Why?
- Lost my cool with Raymond. Usually, I now what sorta shit to expect from him and I can usually hold my cool, this time though, I told him off and it suprised even me..
- Somehow, my sections that I was working on for two nights, did not save properly and I have to re-do everything.
- I saved over all my drawings yesterday night.. which means, I have to redo ALOT.
- Lost my phone this morning due to what, I don't know. I have no recollection of what happened and I very nearly killed myself.
- Screwed up my interview because my portfolio did not work out. My pendrive did not have the files that I saved in it and there was NO internet connection. I have mispresented myself and I knew that even if I said "I'm not usually this messed up", the interviewer wouldn't have believed me because the first impression is the most important.
- The icing on the horrible tasting cake was? The interviewer was an aunty from my church. Aris said "Handicap!" I said "NO".. I have a bad reputation in church.
- After all that, I showed emotion in front of my parents.
I was so down by the end of the day I just wanted to curl up in my corner, listen to my music and read a book (it cheers me up) but I had to get to work on my drawings.
I came home, talked to my bunny, ran into the house, ran up and just curled up and released my stress (in the form of tears).
Then my parents wanted to know what was the matter with me... and that's when I finally let them in on it. I hate talking to them about things that trouble me. It troubles me even more if they get all concerned. I do not really like people being concerned for me... Don't ask me why.
