MORAL is a TOTAL waste of my TIME!!
She even made us stay back today~! *roars in anger*

I'm feeling bored now~! There's nothing to do!!

You know, sometimes, I can't help but feel as though I really shouldn't speak anymore. Cause everytime I say something, I'm more often than not, ignored. It makes me feel so silly, cause it appears as though I am talking to myself. Seriously. I would be saying a whole long sentence and after at least 10 minutes, the person I'm talking to would lift his/her head and say 'Did you say something?'. And I'm always so tempted to say 'No, nothing much. Just a whole sentence a whole 10 minutes ago. You didn't miss much, really.'
It happened again, the other night. Twice, in fact, in a row. And I was so annoyed, I had to call SJ. I just needed someone who'd actually listen to me for once and not plain ignore me. I was wondering, what did I even say that would make them not want to listen? Nothing actually, cause I've not said anything to them for the whole day.
SJ said that she'll always listen and I was all 'Yeah, you're probably the only one.'
I always feel like a nobody next to people. And I always feel useless. Honestly speaking, the whole 'let's ignore Lydia' situation is making me feel even MORE invincible. That night, I was so desperate to move out. The desperation was quite overwhelming.
Probably the only person who actually would listen in this house, is my brother. He never manages to miss a word I say (sometimes, that's bad). Everybody else (grandmother not included) would just leave me talking like a total looney for the next one hour before they actually realised 'Hey! She just said something!'. And when I don't wanna talk because they don't listen, they ask me why I'm so quiet or what am I mad at. It's happened before. I always get a little on the '-.-' side when that happens.

My japanese class found out just now that I'm studying Interior in college. It all happened when my teacher asked who wanted to take the JLPT test and I was the only one who lifted my hand. She was asking me why I wanted to do it and supposedly, while I was trying to think up my answer, she said I was blushing~ So she thought I wanted to go to Japan because I had a boyfriend there -____________-" (I really wanted to agree with her and go 'YES! TOSHIYA!' but she wouldn't get it). Yeah, so I just told her I wanted to work there as an Interior Designer cause I LOOOOOOOOVE Japanese interiors. And she started talking about her friend's friend from another country, who moved to Osaka and bought over this old Japanese house and remade it to look modern. I think the idea is cool~ She even said that buying old houses is waaay cheaper than buying new apartments. It's cheaper cause nobody wants to stay in an old house in Japan. I wouldn't mind! (as long as there's air conditioning).

Ah~ Rye-chan. As for SJ's blog. I totally forgot but she actually didn't want to tell anybody. And I only knew about it cause I accidently bumped into it and realised 'Hey~ This girl sounds familiar~'. Yeah, so unless she allows it, I won't give out her site address, okay?
[By the way, I'm damn jealous of your tattoo. Sheesh. I'm gonna get myself a big big one to rival yours.]

I'm so in love with Dong Bang Shin Ki's Balloons. I know I was obsessed before. But I still am!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaah~! HEROOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!