Urgh, stupid internet has been killing me for days.
Anyway, updates.

Michelle is in town. We've been out two days already.
And our date is set for Saturday. Fake eyelashes and all... LOL!

Two days ago, the painters came in and killed my day.
My stomach was cramping up like there will never be another month.
I was throwing up a country. I swear.

Monday was a bad day. Bad bad day.
I'm trying to forget it.
Anyway, I'm looking for someone who can love a rabbit right now.. love it as much or more than I can.

Today, I was trying on a skirt in Pull and Bear and Michelle just struts in with her damn camera. Shoving the curtain aside and all! Thankfully, she closed it after she came in. What is it with my friends and doing shit like that? First, Nut runs in while I'm changing and captures an obscene me on video.. and now Michelle. Thankfully, I have had experience from Nut's random acts of sexual harassment and managed to shove Michelle out in time.

Right now, I'm waiting for a horror movie to finish loading.
I'm sorry. I've been deprived off horror movies for a long time in my bid to cure my state of mind and since it's not working, I'll indulge.
Oo-er... Detroit Metal City has a movie. Yay!
Ick. The actor for Krauser is just a little funky looking.

Finally replaced the battery for my bass. Now, I can play Marilyn Manson :)
Why does my bass have batteries? Don't ask.

Christmas Eve and I was up before 10!
Followed my sister out to KL for her last minute Christmas shopping.
Had to squeeze through the last minute shoppers.. (Thank God I finished mine a week before).. Was shoved and pushed within an inch of my life.. Kids running everywhere.. Gosh.. It was a hellhole.
Anyway, after Pavilion, we went over to KLCC cause I wanted to get some stuff at the bookstore (as usual) but they did not have Rolling Stone.. What? All of KL sold out of a magazine? Man.
I haven't even collected Kera, Gigs and the Bass magazine yet. Lord knows when they'll be calling me saying "Miss, when are you coming? Can you come in 3 days or we'll release it?". I really miss when they were Isetan... after the move, they seemed to have changed all the 'rules'.
Anyway, I wanted to go over to The Curve to go to Borders and find that magazine (SJ is under temporary house arrest and she wants magazines) but then I remembered it was Christmas Eve and the highways to The Curve is going to be an automobile hellhole so I decided to just look for it on Friday when I meet Nut for lunch.
I finally wrapped SJ's present. The box was so huge I had to use up the whole piece of wrapper.. and it was a nice wrapper too. I asked her "Do you want me to pass it to you or do you want to come over and pluck it out from under my tree?"

I was watching The Grinch when the headache hit.
Gah~ I thought I was finally free from the ongoing headache that has been plaguing me for weeks and then it hit again. I'm going to overdose on painkillers soon.
It just went away.

I messaged Donovan "Merry Christmas" and as usually we started chatting over text messages when I opened my MSN and realised he was online.
I've been wasting cents on him! Anyway, he's going to Dubai and Vietnam, apparently.. It's so nice that he's finally doing what he has always dreamed of doing (and he can buy my fridge magnets while he's there).

I wonder how's Masayo? I've been missing her online lately.
I got reminded of her while watching Ashura.
That was an interesting movie. Kabuki theater transformed into movie.
The 'oni' reminded me of Masayo.. Masayo-chan, if you're reading this, it was the hairstyle.
The acting was quite bad but overall story, interesting, I suppose.

Yes! The huge bee is officially dead in my wastepaper basket!
I've been spraying at it for the past hour.
How the heck it entered my house at this hour will forever be the question.
Scared my heart out when it appeared out of nowhere.

Michelle! Three more days till the 28th!

We'll start with yesterday..
Woke up early and went out to the bazaar with Nut again.
New shops this time and I bought a shirt :) (I only wear shirts, apparently).
I'm still not fond of the bazaar people but... all in the name of research, huh.

Was still stuffy and hot so we left after awhile. Nut bought a clutch.
We found ourselves in 1Utama and Nut continued shopping. She got 6 random cheap gifts which I found really funny.. especially the 'toilette' sign.
Then we went home cause there was nothing else to do.
I came home and bummed around abit.. was about to follow my Mum out to pick my brother up when suddenly my cousins dropped by with my Grandma and I had no idea my Grandma was even out. The cousins were in town with my uncle and they took my Grandma out, probably for food, as they always do. The older cousin had a short crop that made me go "Heeeeey!! How are you??? *hugs and takes a good look* Your hair is short?". She cut her hair and donated it.. to some body that makes wigs for cancer patients. Nice nice.

After that, we picked my brother up came home and rushed to get ready for the Christmas party.
My family ditched me and wore white/silver! Thank God my brother wore a black/silver shirt. He matched me at least.
Anyway, it was a church thing so as usual, I spent the entire night rolling my eyes at comments and staring in horror at the disaster dresses some of the people had on.
The food wasn't too good either. And then the speaker came on and was yelling into the microphone. People need to realise that a microphone's MAIN purpose in life is to amplify voices.. there's no need to yell.
Complains : The food was bad. The food came too slow. The Aunty next to my Grandma thinks that I was eating a little off every plate because I was trying to keep slim.

Now, focus on the last line since I'll be harping on it for awhile. Try as I did, I couldn't hide my attitude from showing a little. My Grandma told her I eat alot, I told her I eat alot, my Mum told her I eat alot and she STILL insisted that I was trying to keep fit and that young people nowadays are like this. What in the name of Satan is wrong with her ears? Finally, I turned to her, face on and said "Look! I am eating a little from each plate so that I won't get full BY THE TIME THE THIRD DISH COMES ALONG!" and then looked at my Mum and rolled my eyes.

Seriously, sometimes I want to lobotomize these church people and see how their brain functions.
Then, while at the door, one of my Mum's church friends leans over to me and says "I thought the dress code was white/silver?" and stares at my black dress. I lift up my silver clutch and said "I wear black and gold. I don't wear white and silver. This is as silver as I'll get".
I was about to say "I don't conform to dress codes that I find ridiculous and pointless"
And it was battle of the grandkids last night.
The grandfathers were carrying their kids around and I swear they only do it to fish for compliments from the church people. They want you to say "Ooooh! So cute!!! How old?" and all that crap. I gotta admit, yes, the babies are cute but there's no need to fish for compliments. Don't they have better things to do at a dinner? For example, eat?

Today, had dinner with my cousins, uncle, grandaunts and an aunt.
Food was okay, company was okay so tonight was way better than last night (by more than a mile).

I'm currently browsing the Sixh. website and there's this jacket I really really like.
It's 18,300 yen.. that's about RM400+ (what with the current economical problem we're facing, could be more) and it's awesome. The back has an awesome butterfly all the way down.
Yeeesh.
Oooh, webshop!... Sixh. is only for men. Darn. I forgot.
Oooooooh, screw Sixh. ... Blood is online too! :D
h.Naoto is awesome. There's an awesome Naoto Seven white jacket going for 50,400 yen.

Okay, forget my online shopping in yen.
My Christmas tree is up! :D

Eeeeek! Hangry and Angry dolls!
I may consider recruiting myself into h.Naoto. LOL!

Back to my tree...
I tired myself out putting up the lights.
By the time half the tree was done, I was lying down below the tree in complete exhaustion thinking that we can make do with only half the tree lit this year.
My Mum saved my life and helped me with the rest.
And then the bubbles went up... along with the string of presents... string of snowflakes... our handmade decorations... etc. and the tree is ready for Christmas!
Yay!
Now all I need to do is write up notes, wrap up the presents and put them under the tree! (and sew up that Christmas hat for Ivan).
I love Christmas!

Do we not have proper events for girls to dress up?

Went to a bazaar at Bangsar.
Two words... hot and stuffy.
So hot and stuffy that I forgot to look (or wasn't interested) at the clothes.
Shari bought a dress and a belt and then we were off.
I got a free magazine which is a girly magazine and I don't do girly magazine.
Like I told my Mum "I can't believe people pay money to read a load of shit"
I'm looking for a girl who wants a free Seventeen magazine... or rather, a girl who reads a whole load of shit.
And the crowd... the CROWD!!... who wears a long dress, in heels, with hair all done up with 5 inches of make-up to a bazaar in a house.. along Lorong Maarof.
Nut tried to justify the overdressed girls and said "Maybe they're going to the clubs later".. and I said "Who clubs in long dresses?"
It's a Friday night in Bangsar not a Friday night at a cocktail in a five star hotel.
Yeesh.
After that, we ran out for air in Alexis and also for dinner.
I had a mushroom and chicken pie with a WHOLE LOTTA FRIES (ask Shari and Nut).
A tiramisu to go round and water.
The pie was awesome.
(Or I was just hungry).
Then we picked Nut's Mum up at BSC ("Don't say hi cause I'm high") and then she dropped us off at my car and I sent Shari home.

My brother is coming home from Singapore tomorrow.
Mum and I have plans to decorate the tree (Shari thought the family was going artsy fartsy with the tree and make-do without decorations this year).

I still have no idea what to get for Nut.
Argh.

Ivan needs a Christmas hat..
His head looks empty.. (inside and outside)

BANGKOK IS POSTPONED!!!!!!!!
X JAPAN IS POSTPONED!!!!!!!!!!
MY DREAM COME TRUE IS POSTPONED!!!!!!!!!
WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

I finally think I know where my sketchbook went.
If nobody has picked it up and threw it away, it's probably lying somewhere between my house and college.
What I remember is putting it on my car boot and then shoving my model in... but I do not remember chucking my sketchbook in my car too.
I reckon I drove off with it flying off my car.
I'm very annoyed now.
My building programme, bubble diagrams and all that shit is in there.
I have to re-do everything.
Even if I found it now, it won't be usable cause the rain and shine has probably started the rotting process.

Anyway, today was sensei's last class with us before she returns to Japan.
It's always tough to part but as my Dad harshly told me before "That's life, girl. Accept it"

I had the oddest dream last night, I was walking in this really lush, green forest and I spotted a green balloon floating around my head so I grabbed on to it and suddenly, it brought me up and up and up. Apparently, my fear of heights applies to my dreams as well cause I started yelling at the balloon to let me down while holding on for dear life.
Anyway, I floated over a lot of strange towns. One town was made entirely out of gold. One was in the shape of a rabbit (and I remembered a lot of pink in this one). There was a crooked clock tower standing alone in the river (Yes, IN the river) and the snow capped mountains had honey coloured snow instead of white. All of a sudden, a pterodectyle (spelling check?) sank it's claws into the balloon thus, popping it (and confetti flew all over) and I fell (in perfect slow motion).. and then I woke up to find a snowman staring at me. I nearly went 'GAHHH!' but it was just one of my snowmen.

It either means I've officially gone cuckoo or my head is demanding me to continue reading all my fairytales. I haven't read any of my favourites in a long time (Due to school and projects).

I remember my second sister telling me once that I should write down all my dreams. Somehow, my dreams always consist of unrealistic things. I think that's a reflection of my personality.. unrealistic.

I forgot to record another dream I had...
A coupla weeks ago, I revisited the circus. THE circus, the infamous one. The one where I entertained vampire babies, lost my head for an umbrella and where I got attacked by living chessclownmen.
This time round though, all I did was sit on a barrel outside a tent. I do remember feeling anxious and slighty terrified about something but I'm not too sure what.
It may be the continuation of the chessclownmen and that barrel was my hiding spot.
Anyway, the dream ended when I walked through a wall.
I'm completely serious. I'm beginning to wonder if I was a ghost in that dream.

Rye-chan... how's the psychology going? Your friend's sanity is slowly slipping away.

I find it strangely disturbing that the Haku has such a deep voice in the English version of Spirited Away. No Face is just so adorable. What's his name in Japanese? Kao ga nai?

I'm still on the fence about my topic for IAC. I originally wanted to do 'form follows function' but now that I've researched more about 'ornamentation is a crime' I feel like I wanna do that. This guy who wrote essays titled "Ornamentation and crime".. I think his name is Adolf Loos or something like that, he was real anal about it. He said that the Cross was the first ornament and that it was erotic... apparently, it symbolised penetration. I'd like to find out how he came to that conclusion. He trashed everything from the Papuan people, graffiti to tattoos. He either had too much free time or just TOO opinionated.

I spent the entire afternoon trying to get past that idiot punching monster in Castlevania. So far, no success.

Yippee! Downloaded Castlevania for my DS.
I love this game! Haven't played the newer versions.. not since I was playing Castlevania on the original Game Boy (The big gray bulky one).
Currently stuck at the second boss in the Dawn of Sorrow. I wanna play Aria of Sorrow (the one before Dawn of Sorrow but not sure if they have it for the DS.
Man, I've only played The Castlevania Adventure... That was like released in 1989...
The second Castlevania released for the DS is Portrait of Ruin.. Guess I'll play that after I get past this one though, the timeline is different.
In my opinion, the hottest characters are in Harmony of Dissonance (Actually, only Juste Belmont).
Man, the games with the hot guys are for the Game Boy Advance...
I want.
Though, Dawn of Sorrow has Genya Arikado (hehe). I haven't seen him since the beginning of the game, though.

This current project has me hooked to another game. Not good at all. I would've forgotten all about Castlevania if it wasn't for the fact that I was researching Nintendo's more popular games.

I am sick again.
Gah~

It's the 13th of December. Masayo should've been done with her SPM by now. I want to message her and say "When you coming to KL?!" but I cannot find my phone (as usual).
I swear I saw it this morning (afternoon) when I woke up.

I couldn't hand up my CD yesterday because my external harddisk was being a shit and wouldn't open. So, I gotta hand it up on Monday... yeeesh.

Yesterday at class, I got a call from a strange number starting with 03-216...
Since I couldn't pick up, I spent the next 20 seconds staring at the number trying to remember where 216 came from.. then, I remember KL! and thought maybe it was Kinokuniya.. so I checked my Kinokuniya card and it was their number (but a little different).
After class, I called them back and got sent through so many different departments.. and finally the Japanese department was put on the 'pass this call along'-list and they were like "Regarding the Bass Mag that you ordered a few days ago... we don't stock Bass Mag" and I asked "Oh? Even the Kinokuniya in Japan doesn't have this magazine?" and they said "We don't have Bass Mag.. we only have Bass Magazine". And I swear to God, I just about nearly died then. WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE?! Mag IS magazine!!!
After THAT was cleared up.. I found out I didn't have AutoCAD class for that day (Yippee!) and went home.

Nintendo was founded in 1889... WHAT?! Weird... I always just thought Nintendo was started in the 1960's cause that was when they started their toy production. Never knew they started as a playing card company... never knew they have a cab company and a love hotel chain.
Okay, now I gotta compile research for Tuesday! And I haven't even started on my Modernism research and I haven't even started on my models!!!!

Why white christmas??

In the future, I am gonna buy a house with an extra bedroom and I'm gonna make it into a walk-in wardrobe that can rival the white beehive retail outlet in Japan! (Prada? I forgot)
It's gonna be white, spacious, geometric and absolutely gorgeous.. and half of the space is gonna go to my shoes!

IAC started again this term!
I'm stoked! I love this subject (Thank God Ing Hou agreed with me too cause nobody shares my love for this subject).
I got the tutor I wanted for this subject. Yippee!!! :D :D
The same one who guided me through my "We should demolish the national palace due to economic and political reasons and as a symbol of blah blah blah" essay.
Ing Hou (who finally remembered to bring my book today) and I were talking about one tutor that we got before and how we argued with her at every tutorial session cause her mind was going in one straight narrow alley. Yeah, we were so afraid we'll get her.
And then he complained about the tutor who told us "THIS ISN'T ART!"... and just after that, he discovered he had her for tutorials.. LOL! Good luck, yo.

Before the IAC lecture, Nut and I drove from Bandar Utama to Jalan Ampang for KLCC. Placed SJ and my orders for Kera, Gigs and my personal but urgent order for Bass Mag.
[Yes, SJ, Kera seems to have leaped off the shelves really quickly this month... remember when NOBODY knew Kinokuniya had a Japanese section with SHOXX, Cure and all that?]
Then Nut and I had super huge fried rice at Madam Kwans.. and while there, we furthered our discussion and planning for her soon-to-happen bazaar.
We calculated our estimated profit (note how this is the FIRST thing that we estimated?).
And if our estimation is half right, I could be making my trip into Nine West and buying that pair of shoes that I want...... if it happens.
Then, I started looking for a dress for a dinner that's coming soon... the dress code for the dinner is 'white/silver'. How awful is that? I ONLY wear black and gold! Why'd they have to choose the opposites?

Then, we drove back to school for our IAC lecture (whee!).

After class, we made our way to 1Utama and tried on a whole lotta stuff at every clothes shop that HAD a white/silver/gray-ish dress.
Started Christmas shopping for presents (yay!) and had dinner.
I found a really awesome gray-ish (can be passed off as silver) dress in Blook and was about to buy it when I discovered the back of the straps looked really old and frayed and they didn't have a new one! I'll be making a trip to Bangsar soon.. for that dress!I tried on so many today and Nut and I only agreed on that dress.. though I don't quite like my fats.. LOL! It isn't that bad but you tend to be MORE conscious of these things than others.
We then had desert at Delicious cause Orioli is closed(!!!). We both had Tiramisu and I ate her half cause she does not have a sweet tooth. Not at all. She eats half and can't eat the rest.
Then we went to M&S and I got my grandma a present and then we came home. :)
I love Christmas! :D

I'm beginning to re-question my love for the Apple after my sister discovered that she couldn't run all those seek and find games on the Mac system.
Hmm, I know you can have XP on the Mac but I don't wanna use the XP if it's the Mac.. cause the Mac is less vulnerable to viruses.
But I still want a Mac. LOL!!!!!!

I'm high on shopping. Another round in Pavilion tomorrow!
Woo-hoo!

Presentation today was okay, I s'pose. Nothing particularly infuriating or happy.
She DID mention the student module evaluation cause apparently, some of us complained that she holds us back in class alot.. and something about feedback... I think she "terasa" a little cause she explained.
Hm, I'm not sure if 'misunderstanding' is an excuse but whatever.. I didn't even bother to complain about anybody. If anybody's interested in knowing, I always mark 'Good' cause I couldn't be arsed to read and think.

I keep making this "mmmhhfmm" sound when I see Toshiya's picture. I'm not too sure if it is the same "mmmhhfmm" as I used to make before he shaved his hair... I have a feeling the tone and pitch has changed. I'm not used to the hair.. YET! I'm trying my best m(_ _)m
......
Holy shit! I just changed my mind. I just saw a NEW photoshoot and he looks so fxcking gorgeous... SHIT!.... but a goatee??

And Toshiya has been having really silly blog entries lately?
Okay, you know what? I've been COMPLETELY left behind on DEG news.
I need to get myself re-informed.
Bye.

[EDIT: SHIT! I need the Uroboros album to actually ENTER the damn limited area of the official website!! The 'code' is the CD's barcode!! How shit is that? Now, I can't see all their posts! No wonder I've never seen these supposed posts.]

NEW NINTENDO DS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And it looks so fxcking good! Wide screen and all.
It's debuting mid-2009. I can't wait I can't wait!
BOTH screens will be touch screens apparently.
Shit shit shit! Must start saving!!!! :D :D :D

The only thing that I'm a little miffed about is the "Start" and "Pause" button.
I've been playing Nintendos since the time we had to hook it up to our TV and shove in the cartridges REAL HARD to get it to work.. and since then, the two buttons have always been "Start" and "Select".
Why is it "Pause"??

I have misplaced my Visual Dictionary.. the architecture book.
Dear classmates of mine, you guys know how fxcking huge the book is right?
I have no idea where I could've put it. I remember seeing it on my stairs not long ago but now it seems it has gone up in smoke or something.
It better not have gone up in smoke, I paid through my arse for that book (No, I did not give shit for the book... it's a figure of speech)

I have decided on the spaces for my booth.
-Info centre
-Download centre - to download games wirelessly
-Service centre - to service owned consoles
-Tech Demo centre - for people to try out the technology behind the microphone and touch screen
-Demonstration/Trial centre - for people to try the console (one console per game)
-Storage area
-Rest area
I had so little spaces so I went online and researched the Nintendo booth at the E3 fair and I really got alot of help there in terms of colour scheme, space and facilities.
Do we need our criteria matrix this time round?

Have u ever concentrated so hard, you forget to breathe?
I'm gasping for breath like a fish on land now.

Was watching the studio version for Gaika, Chinmoku ga Nemuru Koro and this girl left a comment saying she molested Kaoru's crotch at a show.
I'm like O_O, honestly. Even if she really DID molest his front bottomhalf of his body (something like that), I'd honestly appreciate if she'll keep information like that to herself. She could've just stopped at "I felt his dick".
If I ever screwed anybody, I'd say "I did him" and not say "I did him and I felt his front bottomhalf of his body". Ew. Too much information.
Anyway, Toshiya did this awesome turn towards the end and I finally got a nice clear view of his bum (after so long) and I'm not sure if I'm disappointed to say that it's as flat as ever.

Waiting for Vinushka to load.
After a great Toshiya crotch shot in Glass Skin (that I could not molest and comment about his front bottomhalf), I'm hoping for more good things to come.

While waiting for that to load, I'm watching the Thai movie, Metrosexual. It's super freaking funny but the language throws me off.
Anyway, they were at a duck rice shop and apparently, it's pricey and one of the girls say "It's so pricey here. Do they put Donald Duck in the soup?"
I've not laughed this hard since My Boss, My Hero (Which was a JDrama that I watched cause Tomoya Nagase was in it)
Then, the their queen friend told them that to find out whether the guy they were snooping on was really gay or not they should check for sex toys or gay nudie mags to find out if he played in the 'front or the backyard'.
Hahahahahahahahaahhaahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The other funny line was the girl saying that men were becoming strange cause "once upon a time you walk past 20 poles and see one ladyboy but now you walk past one pole and see 20 ladyboys"
Lol!
And the fortune teller told one of the girls that "You would not die in a freak accident!" and she was so happy... then the teller continued "You will die in the hospital when you get there!"

Ah, watching old school Dir en grey videos now. Gotta miss those 1998 days.
(I accidently closed Vinushka and is too lazy to open it again)
Raison D'etre is still my favourite song despite the bondage chick in the video that seriously freaked me out with her whole eye stabbing thing.
Toshiya was awesome in that outfit... LOL!
(Oh Gosh, somebody cosplayed Nigishi/Krauser from Detroit Metal City.. super fxcking funny)
*Jap high school girl imitation* Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! The IIID Empire still manages to send chills up my spine after all this years.
And it gets better when Toshiya throws his microphone and screws up his bass sound! And then struggles to make it look intentional! [I'm watching the hide Summit again]. Sometimes, I feel embarassed for him.... it ain't the first time. What does he have against it? I wonder if they laugh at him about it cause I do all the time.

Oh, man. Advice, don't go from Dir en grey to Dong Bang Shin Ki immediately. The sudden change throws you off.
So, I'm back to Vinushka. Square one.
How much does Adidas pay Kyo to wear their tracksuits in each and EVERY video?
[Toshiya's headbanging but only half his hair is moving. I'm not used to this but I swear to God, he's hot as HELL! (contradicting choice of words intentional)]

I really want..............

.............. to play Mystery Case Files Return to Ravenhearst!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Just finish playing Mortimer Beckett and the Time Paradox.. finally!)

I forgot to celebrate my 1200th post yesterday.

I have no idea I have THAT many posts.

Anyway... A little graphic or whatever job this applies to. I just found it really smart and so simple (I love simple).
The interior was designed by Fantastic Design Works Inc. (Yes, I stalk their website)

The name of the shop is Maruha Shokudo.
And the focus of the picture is the signboard.
Maru is 'circle' in Japanese and the word on the signboard is 'ha'.
It's HA in a circle.. a 'maru'.
Maruha! (Well, I don't think it was Fantastic Design Works Inc. that designed that logo but either way, it really caught my attention)

Sorry... I stalk them too much.
I would absolutely DIE if I could work in that firm.
Even if I was just running errands or even if I'm just stuck at the computer doing AutoCAD.

I'm currently studying and I'm soo dead tired but I HAVE to pass my quiz tomorrow since I'm most likely failing Design Principles this term.
I really don't understand why my tutors hate my simple mind so much.
Why do we try to be complicated?
Why do we try to see a line as a curve and not a line?
Why can't I just be who I really am?
I love white. I love squares.
Why do they hate me for loving decoration?
At times, I just feel like throwing my scale ruler in and just walk out.
Excuse me, it just finally sank in that my tutor completely trashed so many weeks of my time and sleep and my identity as a designer.
They think I'm not working hard or trying hard or that I'm not interested.
And I think it's really unfair that they judge me when they have not seen me work.
I slept an average of an hour a day for the past two weeks and my tutor told me I'm not working hard enough. How much harder do they want me to work? To the point of death?
The Japanese are workaholics but they get sleep!
...
Okay, I just deleted half my post because I realised that I was showing a weakness that I have promised myself I'll never again show.
You know, what Nee On said, might be true.. That eventhough I'm sad, stressed or angry, I hide it. Even Chris and my Mum has told me this.
I don't know if it's normal that I find it hard to bare my soul when facing a person but when facing Ivan, it's so natural and normal. That is why it's hard for me to think of losing Ivan.

Shit, moment of weakness.
And I was trying to start on my work for Tuesday.
Stepping up my game.
I'm gonna forget how much I adore sleep.
I'm gonna forget how much fun it is to sit around and do nothing because I have no choice.
I might as well say goodbye to life as I know it and be a boring moldy old person.
Like I told Claire, one day, we'll show them.

My sister is not home from her dinner...
Is it normal to have dinner at 3AM?
Doesn't she have work tomorrow?

I guess my site will be at KLCC's centre.
Cause it's easily accesible by all sorts of public transport and everybody has heard of it.
And the 'special area' that my tutor always wants us to have will completely use the technology behind the touch screen. Was thinking of imitating the console with the touch screen at human level and the normal screen scaled up and that will be the backdrop. People that walk in can play with the touch screen by writing/drawing and when they're done, all they do is press the big A button or any button and their writing will be featured on the backdrop. This space will of course be the centre of the booth.
It's an idea at the moment, need to find a way to fully utilize all buttons and touch screen.
There'll also be a download centre to download games wirelessly on the DS (like in the stores) for those that already have a DS.
Also there'll be a tryout area with a significant amount of consoles complete with comfortable chairs.
An information counter or reception for the clueless people (*tsktsk* How not to know about Nintendo?)
I'm guessing that my expressive element will be the strokes that is made on the touchscreen when playing.
Colour scheme will be derived from their website... which is gradients of white and gray with a touch of red (Thanks to Mario).
Shapes will mostly imitate the console's shape as even the website's squares look like the DS.
Need to work on the building programme.

Going to sleep now.
Need to refresh my mind.

We got our new assignment today. Barely 24 hours after yesterday's fiasco, they expect us to jump with joy over a new assignment.
Though, I gotta admit, I'm quite stoked about it.
We have to design a promotional booth for either an electronic item, a gadget or cosmetics this time and I'm quite into it cause I do like promotional booths and all but my excitement was short lived when I discovered they weren't changing tutors.
I never get the tutor I want and it sucks.
Claire was also quite disappointed that we were stuck.
Alex yelled really loudly "Haaaaaah?! Again Hamidon???"
Poor them. Apparently, he did not turn up for their presentation AGAIN yesterday and they had to present today and he never tells in advance. They discover 30 minutes after.
I plan on designing for a gadget.. in particular, Nintendo DS Lite cause I have one and it's easier for me to study an item that I have.
I gotta step up my game this time round if I want to avoid any major disasters.
(I stepped up my game for the last one and I can't imagine how much more stepping up I gotta do)

Anyway, we gotta do a whole lotta shit for next week's tutorial. I expect to turn up and her giving me her "Let's see what you've got" look which is not a pleasant thing to face early in the morning.
ANOTHER pin-up presentation. I really hate those.
Today she walked into the lecture hall and Claire was mumbling about her face. LOL!
Yo, dude, some people born with face problem you know... like me for instance!

I played Croatian Rhapsody today.
Aaaaaaah~ Alot of love.
It's actually easier than say... Hana's Eyes.

Ah, darn, was playing Mazes of Fate until my battery died.
I made it into the Underworld and then DIED and I FORGOT to save my STUPID GAME!!
*emos*
Now, it's charging and I'm waiting to defeat the Giant Lizard.

Today's presentation was just like any other presentation.
Claire complains about tutor (Today was worse, apparently).
I get cut in the middle of my presentation to be told that my space is toooooooo simple to be appreciated (And me biting my tongue to avoid arguing).
Nut having only ONE presentation board.
Wendy being late.
Thingy being an ass and having one huge ass presentation board.
EXCEPT, today... I think some tutors were going through some hormonal change or something. They seemed extra snappy and from what I've heard, extra bitchy.
I don't understand why we have to design according to their ways or styles. I firmly believe that our time spent in college should be used to experiment and as designers, we each have our own style that we stick to because it's what we are.. but no. In the past three months, I've been squished down into a tiny box and not allowed out or my marks will get cut.
It's really silly cause EVERYBODY says 'Art is subjective. One person's trash may be another's treasure'. Yeah, but it's not applied in our college apparently. In our college 'One person's trash should be another's trash too.'
And some of them are quite... 'rude' during our presentation. Like, me, I got cut halfway through with her tutting and sighing and that irritating thing you do with your tongue that makes an irritating noise. My father used to yell and punish us for doing that irritating thing and I've learned to hate it. And when you're trying to present and the ONLY feedback you're hearing is her tutting and sighing... how do you think you'll feel?
Well, I got annoyed and just did not bother to continue.
So I stopped. And she started. And she continued. And she never ended.
I learned a lesson from Chloe, who went before me, and did not bother arguing because 'fighting for your ideas' does NOT apply to her. She actually yelled at Chloe to 'not argue' when Chloe was only trying to make her see WHY she did it.
Thanks to that lesson, she eventually ended.
And the other one, Claire, poor bunny got the silent treatment during her presentation. From what I heard, she did not even bother looking at Claire while she was presenting and when Claire showed her concept models, she merely glanced at it and continued to look down at her paper and keep writing. How does she expect to grade Claire's presentation if she doesn't even look at her?
I'm not sure if people understand how we feel.
Even Wei Theng and Hui Shan got bad reviews and I'm just like "WHAT?!"
She also interrupted Wei Theng and just like me, Wei Theng just gave up. I find it very rude to interrupt when someone's talking. Whether it's your student or not, someone should not do that.
[And is it me or are the tutors EXTRA friendly to guys ONLY??]
And people say 'Art is easy'. Yeah, up yours.
I was told that my exterior form was 'decorative' and my model looked like a gift box cause it's too square.
Uh, yeah? Our world is lacking space at the moment. Build a damn circle and we'll calculate how much space is lost there.
And look where Art Nouveau is now? And at THAT time, it was considered not practical and was just form without function. Anyway, if I hadn't done that exterior, it will just be a 'glass gift box' to her.
I heard Nut has to re-do her presentation board. (Do you, Nut, do you?)
Venetia and Ai Yee got put down for their presentation board and 'lack of storyline'.
Adeline had the tutor harping on her 'lack of railing'.
All in all, we're glad the fucking thing's over.

My Mum has discovered my pink wig!!!~
(It took me five seconds to find the '~' key. I have forgotten it's location!!)
While in the car today, she said "And I saw something pink in your room??"
And I said, "Huh?"
And she got to the point and said "A pink wig?"
And I said, "Oh, ha ha?"
She found it amusing so it's okay.

I finally played Maksim!!!
After waiting so long. I managed to find Hana's Eyes, Croatian Rhapsody, Still Waters, Amazonic and Exodus.
I've played Hana's Eyes, Still Water and Exodus... and it's super hard but super fun! :D :D
I've been waiting for my stupid project to be over so I can mull over the pieces and figure out how to play them and this afternoon, I finally did!! Hana's Eyes is amazing to play. Seriously, if you're into running semi-quavers and chords with more than four notes (At the same time) this song is just for you! (advertising time).
Actually, almost all his songs are like that.
Still Water is easier in comparison as it isn't as complex as the rest and it's really the easy listening type. I'm trying to get LeeLoos Tune.
I'm about to print Croatian Rhapsody.
Seriously, I have serious love for this guy's music. I have completely shoved aside my love for Gounod...or Rachmaninov.
(Although, I'm still struggling to play Rachmaninov's Rhapsody on Theme of Paganini. Stupid second page)
Music is really my drug.
It was amazing how I went from down in the dumps (after this morning put down) to up in the skies after playing music.
My only fear is I'll have no time for the piano or the guitar or the bass once I start working.

I'm so tired. Now that everything is over, I feel so tired.
Lord, you have no idea the amount of stress I've just gone through today.
Went over to Claireeey's for help cause I had no flipping clue on how to complete my axonometric.

That's her saving my life.
Then, I came home and quickly snapped pictures of all my models to put on my presentation board.
It took me some time to find my 'black backdrop' cause it seems to have been thrown into the back of my cupboard but I found it anyway.
My 'black backdrop' is actually my black cape.
Do not ask why I have a cape.
It's not actually a cape, it's something like a poncho but you wear it like a cape and it's short. My Mum gave it to me 2 years ago.
It's very warm and was shipped home via parents from Paris.
The only thing it's done for me so far is help in my documentation process.

Then I flew out the door and into the car... flew all the way to Section 17, printed my crap and came home. The moment my right foot stepped in (I always step in with my right foot, it's not that I can't do it with my left, it just seems right if I step in with my right) and felt a wave of relieve wash over me.
Aaaaaaaa~ I forgot what it was like to feel completely relieved after a hectic sleepless week of non-stop project work.

I'm gonna go take a very long bath now.