...everybody's been wanting to talk to me about my future and what I want to do when I'm older and all that kinda stuff. I must admit, I wouldn't mind if it was my sister's or my parents who is doing the talking but these people are my friends and honestly, if they can't accept what I want to do, what makes me happy, they shouldn't ask anyway, isn't it? They just keep asking and I tell them what I want to do and then they'll disagree with stupid things such as 'you're wasting your time'. I'm different from them. My views on life is different and therefore, what I want to do is different too. You may think going for Form 6 is wasting two years of your life. I don't.
So if I don't think I'm wasting my time, tell me, why would I be wasting my time? Okay, so taking Form 6 won't do anything for what I plan to do in college..so what? It's still an extra qualification that I have and you don't. I studied an extra 2 years more than you..how can that be a bad thing? I really don't see eye to eye with what they have to say and that's why lately, I've been getting more pissed off than usual. I'm really sorry for the other friends of mine who has been on the receiving end of my anger when they didn't say anything. I tried really hard to control my anger but really, sometimes, I just can't.
Also, people just love saying unnecessary things. If you don't have anything to say..please don't say anything at all. I like talking, yeah, but I like conversations with abit of substance in it. Not just pure childish crap talk. I like talking crap, sometimes, not childish crap. Coming online is no longer entertaining. In fact, I just get mad everytime I come online. People I thought would support me in my choices apparently don't. And here I thought 'SPM is over..so is stress!', I'm wrong. I'm still feeling a little pressured. At this rate, I think I just won't log on to MSN anymore. Putting your status as 'Away' or 'Busy' doesn't do anything to get rid of them. They still message you, poking their noses in your business. Back off man.
I'm really sorry if this post comes off as hostile to anybody who has actually said anything about my decisions in life but to those of you who I still talk to online, I'm not meaning you guys in this. Actually, the whole post is mostly about one person..or maybe two. I don't know. I don't keep track of who pisses me off.
I just want to say that me going to Form 6 is not because my friends are going to Form 6 too. I'm not following my friends in this. It's just that I'm lucky that I have friends who are going there too. The term 'ikut kawan' has NEVER been applied to any decisions of mine involving school or education. If I had 'ikut kawan' as you said, I would've just gone for the science stream because Sj is there but did I? No. I went to arts not knowing whether I had friends there or not because I wanted to do art. So I don't see why you should tell me not to 'ikut kawan'. Using this term, I'm pretty sure that YOU know who you are [if you even read my blog].
Stop asking when you already know what I'm going to do. If you ask just for the pleasure of insulting me, then I suggest you find somebody else. Don't underestimate me. Just because I have accepted your little jokes about me being brainless doesn't mean I can take it all the time. Don't go thinking I'm a dumb blonde who doesn't know anything. You don't know me so well so don't judge. If you ask me, you're the dumb one. Just because I don't go around flaunting knowledge about everyday life or general knowledge [that everybody knows] like you do, doesn't mean I don't know it.
I also think it's really rude to insult each and every thing that I like or happen to be interested in. Calling me a spoilt brat while you're at it also pisses me off beyond words. Seriously, I've just lost interest in talking to you. You can say that I'm being really sensitive about this but this is accumulated anger. You never fail to insult me everytime I'm online and I just take it in stride. Now that I'm actually really irritated and annoyed I decided to just tell you what I think of you. You're childish, you don't know when to shut up and sometimes you come off as rude. I may be wrong about you but this is what you show me. I've had enough. Go talk to other people who would appreciate people like you cause I seriously don't and I'm better off without than with.
