: Angry post ahead]

IF THAT WOMAN THINKS THAT SHE CAN JUST DISPOSE OF MY TOYS, SHE'S GOT ANOTHER THING COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So yesterday, after finally entering my room after a week, I went up to see if everything was in order and LO, it wasn't.
Strike Freedom's sword was nowhere to be found.
Searched, I did. Up and down, in and out. It was nowhere.
My aunt did not use the portion of the table his sword was on.
I did not touch it so it must BE HER!

WHAT IS A GUNDAM WITHOUT ITS SWORD!?

I'm royally pissed off right now.

And I forgot to mention...

2010-10-18T15:04:00.001+08:00

... Rye-chan is indeed special.
I'm usually told "OK. Don't die of blood-loss"
.... she said "Don't die of anemia"
GEEK! GEEK!

Ooh. I'm finally regained balance and footing on the cliff-of-patience.

And I got my room back. :D

Tell me, tell me... baby

2010-10-18T14:26:00.002+08:00

Lately, while doing my work late at night... I play N'Sync to soothe me.
No, really.
Particularly their slow songs.
While I like every single song that they have ever recorded, my least favourite song is Bye Bye Bye. Which is kinda strange considering people say "Bye Bye Bye" every time you mention N'Sync.
Other songs I really love is "That's When I'll Stop Loving You", "For The Girl Who Has Everything".... and etc.
Nice.
Even my sister was singing along.
It was like impromptu karaoke.

Troubling times

2010-10-16T21:28:00.004+08:00

Rye-chan said "I think your tag box is a magnet for weird messages" over Twitter.

And I agree.

So, I'm not gonna give a rat's arse about it and just leave 'em be.
If anybody has a sudden attack of Trojans upon landing on this page let everybody know.
Then I'll do something about it.

For the past week, I've had my patience wrung dry.
I'm hanging on for dear life off the cliff-of-patience.
A few more days, a few more days, a few more days.

Another troubling thing that has happened recently is the new Devil May Cry 5 trailer.
Now, I really don't want to judge it prematurely before seeing more or getting more information but I couldn't help but feel slightly miffed at the fact that Dante is now a pubescent, dark haired - and possibly emo - boy.
Like I've said before, geeks don't care much for character change.
Change the story-line, improve the graphics and sound, change the gameplay.. it might bring complains but a character change will bring riots (especially if the character is a very established character, like Dante).

And if you want to do something different, go down the route that Metal Gear Solid took when they created the part where Raiden's clothes go missing and he had to prance around and fight with his hands covering his dignity.
I would cheer that choice all the way.

I quite literally had a silent hissy-fit after the boy answered "Dante" at the end of the trailer to a the question "What's your name?" that was said at the beginning.
There was mime-table banging, mime-hair pulling as well as mime-crying/screaming.
It was late.

And I really like Dante.

Floral frenzy

2010-10-14T02:08:00.002+08:00

Spent the day painting flowers.
Digitally, of course. My water colours are probably dried up beyond recognition.

Anyway.. this was the result.

Note: I only painted it. I wanted to draw a bouquet but apparently, time was running short so I figured it'll be easier to actually just copy some flowers on the internet and paint them. I do not know who's photograph I copied but I'll state this here and now that those flowers did not bloom from my creativity.

When there is three daughters..

2010-10-13T01:44:00.002+08:00

Growing up as the youngest of three sisters, I've always known that there is a stark difference between all of us.
The oldest is practical, sensible, smart and always able to think with rationale. Generous, forgiving but occasionally stern.. (and scary).
The second one, mischievious, cheeky, a little too active with a mind that should probably calm the heck down. Bosses the younger one and constantly argues with the older one.
The last one... is probably just a weird little lump of flesh that has the God-given ability to piss everybody else off. Thoughts are not quite discernable with the mental ability to wander without moving the body.

The relationship that I share with them both differ.

For example, while swimming, I slipped and scraped my knee on some sand that was in the pool. I got out and it started to bleed so I was upset and refused to go back in because it hurt. My oldest sister got out and put a plaster on me. A green plaster with ducks on it. It was her only one and she was just showing it to me telling me how cute she found it. And I cheered up. And she did it to cheer me up because she knew I liked ducks.
Compare that to... my second sister.
When she told me I could fly.
And after I cracked my skull open and was parading around with stitches on my forehead... she said "I can see your brains coming out".

-___-"

I always thought it was just us that were this way.
But no.
Looking at shows with three young girls, that is usually how they are portrayed.
The second one terrorises the youngest and the oldest is more mature.

But that doesn't mean that the oldest is a complete and total saint.
Till now, my oldest sister still laughs at me for freaking out over my phone ringing after watching a horror movie.
And it also doesn't mean that the second is a total and complete demon.
She's the one who acknowledges Ivan's different mood swings despite the fact that she can't see it.

But I do wonder, sometimes, why is it that that is the typical depiction of three sisters?

2010-10-11T01:01:00.002+08:00

I just discovered....

Muraki Kazutaka shares the same seiyu as Nanjo Koji!
They're both psycho, silver haired men!
(And are both unhealthily obsessed with another guy)

Hayami Shou~♥

He is also Ginias Saharin from Mobile Suit Gundam: The 08th MS Team

AND... Oda Nobunaga from Samurai Deeper Kyo!

And he voices Akechi Mitsuhide in Sengoku Basara and Izuma Rutsu in Phantasy Star Universe.
♥ ♥ ♥

Not to mention he voiced several characters in the Transformers series.
His voice can bring world peace. I swear.
I would rate him with Koyasu Takehito (♥!)

Not enough hearts to go round in this post.

All that talk...

2010-10-11T00:33:00.002+08:00

... about Yami no Matsuei between Rye-chan and I over the past few days prompted my urge to re-read the manga. From the beginning.
While Muraki obviously distracted my attention for about 90% of the story.. a good 10% of it was taken up by Volume 11.
In this volume, Tatsumi and Watari are in Hisoka's birthplace and house.

That scene with Hisoka's father, Nagare, ~~writhing sexily~~ moving painfully in the room...
Was it a sex scene??
Or was that damn snake just.. inflicting physical harm of a non-sexual nature?

Me memory does not serve me well when it needs to and I swear I have forgotten about that part.
And now, I'm confused.
They don't really say what's going on.
And the snake doesn't exactly go say anything that will imply the nature of his actions.
In fact, all Nagare does is show a really pained expression.. but at times, that expression seems dubious..
It could be.. or it couldn't.

Wild Psyduck used Confusion!
It's super effective!
Lydia is confused!

2010-10-09T19:22:00.002+08:00

So a numerological happening is taking place.. tomorrow.
What is everybody gonna do at 10:10AM on the 10th of October 2010?
All I know is, many people are gonna be getting married and, judging from today's F1 qualifying or lack thereof, I'll be watching the qualifying tomorrow.

The qualifying was to have started at 1PM here.
I actually bothered to disturb my peaceful slumber for it. (Okay, I lied. I was dreaming something horrible and it wasn't so much a disturbance as it was a relieve)
I woke up and waited. Until 2:30PM when they announced that it is going to be postponed till 10AM tomorrow.
D:
BUT.. I liked the spur-of-the-moment boat race that took place in the pits.
I heard that the Lotus boat wasn't even moving and that got me so amused it was enough to forgive Japan's infernal rain.

2010-10-07T18:00:00.001+08:00

I want to make a necklace out of that round thing he's holding.
(Round thing because I don't know what it's called D:)
It's from Tron. And they throw it like a deadly frisbee.. except you're not to catch it but dodge it.
It'll be cool if it hung on a chain around my neck.. smaller of course.

If

2010-10-06T20:42:00.002+08:00

If I were to take romance novels as historical fact from a sociological perspective... I was definitely born a few hundred years TOO LATE.

Yes. I have perhaps read one too many... I read two... in the past week.
In the past, I've read more.

Notice how in romance novels, all the guys have rakishly good looks?
All of them have a set of straight whites that will blind you in the middle of the night? Despite the lack of proper orthodontic care back in those days?
And also, notice how everybody seems to be a Duke or an Earl or a Baron or what have you? From the looks of it, being of noble birth is almost as common as all the Datuks running around in our country today.

And also, notice how, for virgins, these girls just take to sex as easily as they would to walking?
XD All 'first-time' awkwardness do not exist for the lust is simply too much for them to bother about the fact that they've never done it before!

How perfect.

I should've been born then :(

2010-10-05T01:35:00.004+08:00

I was listening to Kojo no Tsuji by Rentarou Taki.
If you like traditional Japanese music played by traditional Japanese instruments, please listen to this song.
It brings tears to your eyes.
It is so beautiful and knowing what the name means and the inspiration for this song makes it all the more so.
"Kojo" 荒城　means 'ruined castle' and "Tsuki" 月 means moon.
I can't translate it exactly but I've seen it translated as "Moon over the ruined castle" which isn't 100%. Literally, it means "The ruined castle's moon".
The 'ruined castle' that is referred to in this song is the Oka Castle 「岡城」
This castle was last inhabited by the Nakagawa Clan 「中川」 until 1871 and was built by the Ogata Clan 「緒方」 in 1185.
It is now nothing but ruins.

The song sounds sad.
Discovering that the said castle is nothing but a pile of arranged rocks covered by years of foliage, further enhanced the somber/sad mood of the music.
As a person who mourns the passing of great buildings, it gets to me.

[Warning: Is slow]

Need biceps?

2010-10-04T17:39:00.004+08:00

Lift some weights with my art textbook.

A whole millenia of art is packed in it and weighs more than a bag of rice.

I referred to it for my gallery project yesterday and had to carry it in front of my computer.
I swear I'm not exaggerating when I say my arms ached.

Yes. I'm not fit.

As much as...

2010-10-04T03:34:00.003+08:00

... people think me the 'spawn of evil' due to all various 'satanic' interests, I must say that there is a little known fact about me..

I ♥ N'SYNC

Oh. What? You already knew?

Of course you would've known. I talk about it all the time because there is nothing more that I want then for them to get the hell back together!

Nowadays, I inflict abuse upon my ears in the form of metal music and the like and I openly dislike all form of pop music... In fact, I find it sad sometimes how people rave on and on about how 'talented' some of these 'singers' are these days.
But, I used to be 12 myself once upon a time and I still genuinely like N'Sync.
They might not have been the best singers or the best dancers or the best performers in people's opinion but till this day, they are the only group/band that I like every single song on every single album (except their Christmas album).

Why is it that Backstreet Boys, Take That and Boyzone can get back together successfully and N'Sync hasn't done it?
:(

Was curious to know how much I screwed up in school.

2010-10-03T23:47:00.003+08:00

[x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times.
[x] Didn't do homework over 5 times.
[x] Turned at least 3 projects in late.
[x] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[x] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.
[x] Wore ankle socks or had long hair/fringe.

Total: 6

[x] Got your mum / dad etc. to get you out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.

Total: 11

[ ] Pulled down the fire alarm. sprayed the fire extinguisher for no reason though.
[ ] Went on Myspace , Facebook , Xanga , etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took pictures during school hours.
[x] Called someone during school hours.
[x] Listened to an iPod , CD , etc... During class.

Total: 14

[ ] Threw something at the teacher
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[x] Broke the dress code.
[x] Failed a class test.
[x] Ate food during class.

Total: 18

[ ] Gotten a call from school.
[ ] Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school.
[x] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[x] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.
[ ] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear.

Total: 21

[ ] Faked your parents signature.
[x] Slept in class.
[ ] Cursed at a teacher to their face.
[x] Copied homework.

Total: 23

MULTIPLY BY THREE : 23 x 3 = 69%

Ouch. I screwed up 69% of my time in school, huh.
[NOTE: Got this from my brother. I got a 69, he got a 96. I'm not that bad]

(There was actually 5 more things before where I started but since I didn't do any of that, I just took it off)

2010-10-03T17:09:00.002+08:00

Was surfing the YouTube wave the other day and came across a video titled 'Powerglove - Tetris'.
Curious, and because Tetris is one of my many favourites, I clicked it into queue.
(You know how you can have playlists on YouTube? That was the queue)
So I was just going about my business when all of a sudden, the original Tetris tune came on and I thought to myself "What's so special about this?" when all of a sudden, the wails of a guitar and the beat of a drummer posessed came on and it was Tetris alright, but metal-ised.
I literally leaped up in my chair like a meerkat and listened intently.
I then proceeded to get all three albums of theirs and may I say, they did the PERFECT rendition of the Heffalump song from Winnie the Pooh.

Yesterday night, my sister and I watched Studio Ghibli's The Cat Returns.
I like that show.
I really do.
I like Muta.
I want a fat white cat now.
And the Cat King's messenger looked like Mametchi from Tamagochi... so we kept calling it The Mametchi Cat. I'm not too sure what his name is now but he was creepy as HECK.
And I might just be in love with Baron... A CAT.

Now all I want is to watch Yami no Matsuei. Haven't watched it in ages and I kinda miss Muraki's psychotic reasonings.

2010-10-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

true! hahha I was thinking about you today. I feel like do a post dedicated to you on Sephy transition from polygonal blocks to current! hahahaXD

This is to remind me that Rye-chan once said this.
And I'm looking forward to the Sephiroth post.
Truth is, he was hot even as polygonal blocks!

So there's this OTHER thing that I want.
Storm Trooper Hoodie!
Lalala~

I found Sakuma Drops today.
Was nomming on it in the evening before I fell asleep.

2010-09-30T18:57:00.002+08:00

So I've moved half of my bed to the next room and it was weird trying to sleep in the room without the knowledge that there is another bed that is or will be occupied by a sibling.
For 22 years, I have never once been in a room with only one bed.
Before we moved, my second sister claimed the extra room downstairs as her own and stayed there for quite a while.
After we moved, it was decided that the oldest sister will have the smaller room to herself while I shared with my second sister.

My parents may very well be more than amused at me for displaying a joy befitting a 5 year old upon receiving a new toy.

I really am excited about it.

XD

Speaking of my birthday....

2010-09-29T03:18:00.001+08:00

... and painfully obvious hints...
Hi.
This is Ezio.
He won't be released until LATE this year.
I don't mind a LATE birthday present either.
Thanks.

(or you can save all the waiting and just get me a PS3)

[HAHAHAHAHA]

Whenever I say AT-AT

2010-09-29T01:38:00.005+08:00

... I think of...
Oh wait. Lemme explain what's an AT-AT.

This.

If you think Star Wars Episode 1,2 and 3 were the best movies you've ever seen, chances are, you've never seen the original trilogy... and chances are you've never seen the AT-AT in action.
The original trilogy being the three movies I refer to as the first, second and third.
Don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with Episode 1,2 and 3.. except say, the freaking story?
But if you have watched it and still think Episode 1,2, and 3 were the best, I suggest you watch it again.... (because Princess Leia in slave attire might just change your mind)

The AT-AT walker first appeared on the horizon in Star Wars V.
It stands for All Terrain Armored Transport.
It stands at 22.5 meters and is the baddest ass ever (besides the Snow Trooper but I only like that guy because his suit is adorable).

That's how freaking tall it is.. or those are some pretty short Snow Troopers.

If you watch old footage of World War II and think that the tanks are the coolest thing in the world ever, can you imagine how much cooler the footage would've been if the AT-AT walker was walking behind those tanks??

This is only here because it's a hint and my birthday is coming soon. I want LEGO. (Or Gundam.. whichever)

It is like the cyber-age's answer to the Trojan Horse.
(NO. I refuse to believe the Trojan virus is the cyber-age's answer because that's one war I cannot win!)
Why is the AT-AT a war I can win?
Because all you have to do is run to the back and blast his arse with a bazooka.
Why is that possible? Because the dude is freaking slow and has a head-turn radius of probably about 100 degrees.. in general.

ANYWAY.

Whenever I say AT-AT
I think of @-@.
Say it?

Rye-chan pointed me to this article.

2010-09-27T23:35:00.003+08:00

Anime dangerous for children's viewing, says censor board chief

In response, this is all I have to say.
ARE YOU BLOODY SERIOUS?

See here, 'Chief', there is this thing called 'genres' and it is universally used to distinguish the difference between the many 'people' under the 'umbrella'.
Think of anime as an 'umbrella' and anime titles as the 'people'.
There is anime for kids and there is anime for adults.
Do not presume anime with children in it are for children and do not presume anime without children in it are for adults.
And not all cartoons are for children.

First, they say that all anime is hentai(porn).
I have watched anime since I was a kid and I have never encountered obscene sex.
Come on.
In the first place, what are you watching?
But we won't go into that.

Do not scrape the surface and decide that it's soil all the way down.
A surface is just that, a surface... there might layers of granite and stone below it.

Welcome to the 21st century.
Broaden your minds.

Things I used to love but can no longer love

2010-09-26T01:57:00.002+08:00

COFFEE.
- Remember I mentioned my weekends when I was 14-15? Those that took place in MidValley? If you had seen me then, it would've been special if you saw me without a coffee in my hand. I LOVE coffee. Fastforward 6 years later and I can't love it. It's not that I don't love it anymore but I CAN'T. For some reason, coffee and my stomach have issues with each other and can no longer get along. Whenever coffee comes near, stomach gets gastric and Lydia wants to throw up.
Shark's Fin Soup
- I was raised with the stereotypical Chinese believe that expensive food = good food. I grew up eating this grotesque soup for most of my life until one day... I read up about Tibetan Monks.... Nothing to do with sharks but somehow it lead to me reading a first hand account at how people kill the sharks just for their fins. I can no longer love it as I used to. In fact, I can no longer smell it or look at it. It is that bad. Anyway, my Sharkie (the magnet) and SharkBag wouldn't agree to me drinking it either.
Ducky and Duckie (Creative, I KNOW)
- The two identical ducks that I was attached to from 6 years old to 14 years old. What happened? My Mum threw one when I was 9 and the other when I was 16. Without telling me. Am I still angry? ...YES.
Dick Whittington and his Cat
- Okay. Hear me out on this one. It's an English folktale. And I used to have the book in my bookcase that was situated IN my bed's headboard and I would read it EVERY night in primary school. I still read it in my secondary years and when we changed our beds, I couldn't find it anymore!! This book taught me the meaning of the word 'thrice' when I was 8! I need it back. If anyone has this book, please lend it to me!
N'Sync
- Need I say more? They're disbanded!
Listening to new stuff from my favourite JRock bands
- Why can't I do that anymore? Most are disbanded, some are dead (literally) and the rest just became boring and generic... Only Dir en grey and X Japan keep me going now. And occasionally, Kagrra,.
Doing math equations in the checkered exercise book
- Well, I no longer need to do that but I used to really enjoy it (My OCD with the numbers and boxes earns me praise from teachers). Whether I knew what I was equating or not, is a totally different thing altogether.
Copying favourite panels from comic books
- I no longer do it because my comic books physically get worn out when I hold it and draw. They get dirty and they bend down the spine. I don't like that. My OCD won't take it.
Dreaming
- My dreams are getting weirder and I see it as an omen... a very bad omen.

Just a few things I decided to....... *pause*

...

I don't have a #10?
My OCD-alert is ringing off it's hook/hinges.

Gimme 5 minutes to think of something.

... OKAY.

NUMBER 10.
MY OCD.
I can no longer love it because... can't you tell how many things in my life it's disrupting?

The one name in gaming...

2010-09-23T20:51:00.004+08:00

(Everything from here to the end is seriously my views and my views only. I love the game but I just found this thought of mine funny as heck. Yes, I find myself funny.)

... that you'd hear me say frequently is Sephiroth (FFVII).
You'd hear me rave on and on about how cool his is and how much I wanna *bleeeeeeeeeep* him (Right, Rye-chan?).
So... here are some things about him that I don't always mention...

Note that beneath all that cool, calm, collected exterior is one individual who has no control over his emotions.
He'd be smiling (although, in an evil way) when talking to you.
He barely leaps when fighting.
Hardly ever lets out a battle cry.
But sometimes, he'd go bat-shit crazy and whip your ass into cream.

What is the perfect catalyst for bringing out that uncontrolled behaviour?
His mother.
Mention Jenova (or anything to do with cells or head) and he goes into a frenzied killing spree.
He spends half his life (in the game/movie whatever) going "okaa-san okaa-san".
Which really sounds like a little kid who has lost his mother in the park.

What does this mean?

He has a mother complex.

Now to a mother, this is all sweet and nice.
I mean, come on, Sephiroth pretty much changed his whole life, killed a whole lotta Shinra troops and burned down Nibelheim for his mother's HEAD. Let's not talk about the body yet.
The world of FFVII will seize to exist if Rufus Shinra had said "Oh ho, but you only have the head, SephyBaby... Let's see you find the body!"
BUT, if you were looking at him as a possible psycho husband...
It's probably not going to work very well.

And another problem is when he spawned into three seperate guys of equal 'hot-ness' and 'psycho-ness'(FFVII:AC)... it seemed to me like Square Enix seperated Sephiroth into three different prominent aspects of his personality (You know, what makes him 'tick')
Now, it was a good idea if they had stopped at Kadaj and Loz for one represents his strength (Loz) and the other his craziness (Kadaj). (Again, that's how I see it)
But the problem lies in the fact that when Yazoo first made an appearance in the trailers, I went "Woohoo, pretty villain-girl!"
Sephiroth is pretty, yeah, but to think that that was the third side of him...
Was HILARIOUS.

Anybody would do a double take at that.

And even if you decide between all three of his spawn, you gotta remember this...

They ALL have an intense mother complex!

I'm finding my conversation with Rye-chan a little bit funny at the moment.

2010-09-21T21:38:00.003+08:00

Here are excerpts.
Explanations will be done in bracketed Italics... e.g (Italic)

+YukiRye+ [Miracles May] says:
ya know, I sometimes salute those otaku (Sort of a really rude way to call somebody a geek in Japan)
=P
Lydia says:
sometimes i feel like an otaku but thats not relevant so go ahead...
why?
+YukiRye+ [Miracles May] says:
hahahahhahahhaha
we are otakus
well
Lydia says:
NO... i think we've not passed that border YET
+YukiRye+ [Miracles May] says:
there is this game call Idol Master (It'll be easier to Google the definition of this one)
well, obviouslyyy
so right now they are coming out with Idol Masters 2
take off some lolicon ("Lolicon" = Lolita complex. If you've never read Nabokov's Lolita, it means young girls being depicted sexually. "Shotacon" being the male equivalent)
and add in some bishies ("Bishies" = shorter version of "Bishounen" which is pretty boys. Literally)
can u guess the otaku's reaction?
Lydia says:
uh.. are they burning down the manufacturer's HQ?
+YukiRye+ [Miracles May] says:
if they could, they would
they are starting some online petition
i would say exaggerated reaction
Lydia says:
to get rid of the bishounen?
+YukiRye+ [Miracles May] says:
yeah
they want their lolis back
Lydia says:
my LORD
they're obsessed

***

Lydia says:
oh, i actually read somewhere that its an unwritten rule.. that REAL otakus only like animated 2D girls
+YukiRye+ [Miracles May] says:
yeap
i heard
Lydia says:
like, u can't call yourself an otaku if u have a real gf or something
daaaamn wtf right?
+YukiRye+ [Miracles May] says:
HAHAHHAHHAHA
damn man
Lydia says:
but if u think about it ar... i like alot of 2D men....
+YukiRye+ [Miracles May] says:
yeap
u aren't the only one
i still think the perfect boy friend is found on 2d
Lydia says:
and yes
the perfect guy is 2D and black and white... ASAMI (Asami Ryuichi from Yamane Ayano's Viewfinder series. Also a super seme.. seme meaning the pitcher in a same-sex relationship..)
+YukiRye+ [Miracles May] says:
hahahhaa YES

Then she was telling me about how they tried changing the Chocobo to 馬鳥 (Literally, horse bird) and had to change it back because everybody complained.

Lydia says:
why not just leave it as chocobo
+YukiRye+ [Miracles May] says:
no idea
ahah
and of course fans all complain
and so they changed it back
Lydia says:
i think right
the problem with nerdy fans like us
is we don't deal well with change
+YukiRye+ [Miracles May] says:
hahahahahaha
i think so too

I really like :

2010-09-20T18:17:00.004+08:00

Talking to Rye-chan
- Not only is she fantastically 'special', she really 'layans' my obsession with cartoon characters when the normal person will say "Why are you in lust/love with pixels?" and sometimes, I actually think she understands
Being on my own
- People ask why and my family count me as part of their furniture but the truth is, I am happier when I'm doing my own thing, to my own time, all on my own. I don't ask that you understand and fully get what goes on in my head but I just ask that you don't ask.
The fact that my brother and I have always had common interests
- From Pokemon to Music.. that is one bugger I've played with all my life and I still play with him. From cops and robbers to Rock God-wannabe, we've done it all. We like similar games, toys and music... THANK GOD or we'd be at each other like a tiger and a possum (he is the possum)
That my parents never really get on my case about what I do
- The first time I walked out the door with the human equivalent of panda-eyes, my Dad stared for awhile, said "Wow" and after that, never questioned. My Mum sits in my car with my metal music blaring and all vulgarities uncensored and doesn't say anything. My grandma still pats Ivan on his head whenever I put him close to her... ah, that brings me to...
That my imagination has not waned with time
- I genuinely have fun talking to Ivan and I genuinely see him responding to me. Hard to believe but yeah... HM~
The fact that I'm the youngest daughter.
- See, my brother being the only son has some expectations rested on his shoulder. Growing up, I probably never noticed but now that I'm older, I do realise I get away with alot of things. ALOT of things.
Playing games... T_T
- When I was 8, I used to wake up at 6AM in the morning JUST to play Monopoly with my sisters. When I was 12, I used to wake up at 8AM in the morning to play Pokemon with my brother. Now that I'm 22, I stay up until 8AM just to finish a game.
THAT I'M GONNA HAVE MY OWN ROOM SOON.
No, really, that's the only purpose of this post.

2010-09-19T10:15:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I think my alcoholism is unparalleled.
At my cousin's wedding, I didn't remember coming home.
At the graduation party, there were pictures I don't remember taking.
Yesterday night, I don't remember getting to the car.
Now, it's not as if I don't remember EVERYTHING.
I just don't remember some things. (Gimme till tonight, it'll come back to me)
I do remember being fantastically lost with Claireeey on the way home.
And my night vision is shit so I tried looking at road signs but everything looked fuzzy (and not warm)
AND, I remember Ing Hou being fast asleep.
Am I right, Claireeey?
However, I'm pleased/not pleased to say that my OCD is a tad more neurotic when I'm high.
I awoke this morning to find everything in place.
When there's no alcohol in my system, everything gets thrown around..
However, this new-found OCD of mine didn't apply to my clothes which were lying on the floor in its usual manner.

Ivan's naked.
Every once in awhile, he'll just kick off his clothes and prance around without 'em.
And he's so adorable.

2010-09-15T18:21:00.001+08:00

I really like this.
It's 75.50.. pounds, I think.
From The Black Angel..

2010-09-11T03:25:00.003+08:00

I suddenly remembered all the weekends Nut, Shari, SJ and I spent watching movies, shopping, eating etc. in MidValley.
I remembered the clothes we use to grab to try on... and boy oh, boy.. I won't wear all that stuff now XD
Being typically kids, we would hog the phones the night before discussing what each other was wearing the next day.
We would plan all week long.
It seemed like we only lived for the weekends.
Which, in a way was true.
Ah, I kinda miss all those weekends.

Suspicious activities...

2010-09-07T04:50:00.002+08:00

... if nobody else has realised, there has been strange crap going on in my tagbox.
There is four weird messages that is just giving me strange vibes.
Anyway... this blog is gonna go private.
Until I decide to un-privatise it. LOL.

In the next few hours/day(s), please leave me your e-mail address so that I can allow you access. Failing to do so will result in... well, no access, of course.
As long as you read it, send me a message over MSN, Facebook, Twitter etc.

Don't worry. I won't laugh at you for reading my blog.
(Although, I will question the appeal..)

And if the four senders of the strange/nice messages are not bots, droids, programmes, aliens, zombies or automated self-advertisers... uh, say so. Okay?

Today's memory is...

2010-09-05T18:25:00.002+08:00

... the time when SJ and I were obsessed with Avenged Sevenfold.
Our love for them at that time was during the release of City of Evil and it was more intense than it is now.. (and our love for them now has me walking halfway across Sepang to get the special edition Revolver magazines, with them on the covers, out of customs).. so you can imagine the intensity of that obsession.
Anyway, SJ is also somebody who likes Good Charlotte.. as opposed to me who has more than a few words to say about them.
She messages me and tells me that Shadows and SynGates is featured on the song The River.
So I break all my rules about Good Charlotte and listen.
It was a decent song.
I actually liked the vocals and the instruments.
I was changing my opinion about Good Charlotte when all of a sudden, Shadows and Gates come on and seriously, to me, they totally pwned GC's ass with that short few seconds.
It's like listening to Backstreet Boys and have Avenged Sevenfold interrupt.
Seriously.

The other thing is, Ferrari is totally pissing me off.
I'm sorry.
I know there are countless Ferrari fans out there for I see the sea of red at every GP.
The problem is... there seems to be this obvious bias-ness whenever Ferrari is involved in some form of scandal.
First, we have the team orders and all they got was a $100,000 fine.
Seriously?
Now, Massa was so obviously a few feet past his grid line in Spa and they're taking no action? This wasn't even before the warming lap... this was before the race officially started. Which means he gained a few feet on the driver next to him and is technically a jump start.
And that Whiting person, who so quickly pointed out Alonso's previous jump start said he didn't notice it? Was he taking a nap, or what? Then he says the sensors didn't notice it.. and so the only action they're going to take is to make sure what went wrong.
Oh come on.
Ferrari is making the sport a little less fun for me.

Hitz.fm playing loads of Raya songs that I like.
The other day it was M. Nasir. And, since young, I've always loved that song.
I remember working the Petronas event in KL Convention Centre and one of the performers was M. Nasir. I lurked outside the doors of the hall where he was rehearsing just so I could see him sing live. XD.. Needless to say, I got loads of strange stares because I was supposed to be setting up and here I was standing by a door just doing nothing.
Perhaps, I really do like M. Nasir's songs.

Slight pic-spam of the 29th and the 30th

2010-09-04T00:52:00.003+08:00

Gonna miss this lot

The Nottingham Trent emblem has disappeared on my certificate!
:O

Should've ordered clams that night, HUH?

The next picture is baffling to me because....

I didn't know this shot was taken because I was initially pulled in without prior notice and hence, my awkward position. I do recall the shot after this one being taken though...
And word up, I'm actually pushing him away.. not 'snuggling up' as my sister called it.
I almost feel sorry for John for her misunderstanding XD

2010-09-03T19:34:00.003+08:00

I realised in my previous post, I forgot to mention CLAIREEEY.
I mentioned her alright.. I just forgot to elaborate! So here goes - Claireey Beary Happy Bunny, was the final evolution of her nickname.. by me. She was probably the first of the LOT that I really got to know, under the giant bucket in Sunway Lagoon after Alex's singing competition. She's the only other banana that I knew (besides Nut, Kason Jang and Joshua, who left halfway through). Due to me being a scatterbrain and a forgetful duck, I ended up relying on her plenty for everything. Be it lecture times, deadlines, assignments and even "Are we really wearing all white tomorrow?", I was always calling her, texting her, tweeting her and Facebook-ing her. And she's always patient with me although, sometimes, she gets sarcastic [:(]. But I love her very much because she sits through my endless speech-parades about Toshiya, Gundam, Sci-Fi, games, music, manga, anime etc. etc. without understanding much but without much interruptiong either. She 'layans' my shit better than most people I know. And although I know she complains I'm bossy, YOU STILL LOVE ME AND YOU KNOW IT (/caps)
[Yes, and I love you very much too. And I will still visit you after we all start working even if you live so far away (10 minutes when jammed, 5 when not jammed and 3 when all traffic lights are green). Don't forget me~ *waves hanky and gazes longingly at you through teary eyes*]

I just read THE most stupid line on Twitter, EVER.
Not going to mention who or what posted it or even who retweeted it.

Majority of girls improve their looks, NOT their minds. Because they know that some boys are stupid, not blind.

And THAT, my friends, is why some girls are completely stupid.
To think that they improve anything to please/attract boys... makes me speechless.

I found a post-it note that has been buried under many post-it notes around my computer and it says "Force No.05 Arashi Knight Tallgeese".
I know from my knowledge that this refers to a Gundam plastic model.
And I know, from knowledge as well, that Tallgeese = Gundam Wing.
Now, what I don't know is what in the name of all ducks is 'Arashi Knight Tallgeese' and why is it Force?
Anybody can tell me?
(It also reads SD and 1/144... but SD Gundams don't come in 1/144 scale!)
I am now confused.

Reminiscing~

2010-09-01T00:57:00.002+08:00

I always wondered, what would life be like now if I had the opportunity to study in Singapore like I originally wanted to.
I will probably never refer to it as a missed opportunity because spending the 4 years studying my 'second choice' is probably the best four years I've spent in any school.
I breezed through my primary and secondary years by sleeping and constantly getting into enough trouble to keep me out of classes.
I didn't have the luxury of doing that in college and I realised that life was much more exciting when one was awake.
I went into college knowing only Nut.
A month later, I got to know the rest of the people who I remained closest to until the end.
So this goes out to everybody who made my four years in college nice..

The one thing that I've felt thankful for all these years is Nut.
And I mean 'thing' in the nicest ways possible XD
I'm kidding.
But yeah, NUT. Even before we started our first day at school, another girl introduced me to Nut and thus, the friendship was born. Don't you just love how easily kids make friends?
I sat next to her, I remember. It was a cluster of six tables, three facing the other three and Nut and I sat on the right side of the cluster. Nut was at the corner and I was in the middle and next to me was a girl named Aisyah/Aishah. Opposite us was Ain Aqilah, Nurul Atikah and Rachel.
See, my memory serves me well, sometimes.
Nut and I fought EVERYDAY. Because I was bossy and she was easily bullied. We'd fight and make up every 5 minutes.
The friendship lasted till Standard 2 but when we got sent to different classes in Standard 3, the friendship pretty much stopped there. Still, everytime I met her, we'd still be able to talk like normal people without any hints of awkwardness.
And it was that way until in Form 1, I landed up in the same class and she was class monitor.
In Form 2, we were still in the same class and she was seated behind me.
That was when we really went wild.
Whatever happened in Form 4 will stay in 2004. I don't think any of us meant for it to happen and I suppose it's just kids being kids.
However, in Form 5, she called me out of the blue and said she needed help with cheerleading and I agreed to it.
It was while we were choreographing dances that I asked her "What you doing in college?"
She said "I'm thinking Interior Design"
I said "Me too.. What do you have in mind?"
She said "I checked out KBU, they look okay"
I said "Hmm"
When I decided on KBU, I signed up and texted her saying "Just signed up in KBU"
She texted back "Serious? I'm on my way there now"
I said "Doing diploma or foundation?"
She said "Foundation"
I said "We gonna be in the same class?"
She said "Cool"
On the first day of college, we sat in a kopitiam and had breakfast.
And on the first day of classes, she pointed out a guy in front of us and whispered really urgently "Oh my God, that guy has nicer nails than me what the f?"
That guy was Raymond.
The guy whom I got to know a month later.
Always knew he was 'special'.. and he turned out to be so. He's the most infuriating, irritating and annoying person I've ever known and I mean that with all the love I can muster for you. He saved my life during a submission in the first semester of our final year and for that I will always be grateful.
He is one person I always use for an example of being comfortable with yourself despite the obvious difference and sometimes discrimination. I am proud that he is proud of who he is.
But seriously, dude, gladiator sandals are so yuck. [XD] There's a reason why we associate those sandals with the ANCIENT Romans. Because it should've remained ancient.
Along with Claire and Raymond came knowing Thingy. His name isn't actually Thingy.. Thingy is what his Chinese name sounds like when said really fast by a banana (Chinese person who doesn't speak Chinese) and he is the bitch extraordinaire. Do not mess with Thingy for he will out-bitch you at anything. (And I'm still threatening the lives of your beloved turtles, okay). Thank you to him for 'layan-ing' us when we go to Klang on our roadtrips.
He and Raymond should stop accusing each other of 'pretending'. It has been 4 years, haven't you guys had enough?
Somehow, sometime, somewhere.. I got to know Ting Fung. Easy going person with no issues whatsoever. And somehow, sometime, somewhere... We decided that we were all married to him (We all being Claire, Raymond and I.. with Nut acting as the mistress he keeps at the side)... and surprisingly, he played along until the end. At the party, he randomly asked me "What do you want me to give you this month?" and I yelled back "2k and a new house" and he was all "OK"... I wish. But I seriously get this feeling that he's gonna get married sooner than most of us will XD I'm not too sure why.
The one thing I love about my class is... somehow, I get the feeling of total closeness without needing to try too hard at it.

To all the drinking buddies that I discovered later in life... SeoHun, Rafe, Yeow Long... and uh, whoever else drank with us that night (I forgot :S).. let's keep it up. May our livers survive the abuse.
To everybody else leaving for Singapore or wherever.. keep safe and come back next year for our 'annual' get together.. if we even manage to keep to it.
To all FCA19-ers, lets not forget colour matching, SS-ing and playing sports indoors during studio time.
To everybody in the degree class, lets not forget sleepless nights, UHU-stuck fingers, spray paints and model boards.

:D

2010-08-31T12:55:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the party.
Not too sure what went down but there was a whole lotta yelling, shouting, clowning, dancing and drinking... and oh yeah, some people got abused by the plastic boppers they gave us before midnight. (Boppers being the things that go 'bop bop bop')
The only one who got some action was Raymond who, through my drunken, blurry view, got a nice one planted on his smacker by Phillip.. I don't think I was THAT drunk to hallucinate that scene.
The thing that did me in was the last mug.. where, some idiot thought it was a good idea to bottoms up. Didn't kill me as much as the time I bottoms up-ed whiskey with my grandma but it made me feel queasy. So I danced it off. It always works. Trick I learned from Nut.
(I think it's funny how the one person who doesn't drink taught me a trick about drinking)
Then came the countdown, 10-9-8-7-6-5-4-3-2----1~! And the DJ started playing 'Tanggal 31'.
I think I will not live to see another day where people dance like maniacs to that song.
The boppers went 'bop bop' and I was wondering why the bopping became more intense.. only to turn and realise that my friends ushered in Merdeka by hitting their friends with the boppers... so I joined in.
It is always fun to abuse friends.
Anyway, after that the party went crazy.
And we all went home at around 1-2AM because some people couldn't stay out too late.
:( Gonna miss them crazy people.

And I cannot believe that the few of them was so surprised when I said I used to be cheer captain.
What?!
That's the ONE thing everybody knows because I never fail to mention it.. (Only because it is possibly the one paradox no one will expect and because I'm proud I made it as captain)
They were trying to do elevations and failing at it so I went up to tell them where they were going wrong... in local terms it is referred to as 'beh tahan'.
So someone asked me something to the effect of 'How do you know?'
And I said 'Because I used to be captain'
And the reaction was loud. LOUD.
Urgh.. teaching people how to do elevations was the worst for me because I was a spotter and had to teach people without showing them how.. which was quite disastrous.

I'm thinking that there will be some virtual reminiscing tonight... in the form of a blogpost.

I'm listening to Tarja Turunen's album.
It's beautiful.
Her voice is amazing.
I love Oasis.
Everybody should go listen.

2010-08-29T17:07:00.003+08:00

Gah. I hate reformatting my computer.
This time round, though, I had not much of a choice. It literally SIZZLED and hung yesterday.
I tried reformatting it to avoid having to loose any form of money and I'm thinking it might've worked. Not sure, it still needs a test run.
I had to re-install everything from AutoCAD to Corel Sketch Pad to the Japanese language bar.
It is such a pain in the behind, it is unimaginable.

Today was my graduation ceremony.
Yaaaaay.
Us third class graduates sat at the back of the IAD lot and miraculously (!) I was placed between Raymond and Nut! (not so miraculous as it was in alphabetical order)
Yaaaaay.
Upon entering the area outside the ballroom, Nut and I took a picture.
I asked "Do you have a picture of us on the first day of Standard 1?"
She said "I might have"
I have always found it amazing that Nut and I ended up going to the same college, studying the same thing and in the same class and ending our academic lives on the same day was kinda nice.
And it's nice that I still call her Nut/Nat after 15 years. Nice for me, not so much for her.
Raymond said he felt nervous before going up on stage to receive his certificate.. I was just worried about falling down or that stupid hood thing falling off my shoulders (I could not keep it straight).
If you asked me, I wanted to wear the Master of Philosophy robes. It was so badass with the white stripes and all. The Bachelor in Arts' robes was this green and yellow things on a blue hood. :S
Taking pictures was another problem.
I'm not a smiler and smiling beyond 10 seconds for me is quite a pain in the bum unless I'm drunk/having fun.
The photographer was such a weird fellow that he kept making me laugh and then he'll say "Okay, too much. Smile less". So I smile less and he says "Okay, please smile more" and so I'll smile more and he'll repeat the before.
Finally I did my spastic smile and he accepted it.
I'm gonna end up looking really spastic. This is not a picture we want to send to the relatives.
The robes was fun to wear, though. All flowy and Harry Potter-ish.

Made me wanna whip out my wand.

[Pictures coming soon~]

GP TONIGHT.
Rosberg qualified 12th but I heard something about a 5 grid penalty because of a gearbox change?
Anyway, can't wait. Spa is a fast circuit. Exciting~

2010-08-26T00:19:00.002+08:00

I seriously want to know which dude owns this room..
His monitors kick ass...
And yes, it's a dude.. I now it's a dude because I can swear to you that every single screen showing an anime image is porn and I think they are games.

2010-08-25T16:12:00.002+08:00

http://asuka111.net/artbook/
Visit the link above. His illustrations are simply amazing.
My birthday is coming up.. just to let everybody know. Thanks~

Is it me, or is the sun scorchingly hot?
I remember my Mum telling me that the sun here does get hotter during the summer months and it gets rainy during the winter months and the leaves do fall in bulk during the autumn months...
I've always wondered if it was true.
If it was true, though...
I wish we were below the equatorial line now so that it will be rainy NOW.

Sometimes I wonder whether I'm giving people an incurable disease unconsciously due to my decisions.
Why, then, does everybody have poles up their arses about it?

Read Nao Tsukiji's Adekan

2010-08-23T02:52:00.001+08:00

If not for the story, for the art.
Most amazing manga art I've encoutered.. yet, I think.
The town-scape that she has drawn is simply fantastic.
It's a little steampunk but yet, so very traditional.
It was a wonderful surprise.

2010-08-22T18:51:00.000+08:00

・（＊。＊）・

2010-08-19T22:37:00.001+08:00

The good thing about getting exhausted from rage and anger is... after awhile, you don't really care.

My sister came home and asked "How're you today?"
And I showed her the picture above.

That pretty much sums up all my feelings now.

Channeling anger through Marilyn Manson works.

2010-08-19T17:11:00.002+08:00

In a brand new revelation... blogging that long ass post yesterday night.. after my really loud complain to my sister.. really did help.
Except... I'm still feeling down.

This sucks.
Do you know how exhausting it is to be moody?
I wish it will just stop already.
How do you reign in the mood-horse?

2010-08-19T04:41:00.003+08:00

Almost finished with the basic shapes of all the 3Ds.
I actually think it is a little rushed and not all aligned but you know what, I really couldn't be so perfect right now.
My self-set deadline for my portfolio is next week and now it's almost like it is impossible to meet that due to the fiasco today.
Argh! So much for trying to make my portfolio better than anything I've ever done.

The companies will probably look at my portfolio and think "She isn't serious, is she?"

Something to cheer me up

2010-08-19T00:56:00.003+08:00

(far right)
(second from right)

(at I.V PV shoot)
(those pants)