Wiped out

OH MY GOD! I finished another assignment! I am so happy! Although, after looking at the rest of the class's books...I hate mine. I want to redo. I think I'll redo. After she grades me. I'd probably get a D for it. It's so plain and boring. Alex's book was more of a building than a book but it was very nice. The one I liked the most was Ze Ling's one (is that how you spell her name??). Hers had a carrier! It was all flowery and the book was placed in this metal basket like thing. And she made the metal basket herself o.o! Talk about creative. I am DEFINITELY redoing my book now. And talking about projects, I got a B for my Toshiya portrait thing. I guess it's good but I want an A. I had to add and touch up a few things and then hopefully I'll get an A. But I'm not sure if Ms. R grades us the way Mr. K does.

I'm currently so damn tired you have no idea. I slept at about 5 something 6 last night. I know I've said this before but I need to say it again...I HATE PROJECTS! Especially the big ass projects that will take forever to do. Well, tomorrow my critical studies class is going to the Islamic Art Museum. Although I don't know what I'll find interesting there but it'll be fun I guess. I have to drive again and I don't know the way. WTF? I'll follow Nat.

Guess what I was doing again?? Drawing clothes. I swear I need to get a new hobby. I've got stacks of scrap paper filled with just sketches and ideas for clothes. It's all over the place and I'm dying to own something like that but you can't buy anything like that! Talking about clothes, I need chains. NOT DOG CHAINS! Normal chains, light chains, chains you can hang on your pants without risking it falling. Those kind.

Just a quickie

I haven't been online right?

Piled up to my eyeballs in ass-ignments. I have to get that book done by 9 a.m tomorrow. I'm saying sayonara to my sleep tonight and so is everybody else. I think. Whatever. Needa go out now to buy materials! I'm short of one page! BYE BYE

It's only been an hour since I last blogged but...

<- Okay, I don't know why I saved this picture but I did so no questions. I always loved pictures of Shin with his guitar or his koto. His koto skills rocks. You should hear Meguru sometime. You can hear his koto so clearly and everytime the chord comes on...*melts*...you get the point right?

This picture on the other hand.. Oh man, HOT! No other words for it. What's better than Shin in a tank top?? I love his earring... ^^

Random rantings

<- The only thing in pink I'd ever like. (And every other JRocker who wears pink of course) Isn't Bou-kun adorable? Oh my God! I just referred to Bou as 'thing'! *ahem* I mean, person. Honest mistake, I swear.

I'm bored. Today we did book binding. I hate book binding.

Orientation week is next week! Nyaa~ Watch out all you juniors. Your senior is gonna be me!!

Kagrra's Kisai is like the bestest song ever. Hizou too. And Gen'oku. And Ihoukyou. And Amafurase Tanmaina. And... Oh heck, every song rocks.

I wonder if there'll be any hot guys in the new intake. Technically, they should be the same age as us, yeah? Hehe~ Talking about new people, today on the way out to lunch with Nat, we had to pass by the enquiry office and I saw this guy sitting there. He looked hot from the back cause he had nice hair. Nat didn't let me stay long enough to wait for him to turn around. Man, if he had been hot... I'd start praying he has an interest in art... For reasons obvious to all of you. I'd be ever so kind to a junior who looked like that. Talking about guys, some guys are so embarassing! Take, for instance, the guy me and Nat saw on the way to lunch. We were crossing the road and this two guys on a bike zoomed by and this one guy started making smooching sounds. Trust Nat to practice patience... She screamed 'FUCK YOU!!!!!' right down the street. Sent me cracking!! Oh hell, she's very patient. And yet another example of embarassing is this guy that me and my sister saw yesterday. Some guy knocked into his car and he immediately came out waving this long stick about. He was screaming at the other dude waving the stick. Okay, I don't care whether he wanted to beat the other guy to death or something (just a little) but I'm just wondering why he has a long stick in his car. It's not like he woke up that morning and took the stick knowing that somebody was going to whack his car, yeah? Makes you wonder what kind of people you're gonna meet tomorrow.

I'm quite sad to say that I seem to have lost my obsession for Silver Ash. That's because I've been holding out for three days and willing my hand to move the mouse away from the Silver Ash folder. Right now, we listen to Kagrra and relive the Kagrra obsession! I just realised I downloaded their entire discography a while ago. So I have every album, single and what-not from the time they were known as Crow to Kagrra to Kagrra,. Yes, Kagrra, is now spelled with the coma.

I've got a problem. I can't type the word 'spelled' out properly. Everytime I spell it, it comes out as speel. Tell me I've got a problem? Especially when I'm trying to insult somebody's spelling and I end up spelling 'spelling' as speeling. (Just to let you know, in that last sentence alone, I had to backspace so many, especially when I'm typing 'spelling') It's a problem. Man.

Oh man~

I'm bored...again, I know. I'm always bored. For once in my life, I swear, I need excitement. Everything I do, I'm bored. >.> Couldn't sleep till late late late last night for reasons unknown to men. Now, I'm bored. Later, I'm going out~ Needa buy stuff for my stupid project. Stupid mounting board is so damn hard to cut and use so I'm just gonna use box board. I HATE BOARD. But I want my book to have fat pages just like those 'First book of Safety' books that I use to read when I was young! ^^*ahem* Ignore that.

I still want that pair of boots I saw on Double Decker. It's so nice nice nice~! In case you are wondering what I want, it's the 305 lace up or the 10 hole boots triple stack. They're so nice and if my calculations are right, it's about RM300 each. I so want them. My birthday is October 28. I just thought you needed to know so you can prepare me a present.....o^^o [Have any of you wondered why I put 'o' next to my '^^'...it's hands]

Well, picture post since I'm bored->


Me and Nat's best lunch so far!! Mocha cheese cake and brownie with ice cream from Secret Recipe

Erm, camwhoring in her car?

Me and sister outside Ikano...She made me walk the long way from The Curve and we were outside!!

Ray's, er, dieting drink?? Geez, looked funky but he said it tastes like soybeans.

Stuck our purikura on the wall~

Rye-chan~ My tie!! Cute isn't it??

o^______^o

That, ladies and gentleman, is my face at the moment! *points to title* Wanna know why?? I had STEAK for dinner!!! o^___________^o My dad originally planned to take us (Mum, brother and me..Grandma and two sisters were going out for dinner) to Cable Car in Jaya cause he said we haven't eaten there for a long time. Then, on the way there, he asked us what we were going to have and I said steak (duh) and he was all 'If you're going to have steak, may as well go to San Francisco Steak House' and I'm like 'Hell yeah!'. Okay, I didn't say hell cause if I did I'll have hell to pay but something similar. So we all had steak there!! (I swear that little conversation I had with my dad sounded like an advertisement!!)

No Donovan, I owe you ICE CREAM! So don't start about your steak. Stop lying to yourself. I owe you ICE CREAM. And I only owe you ONE cause I already gave you your ice cream the last time!

I think Malaysia is going to snow black snow soon. Guess what I wore for dinner tonight?? PINK PANTS! Oh man~ I just had it for the longest time and honestly, I quite like it. I happened to have saw it and thought I'd just wear it. My mum was all like 'You're wearing pink pants?! o.o'.

I got tagged by Leo-chan so I'm doing it.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1.Lydia
2.Sticky/Stickiness
3.Lyd

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1.Eyes
2.Height
3.Hair

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1.Nose
2.Body
3.Legs

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1.Chinese
2.Pure Chinese
3.Seriously Chinese

THREE THINGS YOU CAN’T STAND:
1.People
2.Pink
3.Anything that’s cute and fluffy

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1.Pink
2.Fluff
3.Worms

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SHOWS:
1.I don’t
2.Watch
3. TV

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE JAPANESE ANIMES:
1.Get Backers
2.X
3.Full Metal Panic! Fumoffu

THREE OF YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONGS:
1.Silver Ash – Shangxin de ge
2.Phantasmagoria – Pixy False
3.Alice Nine – Nine Heads Radio Show

THREE MOVIES YOU CAN WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN:
1.Pirates of the Carribean
2.Final Fantasy 7 Advent Children
3.Lord of the Rings (All 3)

THREE MOVIES YOU WOULD LIKE TO WATCH:
1.Pirates of the Carribean (What’s it called? The new one)
2.Fast and the Furious : Tokyo Drift
3.That new horror movie

.THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1.Ivan
2.Sleep
3.Food

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1.Jeans
2.Shirt
3.Underwear

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1.Fun
2.Excitement
3.I guess if I don’t say love it’s gonna be weird right? MONEY

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE GENDER THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1.Height
2.Hair
3.Thickness of wallet. I’m KIDDING! Hands

THREE BAD HABITS:
1.Swearing
2.Talking loudly
3.Obsessing. I swear it’s a habit

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1.Sleeping.
2.Eating
3.Playing

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1.Buy myself a one way no return ticket to Japan
2.Take purikura
3.SLEEP

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING OR CURRENTLY PURSUING:
1.Rockstar
2.Interior Designer who works exclusively to design discos and clubs!
3. …

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1.Japan
2.China
3.Thailand

THREE KIDS’ NAMES YOU LIKE:
1.I don’t
2.Like
3.Kids

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1.Run across Federal Highway naked
2.Move to Japan
3.Have a sell-out concert in Tokyo Dome

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL (or guy):
1.I’ve got boobs
2.I don’t have the male vital organs
3.I like Toshiya…a MAN

THREE PEOPLE YOU TAG TO DO THE SURVEY:
1.Stephanie-jie
2.Rye-chan
3.Claire

[EDIT] I really miss reading Ludwig Kakumei. It's in my old computer and I can't transfer it over. Anybody have it? I can't even access that Sakura-Crisis website anymore. They just aren't there! TT My FAVOURITE, most favourite, favouritest Kaori Yuki manga. Scores over Angel Sanctuary.

Boredom..*yawn*

Woke up at 2 today. Oh joy~ And then lay in bed somemore just to avoid going to the bathroom cause my sister came out of our bathroom and annouced that there was a baby lizard...so I pretended to sleep somemore.

It's the weekends and that means I have to start doing that book shit. GAH! I don't want to start on it. TT

That picture...is Die. Die sleeping. Die off the bed. I don't know what happened but it looked like he fell off the bed.

Weekends. Oh wow. I can sleep!!

Eeee~ Talk about pissing off. Today while on my way to guitar class I encountered THE funniest yet annoying thing of my life. I wanted to cut into the next lane and when I looked into my wing mirror I saw that the car wasn't moving so I had lots of space to cut in but when my car was halfway in the lane the other car decides to speed up and of course he had to break very very hard or else we'd both be mashed potatoes. And then he sounded his horn like it was a war call. I was like '-.-WTF?'. That's not the best part. Then he got onto the next lane and I noticed that although that lane was moving very nicely compared to my jammed up lane...his car was right next to mine and he was not following the lane. So I thought 'Ah! He'd like to have a soundless word with me' so I just turned in his direction (or he'd be there all day and hold up the entire lane's traffic) and the moment I turned in his direction I saw that he was showing me his middle finger. >.< Oh man! I just looked at him with one eyebrow raised and then he drove off. I didn't know whether to laugh or to scream.

Today's lunch was, amusingly, curly fries and criss cut potatoes from Potato Patch!I love potatoes fried so the lunch was great. Raymond's lunch was this green thing which he said tastes like soybeans and was to help him lose weight. Oh well. After that, I caught sight of DreamWorld which is where all the purikura machines are. So I bugged them all to go cause I've been dying to take purikura for ages! It was really amusing. While we were decorating the pictures, I told Raymond that whatever he does, don't press the blue button which said 'owari' cause that would just mean that we're done decorating everything. After we were done with the first one...he tapped the owari button! Oh, how I screamed. So out of three, we only have one decorated. Thanks Ray!-.- We're doing it again! When it was printed, we had extra after dividing it among the six of us (Ray, Claire, Alex, WH, Nat and me). So we stuck that on that little transparent piece of plastic that they provide to stick your things. I took pictures so I would maybe post that tomorrow.

So, because I think I haven't told you about the dustbin slapping my face I'll tell you. If I've done this already...ignore. It happened somewhere at the beginning of this week. I was done with dinner and was in the kitchen putting my plates in the sink when I dropped a piece of I-forgot-what and bent down to pick it up and throw it away. See, my dustbin in my house is the type where you step on a little pedal and the cover swings open to reveal the trash. Anyway, was about to step on the pedal when I accidently dropped the I-forgot-what and I just bent down to pick it up. The moment I bent down, my foot went down too but the cover came up. And oh man! I got slapped. My mum had a really great time laughing her brains out at me. And I was just standing there in shock. Then I kicked the dustbin and stalked out of the kitchen. They're still laughing at me.

From school with love

BORED! MAN! Fridays can't get anymore dull than this! I need excitement in my life.

Just now at OU I bought a tie....whee! It has nice round skulls one it and I can't wait for a chance to wear it.

I'm actually supposed to be researching now but this Ray keeps chatting with me in PINK and it's agitating me.

I've got guitar class later and Japanese class tonight. Finally moving on to B2 for Japanese and I haven't practiced no shit for my guitar. I'm dead.

Everybody point!!

Hmm~ Today was good. I suppose. I woke up late again. I seem to be doing that alot lately but this time I managed to wash my hair ^^. Brought Cole to school (Cole is the snowman Vince gave me for Christmas) cause I woke up with him on my face and was too attached to it...and accidently brought him out the door. Well, he's snuggly and kept me company during my journey to and from school.

Got my numbers project feedback today. I got graded B. I guess it's good compared to my D currently in drawing class. I really need to redo my capsicum painting to improve that grade.

Just now, I went to The Curve and Ikano with my sister. I wanted to go to Popular and well, I wanted somebody to come with me. I bought a whole lot of card and paper and board for my transformation project so I'm gonna do that this weekend. Lots of work and I'm not looking forward to it. Then we went to Borders to buy a little something that I'll only tell you tomorrow ^^~! Don't wanna ruin the surprise.

Just to inform you although you're all not interested...I'm still into Silver Ash. I'm still listening to their songs. Talking about songs, I got Sid's new single 'Chapter 1'. As expected from Sid...it's brilliant. Nice. Nice jazzy, rock music. Although, I'm not sure if it's suppose to be jazzy, rock music but it just sounds that way to me.

Have I mentioned I got slapped by the dustbin cover? Tell me if I haven't and I'll tell you all about it. It's sad and depressing. Nobody is letting me forget it so I was just wondering if I've mentioned it here.

That picture up there is AnCafe again. I find their photoshoots so cute and that's saying something cause I don't usually like cute things. As usual, Kanon (far right) is the best looking of them all. Not saying the rest aren't good looking...Bou is pretty, Miku is cute and Teruki is spastically cute. Kanon, on the other hand, is HOT. SMOKING HOT. *ahem*

RYE!! STOP CALLING ME HENTAI!

Screwy

Today sucks.

1. Computer class was so damn boring.
2. I woke up late.
3. Couldn't wash my hair.
4. Found out I'm in the same orientation group as...ES.
5. I know you're dying now.

Really, man, how mean can they get. Putting me in the same group as ES? I hope it's not true and that Alex saw the wrong list. Please please please.

To soothe myself, I'm going to obsess over KANON! Kanon is the one on the far left of the picture. I just love his outfit. I wonder where I can buy a tie like that. And that hat! Oh man. It's soo cute on him! He's so cute! I love Bou's (second from right) jacket. With the pockets hanging out. Only if it wasn't pink. Has anybody seen any pictures of AnCafe? Anybody notice that Teruki and Bou is always gaying?^^ Kanon is a damn cool bassist. Especially his bass solo in Escapism~ Aaaaaaaah!

Complains complains~ That's all I hear right now. Maaa~ Not going to care. Dinner dinner dinner

Ah~
Nothing happened today which sucks. Just went to school as usual. Did my work as usual. *sigh* Life's beginning to be boring again. I need to go to KLCC. Yes, again. I know. *sigh*

Isn't Tora's smile amazing? And him in a santa suit hugging a pillow doesn't do any good for my fangirliness. He's so damn adorable.

Good news for today is my colouring though. ^^ Mr. K said my soft pastel, oil pastel and acrylic part of the whole picture is okay and that I'm on my way to an A~ Unfortunately, the next and last part if supposed to be done in water colour. Oh no. Water colour and me go a long way back. I've never been good at it.

Another picture post? Yeah, but not of me!

You see, I'm home for lunch again cause I felt like coming home. I didn't feel like going anywhere for lunch. Maaaaaa~ I don't know why. Anyway, since I'm bored, I'll post Dir en grey's pictures. I'm obsessed as you can tell. Most of these pictures were taken waaay before I could even speak properly. Okay, so maybe not that old but they look old cause they're mostly black and white. Most of them were taken when Dir en grey was still quite new.... I think. Man, I just save them I don't research on them! HAHA

Left - Right : Toshiya, Kyo, Kaoru, Shinya

In the train : Die

This looks so long ago. I mean, they still had hair hanging over their butt.

Shinya and Toshiya. Pretty. Just so you know...The hiragana there says A.I.SHI.TE.RU. And we all know what that means. Oh the crack!
Am I dying? Yes I am. DEAD. So damn hot.
Kyo and Toshiya. Kyo looks so cute *sorry Kyo*. Toshiya..I love this smile of his.
I'd kill for legs like that! Such hotness, gorgeousity and sexiness should be made illegal in fear of all the fangirls fainting.

Stupid posts on bulletins.

I just did this one where you do it to determine whether you're the 2% of the world's population or the other 98%. It's dumb. Here's what I did. First I had to think of a number between 1-10 (4). And then multiply that number by 9 (36). If it's a double digit number add it (9) and then subtract 5 (4). Find the alphabet that corresponds with that number (D). Think of a country that starts with that alphabet (Denmark). Take the last letter and think of an animal (Koala). Take the last letter and think of a fruit (Apple).

Here's the best part. The last question said...

Are you thinking of Kangaroo in Denmark eating orange?

And I'm like...'Er...no?' Mine's Koala in Denmark eating apples.

LOGIC! Whatever number you take between 1-10 when multiplied by 9 gives you a double digit number that when added together gives you 9. So...when you minus 9 with 5 you get a 4. EVERY number you choose will give you 4. Which gives you D. And any normal person will first think of Denmark. Unfortunately, looks like I'm part of the 2%. I thought of Koala. Stupid.

Hyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

Last night was weird. I took such a long time to fall asleep and usually it only takes me like a few minutes. But when I finally went to sleep, I had the oddest dream ever! I dreamt that we were all in school. Me, Sj and two other faceless people. I swear they were faceless. They were facing me and they had no face but Sj and I were talking like it was the most normal thing in the world. Also, school as in secondary school. So we were walking along Mutiara Basement's corridors towards the Junior Block when suddenly this whole lot of faceless people started running towards us. Then SJ started screaming at me to run and we ended up in the 1st floor toilet in Junior Block. I don't know why but SJ said we were going to be safe there and the doors weren't locked or anything. It was wide open. And then suddenly the whole entourage of faceless people appeared in front of our faces and SJ pulled my hand dragging me along with her to run away but I just stood there like an ass. Anyway, I got shot in the end and the dream ended. WTF?! I'm never going to sleep again. Good thing I didn't feel what it was like to get shot or I would have died.

The picture you see is Tenten and Oto (Otto??) from KuRt. Yes, you spell KuRt as KuRt. Anyway, the japanese say 'Tenten no daisuki *insert kanji meaning*?!'. In case you're as innocent as a 5 month old baby (or me) and don't get what they're trying to do, Tenten keeps biting Oto and in the picture on the left, Tenten is giving Oto a love bite. I love Tenten. Speaking of gay acting people, I felt like such a hentai fangirl today while showing Rye-chan my SHOXX magazines with Sanaka. >_< She was just as hentai as me okay. I saw her face light up when she saw Sanaka and that other guy (still don't know his name) in frilly lace. And then she was so interested in the KamijoxSanaka photoshoot. HAHAH! Okay, so it may not be true but Rye-chan! Do you really want me to sound hentai?? Hentai ja nai yo~...Who am I fooling?

Today has got to be the worst day in my life. I kinda dropped ice cream onto my WHITE shirt today and I didn't want to show the stain off all over school (considering I walk through the canteen to get to class) so I knotted up my shirt. Unfortunately, it kinda made me reveal some flesh...and Ms. R was staring at me like O.O and everybody was staring at me like ._. and all I was all -.- They look like they've never seen a hot girl before. Okay, I'm just messing.

Ah...week after next is the week where I'm finally going to be a senior instead of a junior. FINALLY. I can't wait. We're going to spend one week working on a project with them just the way I did it with my kite thing last time. Hehe. One week off class. *does the Alice Nine thing*. Er, in case you don't know what Alice Nine thing...it's their New Years message. Er, just go watch it. But I always do it when I'm happy, so you should know what it is.

Me : I dropped ice cream on my shirt. That's why it's up in a knot. HEHE
Claire : Oh..no wonder. I thought I saw some brown thingy on your shirt.
Ting Yi : Why am I brown?
Me & Claire : *kwok kwok kwok*

I'm feeling better now. At least now I know I'm not alone in this depression of mine. Thanks Rye-chan for talking to me about it and actually understanding what I'm going through. Although, we're still talking now but thought I'd say thanks.

I'm actually blogging just to clear my mind a little and do what I do best. Be obsessive. Now, take that picture of Dir en grey. That was the era in which I loved them best. Visual. From left to right : Die, Kaoru, Kyo, Toshiya and Shinya. Toshiya has thighs to die for. Come to think of it, I've never seen Kaoru's thighs. The only thing close to thighs I've seen on that fella is when he wore skin tight leather of sort. Cool. As much as Kyo hates to admit it, he's actually very cute. I love this outfit of Kyo's the best. It's just damn cool.

I kinda need to sleep now or I can forget waking up tomorrow.

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I'm trying not to be like one of those 'emos' but if this keeps up I'm going to just fucking kill my fucking self. Wipe my fucking existance off this fucking world! It's so damn frustrating! If you don't understand what the fuck I'm trying to say then please don't talk to me. I don't want to talk to you if you're trying to tell me what I SAID. Damnit, I SAID IT! I should know what the fuck I said. First I wake up feeling like the worst fucker on earth and then you had to happen to my day and make it worse! I'm trying to look happy here damnit! Stop stomping on my fucking parade! Leave me alone to weep with my sad self! Leave me alone cause you're helping me lose myself! Leave me alone to reconsider the purpose of my life! DAMNIT! JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!

Feeling blue

Sometimes, I think I'm actually losing my mind one bit at a time. I do things that I don't want to do. I say things I don't want to say and sometimes I even forget what I do or say. I get thoughts that a normal person wouldn't get. And I'm not talking about perverted thoughts either. It's just thoughts you wouldn't think of normally. Thoughts of what I'd want to do to somebody. I hope you know what that means. And sometimes, I actually believe I'm capable of acting based on my thoughts alone. I keep wondering what's going on in my mind. Don't mistake me though, I'm not one of those deprived, my-father-hates-me, I-come-from-a-broken-home kinda kid. In fact, I'm very normal if you're going to start talking about family. But there's just something a little wrong with me. I can't place it and I can't start to describe it. It's just a thought, a little bubble of thoughts swimming around in my head waiting to pop and release the thoughts. It's all cooped up somewhere up there. I dream things that people would call 'nightmares' but yet, I don't wake up in sweat or wake up in fear. I sleep on. I sit through the whole night 'movie'. But when I dream of something sweet and nice for a change, I wake up and would be unable to sleep for the rest of the night. Why? I'm not trying to sound like an emo-I'm-really-sadistic kid. It's happened so many times! I wasn't like this 3 years ago! 3 years ago I was a happy pop-pink-fur-happy-liking kid. And now? I made a 360 degree turn around in my attitude and interests. Sometimes, I think people hate me. Sometimes, I think people are just being nice to me cause they think I'm weird or mental. Sometimes, I think they're lying to me. But yet, sometimes I think they're really nice to me because they like me. It's just crazy to think about it but yet I think about it all the time. Maybe you can call it low self-esteem and maybe that's what it is. I've never had high self-esteem. I don't see myself as a pretty girl, or a sweet girl, or a nice girl, or a capable girl. I always see myself in the negative sense. And eventhough, I like to think things have changed in that aspect, the truth is, it hasn't. I'll always be like this eventhough I keep lying to myself. Things that normal people deem disgusting, cruel and uninteresting intrigues me. I like to say it's curiousity but in truth, I don't think it is. It's something else that attracts me to subjects and topics like that. I can't even begin to place words together now! I can't describe what I'm feeling in proper words! Instead I'm blabbering incoherently! You know how I like to say people always put on a mask to face the public? Everybody has one extra side of them to show the public. They don't show what they really are most of the time. I have one of that too. The only thing wrong about mine is, I never take it off. It's always on and I keep lying to myself. It's driving me crazy. It's almost to the point where it comes naturally. I want to change but yet, I don't want to. I keep contradicting everything I say! I really should stop posting posts like this. I'm boring the people. I'm boring all of you who is reading this. Sorry, I need to get it out of my confused mind. I need to sort out my mind, for heaven's sake!

*freaks out*

Okay, I know this is my third post for today but...

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!

I know I'm very late at this but...

DIR EN GREY HAS A NEW SINGLE COMING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! *dies*

Click on that picture to see the picture. I kinda screenscapped the official website of Dir en grey.
Go to www.direngrey.co.jp and look under HOME.
HOVER your arrow [Don't click] over home and you'll find 'Latest News', 'Release' and 'Tour'. Click Release and you'll find it! The very first one! The new single!! Ryoujoku no Ame!!

I'm overjoyed you have no idea how.

Just here to complain

Well, so I was doing what I do best and was roaming around YouTube when I decided to look for something to do with that Taiwan drama The Devil Beside You. Which, by the way, was taken from that manga called Akuma de Sorou. I found something and all I have to say is

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

Okay, so Akuma de Sorou is the ONLY romance manga I have ever read. Romance between normal couples that is. And...I actually like it. I first got to know it because the artist/mangaka drew the character Takeru based on hide. As in, X-Japan's hide. BUT! The series is so EW. The guy they chose for Takeru looks NOTHING like Takeru. Takeru looks almost hide-ish. Okay, so I know they can't find another guy who looks like hide or a guy who looks like a manga character, but they could at least find a guy who can portray the character nicely! This guy keeps smirking and looks like he's trying to hard to look cool. Oh man. And that Rainie girl! So she looks like what's-her-name in the manga and they're both just as stupid but..there's just something wrong about her. Oh man, this sucks.

Believe it or not, I STILL WANT TO WATCH IT!

SHIAO JEENG!! I wanna lend your VCDs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

It's not funny

This isn't funny.
This isn't funny.
This isn't funny.
This isn't funny.

I'm still obsessed.

HELP!!!

That's Ling, by the way. The one from Silver Ash with the voice to melt me into a pile of mush. MAAAAAN! Still remember when I got damn into Dir en grey, I referred to it as 'obsession overboard'. What do I call this? I was digging through my external and I found out I actually have a live clip of the song Mysterious Sand. SHITAKE MUSHROOMS ON CHERRY ICE CREAM! I never realised. I kept watching it. And then I went on YouTube again just to watch that live video of one song. Remember the one that I was complaining about the puny stage. Yeah, I realised his microphone also stopped working halfway through. And he had to run up to Lucy and steal his microphone. Yes, Lucy is a guy.....-.- I don't know what's so addictive about their music. I'm beginning to think it's Ling's voice. The moment he opens his mouth to sing...I melt. I don't know how to put it but it gives the feeling of depression, sadness, lost...The exact kind of thing I like. And so far the only one who can do that is Kyo from Dir en grey. I really want to go to China now just to look for them. HAHAHAH~ Fat chance of that happening but what the hell. I want to go to China! I heard they actually sell goth punk clothes there. DAMN. Oh my God!! Shangxin de ge just came on...and DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMN. He's got a voice smooth as silk. It hits straight into the heart. If ever I commit suicide, I'll do it to his voice. Hell, I'll stab myself listening to this song.


TOSHIYA~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Er, the one with the balloons. The little BABY! EEEEK
Nice to know my obsession with Toshiya is still there. Just think, he used to look like that and now he looks like this...


HEHEHE. I'll ciao for now.

TF's Totoro~ I nearly killed him. Too much hugging and squeezing. Taken on Tuesday.
Nat. Alex. Me. On Tuesday.
I think we were trying to pose. Note, I said TRYING. I look disgusted. Ray? Is it because of you? I'M JUST KIDDING! Don't kiss me, kay? ^^ I look like that cause I was trying not to laugh.
Ray stuffed Totoro in my jacket's hood...
...and then made me pose.
Nat, Alex and Me again. Alex terrorises me with his camera.
I was trying to explain to Ms.R what the **** we were trying to do. And Alex's face cracks my day.

Now, I really wonder what we do in school. I know why we have so much of assignments to do. It's cause all we do in school is camwhore!

On a nicer note, I had my routine 'talk' with Ms. M today and she said that my research is on the right track. GREAT! I can finally start writing that bloody question 3!

Who's seen that SHOXX bis July edition? Oh man! If you're a fan of yaoi, you'll LOVE Kanoma (Sanaka, Hitomi, Kanoma..same person) and that other guys photoshoot! MAN!

1. They're dressed in lace.
2. They have NOTHING under that lace.
3. The 'other guy' is wearing some frilly lacy thing at his ASS.
4. Kanoma looks naked.
5. They were posing VERY CLOSE.
6. The last picture has them CUDDLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, ahem, now that I'm back to normal, if you want to see that photoshoot tell me. I absolutely love Kanoma/Sanaka/Hitomi. So let me talk about him. He's the ex-vocalist of Fatima. 'EX' cause they have disbanded. I'll always love his ridiculous looking leopard-skin-tight-fitting-outfit with the fur coat. Hm, as far as I know, their fanservice was really great. I know they kissed on stage (as most have done) but I also know they tongue each other which is quite abnormal. I guess they make a greater impact on all the hentai fangirls (NOT ME *ahem...blush*). He wears skirts. What could be better? Nothing. Anyway, I don't have much on them. I haven't seen any PV from them and haven't heard the existance of any. I only have one live clip of their song Humiliate Me More Darlin' (ignore the kinki suggestion) and one interview. That interview...man, Sanaka had on this really tight tight short short shorts. And he sat with his legs wide open and it's not like the table was fully covered. When the camera zoomed out I had a clear view of everything. Thank God he wasn't in a skirt or I would have gone from o(O.O)o to (X.X). And the Humiliate Me More Darlin' video had nothing. I mean, if it had him kissing Lay or Lay pretending to 'blow' him....that would have been great but it doesn't. MAN!

Okay...HOW MANY HAVE I KILLED? I'm sure reading that entire section of my blog MUST have killed at least Donovan. And my sister. And probably the rest of the world.

Kyou wa watashi no ane no tanjyoubi desu. (if my japanese grammar is wrong...Don't let me know). I wanted to call her last night at 12 and play the happy birthday song on the guitar. Cause I so happened to have tried tabbing it yesterday afternoon. But, unfortunately for her, my sleep came in first. I was so damn tired.

Today was art history exam. Mid term exam. It was quite okay. Tricky questions which I think I got wrong. But I think I can pass. I hope I pass. If I fail my favourite class, I'm doomed.

OMEDETOU TANJYOBI HENTAI ONEE-CHAN

(red cause you like red...yeah?)

LALALA

Me and Nat doing the whole mirror image thing.

Unfortunately, I'm fatter and taller.

Drink Dutch Lady says Alex.
Look angry was what we said.
I forgot what we were up to.

Claire and Ray tried to copy me and Nat's mirror thing. HAHA
I have no idea.
I snapped this picture~!
KILL RAY!
Me and Alex switched bags.

Ah~ I'm currently back home for lunch. 2 hours of break and I wanted to come home just to wash my hair. Cause this morning, I woke up late and couldn't wash my hair without being EXTREMELY late for class.

Those pictures were taken on Wednesday and that's only half. I can't upload the rest cause, I don't know. Anyway, I'll probably make another post just for those pictures. Gahh~

WARNING! : Camwhores!

I've got pictures to show you all because today's Wednesday and that means camwhorage day. But, I'm way too lazy to upload them all now since BlogSpot photo shit is giving me what it is so I'll do that tomorrow.

Okay, I'm too lazy to shortcut her name so...Claire-chan~ I'll send you the songs alright? Just name me what you want and I'll send it to you. ^^ Although, I doubt you know the names so I'll just send you whatever shit I want to send you.

Rye-chan~ I wore my punk skirt today! So the next set of pictures will have that skirt so you get to see it. Remember I want to show you that day?

\(^^)/

So yeah, the brighter picture, the green one is LOLITA 23Q! ^^ I love them and they have a new look! (not so new, but I haven't seen it yet) and the blurrer one is SILVER ASH! YEAY! Chinese boys! The green picture, look out for the one in the mid-riff. I like that one. For Silver Ash, I like the one with the teardrop at his chest. Yeah, that's all for today.

WTF?

I can't believe this

I've been transformed! Believe it or not, the ME three years ago could actually (and actually liked to) watch chick flicks! The ME now, couldn't even sit through 5 minutes of Freaky Friday! I couldn't stand it! Thought I'd watch that show since I've never seen it but I couldn't! I ended up watching a DOCUMENTARY! I have no idea why but I just couldn't sit there to watch it. It made no sense to me and Lindsay Lohan's voice was pissing me off. I gotta admit she's damn hot and stuff like that, but the dialogue in that show was irritating. And the whole concept of it was annoying. I'd rather watch horror movies.

I'm so in love with Silver Ash I think I'm seeing another 'Dir en grey syndrome' coming. I went on YouTube just now to watch videos and lives. The lives were recorded by fans I think. I was shocked! They played in such puny livehouses. I don't think you even call them livehouses. It was so tiny! The stage was barely a stage but more of a platform. And then I read somewhere that they were actually banned in China. Maybe cause the chinese people couldn't accept their concept and style? I don't know but it's really unfair for them. Cause they actually have talent! Unbelievable talent in fact. I think Silver Ash should have started in Japan. They'd have a much better chance of making it. But from what I watched, they actually had quite alot of crazy fans going gaa gaa over them. But yet they played in puny livehouses. It's unfair! As prove of my love for Silver Ash...

Me :Naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat~~~~~ I'm so obsessed with Silver Ash it's not funny!!!!
Nat : So what? You want to go to China now??
Me : YEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Nat : -.- Okay, Lyd.

And that's what I kept doing the whole day. And you know what's the best part? I don't even like, as in really LIKE, all of their songs. I just like Metamorphosis, Cry, Organum, Lunar Eclipse, Xue Hen, Zang Hua Yin, Shangsin de ge and Zuan Jue. I just listen to these songs! Especially Zang Hua Yin. Crazy love I have for that song, I tell you. I can't find a picture but I'll post it when I can find one. I think their stashed away in my external.

I can't believe I just made a whole post about my obsession. See how OBSESSED I am?
It's a problem

Do you like this?

Insomnia girl, cannot sleep again tonight, the thing seen in every frightening dream, that’s for sure
I’m surely the only one who knows the reason, aren’t I?
Because the girl’s scream is dear, I appear in the dream again
It’s a show time!
I grew tired of waiting, it’s time to fall asleep!
Good night!
Tonight’s menu is, terror? Horror? Splatter?
What’s your desire?
With the girl’s fear and stress, I want her to love me, little by little it’s cute isn’t it?
The girl’s lovely neck.
I visit Insomnia girl again tonight, what kind of dream does she always have?
Without fail.
It disappears from time to time, floating, floating, fluttering, fluttering, dancing in ecstasy through the curtains.
“Shadow”…The nightmare is in the form of a blood-sucking bat.
It’s a show time!　
Good night! My honey?
With the girl’s fear and stress, I want her to embrace me.
It’s cute little by little isn’t it?
The marks of my lovely fangs.
Even supposing I’m burned to ashes someday and fall into ruin
Even before I leave the girl
The girl’s fear and scream and stress and pleasure made to be in only my monochrome, aren’t they? My honey!?

Rain-soaked face, lips, legs, worn out wedding dress.
With a sad expression
She became muddy and lay down.
Decayed.
Rain-soaked you.
Rain-soaked bride..
Trembling I hold you in my arms, beautifully you die and rot, you are Sleeping Beauty
My rain-soaked corpse bride whom, whom is even more stimulating.
The marriage of Frankenstein’s monster, me and the bride, you.
Trembling I hold you in my arms, beautifully you die and rot , sleeping, you
Throughout, we don’t separate, we decompose, unite impurely, dissolve and die.
With you Sleeping Beauty…
I want to decompose with you, who the rain suits, until we dissolve to bones, and become one.

Always, always, from the crack in the closet, me, the toy
Watches you and I hold a knife, in my right hand…
Some day, some day, toy, me, will open the closet door
And play a trick on you and sloppily
Cut you into pieces, slimily
I’ll make you cute cute cute like a doll
I'll take from you and I'll mix the tomato ketchup sauce and whipped cream and
Chocolate and honey and caramel
It became sloppy and after that, the expected ending, attractive you
Breakfast at Tiffany's…

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah~
TOSHIYA~~~~~~~~~~
The middle one.
Back in his Gosick days~ That was his band before Dir en grey.
Really adorable looking.
Hey, who realises the guy on HIS right, that means our left, with the hat? He's really cute too.

*ahem*

Just to let you all know, I still have my Silver Ash obsession going on. That's how bad it is! I'm still listening to their music! Amazing I haven't given up yet. This song I'm just hearing now is called Xue Hen and it's really nice in all Silver Ash's emo glory! Zang Hua Yin is also the BOMB. If you want to know what the name title's mean, ask me. I'm lazy to type it out.

Today was church day~ Woke up late. Found out my mum, grandma and sister left without me. And my second sister wasn't going so I had to drive on my own. And then my mum messaged me telling me she used my car. So I had to wake my sister up and ask her if she would let me use her car. *sigh* Got there in time though. Actually, I was about three hymns late. -.-

SJ messaged me about the band again. *sigh* We really need a vocalist. She suggested asking Chris whether she still wanted to join us. And, I don't really mind, the only thing is whether Chris would be really into it or not. And truth be told, I find Chris more of a R'n'B singer than a rock singer. According to SJ, we just ask Chris whether she knows Amy Lee and if she says yes we get her to sing like Amy Lee and if she doesn't we find somebody else. HAHAHA. Oh yeah. we agreed that the vocalist sound like Amy Lee. We want heavy music but haunting vocals. So, I think Chris can do it, I've heard her sing Amy Lee once. I for sure know that she knows who the hell Amy Lee is. Or else...*shakes fist* BUT, Chris has to dress up visual with us.

You know, I'm damn behind on all my assignments! I need to get them done soon~ English journals! Drawing! Project! Shit man.

READ

Found something that I did ages ago! So all the answers here are answered at that time! Which was before college. Challenge....to EVERYBODY who reads this...DO IT!

1.Are u photogenic ?
All the time. This is ME you're talking about here.

2. What time do you go to bed ?
EARLY in the morning

3. What was the last thing you did before this ?
Bug my sister to play O2 Jam with me cause there are plenty of LOSERS on O2 Jam who ask you to x5 but HAVE NO ****ING IDEA ON HOW TO PLAY

4. Who's the one you always meet the most?
SJ. But now that she's working....

5. Who's the person you'll call if you need help?
My mum. She'll have an answer for anything. Well, if I ever get caught high on drugs..it'll be Sj not my mum. My mum will send me to the police.

6. What's on your mind right now ?
Donovan's 'makan thing', going out with Chris on Saturday, college and like always..TOSHIYA.

7. What do you prefer?american idol/malaysian?
American Idol. But I don't really enjoy watching it. I just like the singing. I don't like reality TV shows.

8. With whom do you wanna be with to have fun ?
Everybody close to me. But I'd ditch the 'everybody close to me' if Toshiya comes along.

9. What movie do u wanna watch now?
The Da Vinci Code. Screw May releases.

10. When was the last time you went out ?
Today. But if you're talking about out with friends than Tuesday.

11. What do you hate the most for now ?
Driving. Full stop. That's it.

12. What do you do everyday besides eat &sleep?
Er~ That's ALL I do seriously. Sad, isn't it? But if you give me Toshiya, you can add sex to that list.

13. Colors that make you happy ?
Black

14. Most fave thing in your room ?
Clothes. Soft toys. Blanket. Pillow. Books/Magazines.

15. Miss someone?
No.

16. Plan to buy something?
Yes. Found this really nice pair of pants with this skull on it. And alsothat coffin chain.

17. Are you satisfied with your life now?
Yes. Well..not really. Okay..not at all.

18.Do you like seafood?
Yes. Hell, I like FOOD.

19.Breakfast or dinner?
Dinner. I don't eat breakfast.

20. Do you recycle?
When I see those colourful bins. Do they still use those colourful bins?? Anyway, how sure are you they REALLY recycle the trash that you throw into their bins anyway? They'll sell it to the trash collectors and earn more money.

21. Do you have a laptop?
No. If I do, you don't want to know what will be in it.

22. What's your favorite fast food?
Burger King. I'm sure everybody who's gone out with me knows this little bit of information.

23. Cats or dogs?
Cats and dogs. Together. Oh, what peace.

24. Salty or sweet?
Salty.

25. City or country?
WTF? Japan.

26. Is kissing normal for your age?
I'm 17. Throw Toshiya my way and I'll tell you.

27. Are you athletic?
I WAS athletic. Cheerleading really builds your stamina. Especially when you have a captain who insists you run everytime you screw a little move and then become captain YOURSELF and follow your previous captains methods of training. Yeah, very fit. All you do is run.

28.Would you want to be treated equally?
Yes. I hate the whole women do house work thinking. Screw you all.

29. Do you have your own cell phone?
Yes. I'd be lost without it.

30. What do you wear to bed?
Without Toshiya = Clothes.
With Toshiya = Nothing.

31. Ever had a crush on a teacher in high school?
OH GROSS! One look at the men teachers in my school and you'll never have another crush for as long as you live. Oh Lord! No wonder I'm single!

32. Coke or pepsi?
Coke. Pepsi tastes odd.

33. sugar or spice?
I'm everything nice.
Oh? We weren't suppose to rhyme?

33. Can you use chopsticks?
Yes. That's a stupid question. Why would you care? Are you giving me food?

34. Do you like to read for pleasure?
Read for pleasure? Are you talking about porn?? That's so wrong.

35. Do you care about getting good grades?
Yes. Unfortunately, good grades don't care about getting me.

36. Have you ever fallen asleep in class?
That's why I don't get good grades.

37. Get a job or ask your parents for money?
Ask my parents for money. It's their choice anyway. They don't let me work.

38. Is your dad strict?
Was worse when I was younger.

39. Do your parents give you enough privacy?
Yes. Thank God. I don't think they want to know what kind of bands I'm into. Well, my mum knows, my dad doesn't. He'll freak.

40. Do your parents trust you?
I think so. Then again, maybe not.

41. Would you ever wanna lose your best friends?
Nope. I can't imagine going to MidValley without Sj and playing Time Crisis.

42. Does your best friend get on your nerves?
Nope. That's a good thing.

43. Do you make friends quickly?
No. Most of the time they think I'm a total bitch until 5 months later when they have absolutely no choice but to talk to me. Then they realise I'm the friend missing from their life all this time. I'm just great.

44. Do you tell your mom everything?
MOST things. Somethings, she wouldn't want to know.

45. What do you & your parents fight about most?
My couldn't-care-less-attitude. Actually, we don't fight, they scold and I couldn't care less.

46. If u love someone & she/he rejected u wut will u do?
Say 'Fuck off bastard. I don't want to be brought down to your level anyway *flash middle finger*'. Calm and cool is my policy

47. Can u sing or rap?
Do you really want 'The Day After Tomorrow' to come true?

48. If u have one wish , who would u make ur wife/husband for the wish?
Toshiya. Dude, seriously, this is like Obvious Question of the Century.

49. Wut do u think of this survey??
Amusingly stupid and boring.

Rambling on and on and on......and on

I found an old CD yesterday. One I have been meaning to look for. Maxim Mrvica! He's like the BEST. I still remember listening to him for weeks! Yes, I'm talking weeks here. I usually get obsessed with a song for about a week or so and then I find something new to love but with Maxim here I listened to nothing else but him for weeks. I don't even remember how long now but trust me, it was WEEKS.

Yesterday at Japanese class we played something my sensei calls Batsu Game. It's really funny! I can't explain it here cause it's just way too long and it will be better if I can demonstrate for you.

You're going to have to deal with me for a while longer cause my connection is actually dead and I can't do anything but wait for it to come back to live.

Listening to Hana's Eyes gives me a very nostalgic feeling. I have no idea why. It may sound really stupid but seriously.

Have you seen Kagrra's Chikai no Tsuki? I don't like the PV. I like the song but I don't like the PV. You don't see anything! It's so unlike a Kagrra PV. My favourites are still Sarasoujo, Gen'ei no Katachi, Satsuki, Kotodama and Gekka Sousou. Those PVs are very Japanese-y. I like those. Kotodama especially! The part where they were wandering around in the caves. Eeks. LOVELY. And when Isshi was holding that little ningyou in the water with the fire coming down. Whoa~ I just love Kotodama. And the song too. It's brilliant. I think it was Sarasoujo (I can't remember the full name of the song right now) with the butterfly and Shin in a tophat. ^^ SHIN! The only PV I've never seen of Kagrra's is Rin. I only have the advertisement which shows a little snippet of the PV. Isshi in electrocuted red hair. I think it was one of the Kagrra no Su when they went for some thing and they showed a little backstage of the making of Rin (I'm not too sure about this, it just looked that way) and it had Isshi bowing to a fan and I think Isshi knocked the fan with his hair! Erm, by fan, I mean the person not kipas. It's so funny! And let's talk about the latest Kagrra no Su! Have I talked about it before? Anyway, this one has Akiya going on a little 'date' with Alice Nine's....TORA! I love Tora. They had to exchange presents, take purikura, go on a ferris wheel together and write letters to each other. At the ferris wheel, they were surrounded by couples! And this Akiya just had to say 'Homo Poi'! Just so you know, he meant 'homo boy' and he was referring to themselves! It seemed that way, but oh, don't we fans wish. ^_~.

Listening to Croatian Rhapsody. AAAH! MAN~ I love these tunes.

I'm bored in school. Ma~ It's the weekends again and I'm happy. But now I've gotta research some shit.
[The guy beside me keeps swearing]

Blogspot's photo shit is SHIT

Okay, boys and girls! How do you wear MASCARA?
You take the 'thing' and put it IN your eye!!!

~complimentary 'advice' from my English teacher. (Edited by Vampyy a.ka Evill)

New fruit in town! New fruit in town!
STAWberries!

~quoted from same person as above. (Edited by ME)

So, as you can tell, I had a ball of a time today during English! Man, the STAWberries comment made Bry laugh his ass off. Okay, so he just giggled it away. But, she can't speak. Grammatical errors, pronounciation errors, you name it she has it, damnit. *sigh*

Tomorrow's history again~ ^________________________^. I feel like such a freak for loving art history.

I remember the time I first heard Panic Channel...REMINISCENCE! Okay, that's not the song. I'm just reminisce-ing. It was their 829 (pa-ni-ku..if you know the japanese numbers, you'd get this) Service [Euro beat mix] and it wasn't just their song mind you, it was the PV. What was it called? Remix Nation The Movie. HAHA! They named their freaking PV! I was so awed by Tara, man. Tall, lanky with some butched up sense of humour. What did he scream again??? Sounded like 'zurus' to me but that doesn't make sense. HE doesn't make sense. Hahaha. Too bad...Panic Channel is not the Panic Channel that I got to know. Instead of Meguru, Kana and the Triple Ts, it's now Meguru, Kana, Kyo~ya, Mayo and...er...I'm sorry. I forgot. TRIPLE T! I loved all three of them! I stalked their blogs. Seriously. I do it the same way I stalk Kagrra's Photodiary. At least I know Tara and Tsubasa is in 176BIZ but Takumi?? Doko desu ka? *sigh* I still get a blast when I watch 829 Serv...oh no, wait...Remix Nation The Movie. Man, it cracks me. *craaaaaaaaack*

Esok pagi kita berpakaian hitam formal lagi. Ini orang semua, tak ada warna lain nak pilih. Mesti pilih hitam. Tapi hitam warna baik. Pakai pink nanti saya mati.
[TRANSLATION! Although, most people reading my blog knows what this means but I have a very strict rule about only writing ENGLISH in here. I wanted to write BM just for the sake of being stupid]
Tomorrow morning we are wearing 'black formal' again. All these people, can't choose any other colour. Must choose black. Although, black is a good colour. Wear pink and I'd die.

Better..I hope

Well, I'm feeling better today! ^^ Thank God.

#1 : Remember when the swing hit me??
#2 : Remember when I hit...........Hey! Notice the way you said 'The swing HIT you' but I said 'I hit'??
#1 : Uh, yeah
#2 : Oh no! Things don't happen to me...I happen to things!!

I LOVE SILVER ASH!!! All these mainland China boys have hidden talents they don't speak of! Listening to them right now, the song 'Who', and it's to-die-for. Whee! Ling's (Yes, that's his name X3) voice is dreamy! I like this other song called Vampire but it's not in this computer. I think it's name is Vampire.

I want a chance to wear my new pants! I can't wear them to college!! It's so damn out of place! Oh, talking about my pants, I dragged Nat into the hardware store that day in 1Utama and to check if they had chains I want. Rye, they do have the chains. But the weight will pull my pants down and leave me a laughing stock. I'll look for lighter chains. Besides, they were selling them for quite alot of cash. Back to the original topic, I want a chance to wear my pants. I've had them for a whole weekend now and I want to wear them! I'm dying here!

YES! I've got 2 new Silver Ash albums! Their self-titled album, Silver Ash, and their Wei Jin Ji album! ^^! Mind all you Mando-pop junkies, these aren't pop songs!! These are what they call ROCK! ^^ Although, Silver Ash is on the EMO side of rock and not just mindless trashing (Slipknot, anyone?) . In fact, I find myself liking more and more emo rock bands now a days. I don't know if this is what every aging rock fan suffers from (I AM 18 this year you know, it's the coming off age ceremony) but seriously, if you had given me my first listen of Dir en grey NOW, I would have just turned my head away and went back to all my emo-sobbing-I'm-dying-now music. Although, technically, Dir en grey do that sorta stuff but theirs has more beat and more tempo and is more trashing. Silver Ash on the other hand, even the vocalist's voice (YES! Ling!) has this suffering-I'm-being-tortured-but-still-able-to-sound-so-damn-sexy feel to it. And their music is not so loud. Ah! It's an obsession. I need to blast my ears more often. Unfortunately, I think Silver Ash is on hiatus. *wails* That's from what I read in their official website. It's very sad but from what I read they apparently had to cancel alot of live shows and all that kinda stuff and some of their bandmembers actually went out to work (?). I really don't know man. This is not from their official website, I read those from other websites. What's on their website is their canceling of shows and stuff...I think. I really forgot already. Oh man! This is crazy! I really think that I'm getting on with age!!! This song called Estrange (Silver Ash of course) is a song I have on my old computer!! But back then, I actually said the song sucks and now I'm like blown away! I LOVE THE SONG. It's crazy. I need to rest my virus-ed head now.

White and Black and Colourful

WHITE

Sensei : Have you studied Japanese before this?
Me : No.
Sensei : Oh, then, do you watch any JDrama?
Me : ^^ Yeah!
Sensei : OH! Cause your understanding and listening of Japanese is very good.
Me : Really?? ^^ But I mostly watch anime and listen to JRock.
Sensei : What anime do you watch??
Me : Forgotten...^^
Sensei : What song do you like??
Me : Dir en grey.......
Sensei : Don't know.
Me : X-Japan??
Sensei : YEAH! I use to listen to them in Junior High School~ ^^ *imitates them*
Me : SERIOUS??? *cheers and imitates along*
Sensei : So!! Hehehe..Back to the exam~

(Everything said in Japanese)

BLACK

Doctor : You have a fever of 100.4F, girl.
Me : WHAT?
Doctor : I'll give you an MC for tomorrow.
Me : URGH!

COLOURFUL

I eat plain white bread for dinner.
I have tons of medicine to take. MAD-icine.

I'm having fever again. Can I survive this?

Can I go to school tomorrow?

I'm sick of being sick!

Nine Heads Radio Show is the BEST! ULTIMATE! I LOVE IT!

Wool is soft and bouncy and nice to play with.

Tissues are pissing me off.

I'm sick of medicine. Bleargh.

Always look on the bright side of life...that's a lie. Look on that side and I'll say you're dreaming.

Why do you say 'It's a small world'? If it's that small, I would have bumped into Toshiya by now. Unless that happened in '98 and I didn't know he was Toshiya. Oh my Gosh!

Isn't Toshiya hot?

Somewhat random?

WORST weekend of my life. At least when I was sick somewhere last week (stomach virus) I still had Sungei Wang to look forward to with my sister. But this week, all I did was sleep and sleep. It's depressing. Waaaa~ I want to be well again!

I'm soo addicted to Berry's Ai. Hakuju Romansu and Alice Nine's Nine Heads Radio Show. I have no idea why. It just hit me. I've been listening to it...for as long as I have been on this computer which isn't for very long since I just woke up from my sleeping spell.

My throat doesn't hurt anymore *applause*. Now it just feels dry. VERY dry.

I still have no idea what we're suppose to bring tomorrow so I'll most probably lug everything to school.

Isn't Kanon cute?

Not again!

NAT!! I'll kill you! You passed me your sickness!! I HATE YOU!

More pictures.

This is the pose which made Ray want to kiss me.
Joshua...doesn't...understand...COOL

Yeah, it's blur. But Alex looks damn funny!! And this is actually the only picture which all of us actually look cool. Thanks Joshua for cooperating this time round.

He likes to give me the bitchy stare. So I do it back.
Alex is weird. He'll say 'HI! Long time no see' every five freaking minutes!
Either that or he'll say 'EH???!!! Hi!' every five seconds.

The days of icky hair.

Cousin (JM) and me in Ipoh. Posing outside hospital door.

C...Nat was standing there for nuts. Just thought I'd let you know. She kicked off her flip flops and stood on the chair for the fun of it. Makes me wonder why a sane person like me is friends with an insane person like her. ^^

OMG! Trying to look sexy!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Those pictures of Joshua in a red shirt was taken on Wednesday while waiting for our photogramming to start.

Finally it's saturday. I can't wait to sleep and sleep and sleep!

Today's theme was black formal. No pictures...cause well, I didn't follow them to 1 Utama today. Ray was really sad. Hahahaha! I know you love me Ray! Kidding kidding!