My day was AMAZING. It actually started off pretty sucky and I lost all mood to do anything in the morning and was actually just dying to go home. I would have if it wasn't for the fact that I was having Moral in the afternoon.
Then, it got so much better.
(While walking towards the lecture theater)
Me : *thinks to self* I wonder if he'll be in this class...
Claireeey : Oi, Lyd, look left~!
Me : *looks left* ... *stones* ... Oh my God! *whispered*
Claireee : *walks on*
Me : *still stoned* ... Wait~ Claireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey!
The guy : *walks past*
Me : *nearly dies* (actually... died)
I swear. I was doubting whether he'll be in my class and was thinking of him when he appears! I nearly died / fainted on the spot. I'm telling you, my knees were so weak. I really didn't know what to do and I was walking like a penguin. I wanted to talk to him but, about what?! So, I didn't. I'm sorry, SJ. He walked past me and I followed him into class. I nearly died.
Then, the most horrible-est of moments came when we were to write something based on one topic the lecturer gave us. I got 'arak' (alcohol) and I wrote whatever I knew about it. And, I had to go up and talk about it!!!! He chose my row to go up second and I DIED! I didn't want to stand in front of the class and talk (and I didn't want to stand in front of the class knowing that my eyes will wander to him.) but I did. I braved the risks of embarassment and just talked away like I actually knew what I was talking about and he accepted my stuff (the lecturer not the guy). I was shaking like a leaf during a snowstorm!
And Ray said that he looked in my direction a couple of times while I was in front (the guy not the lecturer). *sheesh* I should have looked in his direction more so we could have eye contact. XD
[And what was Ray doing staring at my guy? Just because HIS didn't come...*sheesh*]
Oh God! I was SO DAMN F*CKING CLOSE TO HIM! I couldn't breathe I swear.
I was actually nervous when I wasn't even talking to him! Have I got it bad or have I got it bad?
But the sad part was that, we actually had to go up and introduce ourselves. So I stayed back in class, when I could actually just leave, to hear HIM go up and introduce himself but... before he could do that the lecturer made it simpler and just made every row send up a representitive. They didn't send HIM. I was sooo heart broken. I stayed back for NOTHING. Absolutely nothing.
I think he knows I fancy him. He looked at me at one point while I was doing my staring thing. *oh no*. Seriously, guys, I'm a very bad starer. I've met him 4 times and ALL FOUR TIMES, he's caught me staring at him. I bet he thinks I'm looney and won't want anything to do with me. And then I'll be left all alone to grow old with SJ's 5 camels which she won't share with me.
But, while following his sexy back into class... I kept staring at his shoulders. He's so sexy. XD Such nice shoulders! I resisted the urge to throw my arms around it. I'd be really looney if I did that. (That and I most likely couldn't reach it if I tried)
Claireeey : If you found out he has a girlfriend, would you cry?
She asked me that. Honestly, people, I tried to experiment with myself last night. I imagined him holding hands with a girl and being all couple-y with her and... there were tears, you know. I was quite heartbroken just imagining it. Can you imagine if I saw it?
This is the first time I've ever had a crush on ANYBODY. Holy Lord! What would I do? How do crushers usually act towards their crushees?
