Friday, June 01, 2007

Yes, you guessed it, I had another 'talk' with my Dad about the whole job issue.
He definitely sounded happier when he thought I quit my job but when I told him that the whole 'quitting thing' hasn't been 'finalised' he got a little angrier. Let me quote him...

"If it was me, I'd stand up for my sister"
"I don't like the way they treated your sister"

Note how most is about my sister? But I am the one on the receiving end of everything.
Just because they didn't want to hire my sister, and she misunderstood that they already hired her, I have to quit.
And it's very difficult for me to quit... I've only worked a few weeks!
But when I asked my dad whether I should quit or not, he said 'I don't know'.
SO?! I am supposed to know?! After three days of telling/shouting me what to do?!
I've decided I'll go tomorrow and see if I can talk to them and see what we can come up with. But whatever it is, I know that it'll have to end with me quitting or stop working.
If it doesn't, I'll have to endure 4 months of my Dad being moody and yakking at me. I don't think I want that.
I feel so damn guilty and irresponsible about everything now.
I feel really sorry to Soo. Because she set me up for ALOT of events.
And now I can't do a single one.
I'm not sure if I can quit or not. I may get tempted to continue working and just screw my Dad's yakking.
I really do love my job.
*sigh*
So confused right now. I need someone older to talk to. And my sister is out.
And my mum is with my Dad so I'm definitely not going anywhere near THAT area of the house.
That's why I'm going to talk to somebody at the shop. Hopefully they can come up with something. I bet I'm looking like a real problem kid and I bet they regretted ever hiring me.
I feel so guilty right now it's amazing. I've never felt SO guilty in my life.
Is this a sign of growing up? *lol* [I'm attempting at humour to cheer myself up]
But you have NO IDEA how I'm feeling right now.
I feel so fxcked up!

I have this strong feeling I'd be apologising to EVERYBODY that happens to be in that shop tomorrow.
Bowing and everything.
I just get this feeling cause I always end up doing stuff like that.
-.-

I guess I have to "look on the bright side of life! *whistles*"
I'm actually giving up.
I don't know. I just can't be bothered to fight for my rights to live my life.

I'm just gonna have to laze around and be a total PIG for the next three months.
I regret introducing my sister to that fxcking job.