Guess who's awake at 9:50 AM in the bloody morning?

Couldn't sleep at all last night so I came downstairs at 3 AM and read a book till 5 AM. Then, I watched TV till 6 AM. And then I continued reading till 7/8 and then I cooked up a breakfast for my mum and I.
And I don't feel sleepy at all! How annoying can life be?

Yesterday, I suddenly felt this urge to rid my life off everybody. Not new~
[Save for a couple of people]
I don't know why but I still feel like doing it cause it's not like there's any point in knowing them.
Like, if you wanna know which friendships I consider the best among all it'll have to be Nat, SJ, Shari and Chris. Though I hardly talk to Shari but we've had our times, yeah? Lol. And those can never be forgotten.
It took me a whole year to trust them [Chris a little longer cause we were young] and we've come a long way. And I think that in a way, I've compared all my other friendships with theirs. They pass comments about stuff but it's things that will help you and they really do want to help you. Alot of others that I've known, well, let's just say they just talk too much. For instance, I absolutely HATE people commenting on how I like to dress/look. Greeting me with 'What's up with the shirt?' is an absolute no no for me and I tend to get annoyed at people like that. And they (the four of them) don't do stuff like that. They just accept me for who I am and who I want to be. Though, Shari has commented but I forgive her cause she's loveable, in a way. Lol. And a lot of people I know try to understand why I'm not like normal girls and they spend so much time understanding that they tend to ask too many questions and pass too many comments that just make me wanna get rid of them.
And I have been known to stop talking to people overnight.
Like in Form 1, I went to sleep one night really annoyed at somebody and the next day in school I just decided to ignore her and I've been ignoring her ever since. It's been 7 whole years. And I've done it on so many occasions I just can't count anymore.
But I've stopped, you know~ I try to be nice now a days. I try to accomodate what you 'want me to be'.
And now, I've had enough.
I am honestly saying right now, I do not care anymore.
I do not care what people want me to be like.
I do not care what me parents want me to be like.
I do not care what I try to be like.
Urgh~ Let's not get to the parents side of the story.
I'm quite annoyed at one of them. Okay, so my curfew is at 12 AM [it's not a written rule but an understood one]. So, here I am, coming home at 11:30 / 11:45 PM and they're all 'Oh! So you're very brave now, huh? Galavanting in the middle of the night~ Coming home so late..' bla bla bla. And I'm all '*checks watch* But it's eleven thirty' and they're like 'It's still late, okay? Ten is already late enough'.
One and a half hours later, my other sister waltzes into the house, bouncing around saying 'HELLO!!' like it's 2 PM in the afternoon and everybody's just all 'Oh hello!' and that's it.
-___________-"
And doing stuff like that makes me wanna stay out later. But the inner daughter in me makes me go home before 12, anyway.
ARGH! I sound like a fxcking emo kid!
Lol. But this is my blog and I'll write what I wanna write. To hell with you if you wanna comment.
Cause the me right at this moment couldn't be bothered.
I wish us human beings didn't need to have friends.
I wish we were still primates so we don't speak and think so much.
I wish we didn't need relationships and friendships and shit like that. :(

And another thing depressing me at the moment is, I want my fxcking paycheck now!!
I wanna be paid for my tiring posing! T_T But thank God I wasn't such a fast mouth like Jason and suggested The Thinker's pose. o.o I could have broken my back.

I tried playing Blitzkrieg on my bass. And I played it to the music and it just didn't sound right. So I was confused and all for a good 30 minutes before I realised that I had to drop C.
-___________-"
I gave up after that. Tuning and re-tuning my bass is very very tiring. Lol. I want like 6 basses. 3 four strings and 3 five strings. So each one can be of a different tuning. And I don't need to slave away tuning them. I HATE tuning. As much as SJ does.
I wanna play Trinity Fields too but I reckon that it's harder than Blitzkrieg. The synth sounds very nice in the song though.
SJ told me to suggest easy/nice songs and I'm not too sure why I thought of Dream Theater's Forsaken. I LOVE that song. Unfortunately, after listening to it very closely, the bass has intimidated me. Maybe we'll wait. Lol.
What happened to Cassis? Lol

Read the news just now. I'm quite sad to hear the people in that chopper crash didn't survive. I felt really bad for the family. Cause just yesterday, the family of the lady was saying that they're praying that she'll return safe and the very next day they get bad news. I can't begin to imagine how torn they must feel. I can't imagine ever losing a daughter to death. Can't.
On a more humorous side is the Porsche stealing. So dumb! It was reported yesterday that this guy just walked into the showroom wearing a nice looking suit and holding a cheque book. The moment they revved up the car for him he tore away and broke through the show room glass. That's not the drama though, he stopped like 2 KM down the road because there was no gas and he scampered away. So the police seized the car.
And today, we read that the car is gone again. And it's most likely the same guy as yesterday cause he has the keys.
Dude~ What happened to security?!
A RM900,000++ PORSCHE gone just like that!
I wonder what the thief is thinking. Whether he was forced to do this due to lack of money or he's just doing it for fun.
Whatever it is, it should be quite interesting.

And I'm talking too much for 10:27 AM.
I'm gonna go fix my jigsaw puzzles. Lol.
Yes I'm still playing my jigsaws. :D

Okay, and because everybody's been asking about my personal message. Here you go. The bloody song lyrics.

Death In Vogue (Deathstars : Termination Bliss 2006)

The masquerade is a show for the starcrownds [This word is wrong, I think lol]
It's death in vogue in saturnalian nights
The heart we share is a virus in our chests
A black piece filled with darkness and dead meat

Now our hearts beat on
The black is back in the deep
I see a million of nations
In blank and hot leather...

This black syndicate is a burning ballroom
Dirt, drinks and pills and Gucci drenched in blood
The flag we raise is held for the dead dolls
So now we'll watch all angels parade in black uniforms

Now our hearts beat on
The black is back in the deep
I see a million of nations
In blank and hot leather

Puppets without strings
Now join the show
Demons without wings
We are death in vogue

Ten tons of lungs roar into the black vault
It's disease, glam and champagne filled with nails
The syndrome is sucked into white bloodcells
And we march as vamps and wolves on red human oil

The faceless ones...
The leather swept ones that bring hate in tons
The faceless ones...
The subversion of lays through the rule of guns

Here they come as the models and machines
And see the dolls twist inside of thees dreams
I see the puppets whisper with maniac tongues
Feel it, scream it out from the top of your lungs!