Yes, I know I was missing yesterday. I came home so depressed I hit bed immediately and talked on the phone to SJ till late. I'm just not feeling myself lately. I KNOW I'm not myself. It's like I'm losing that really firm grip on my life that I had. And I know that people tell me it's normal to be like that when going through what I am going through but I'm definitely not used to it. I've never done anything just to make somebody feel happy again. And I did something I wasn't very comfortable with just to make somebody happy. Does that sound like me? Usually, I couldn't give two shits if you were upset at me. -.- I'm not myself. I'm not used to feeling like this.. argh! And I've never had a problem with stares but now I do. It's just that, now the stares are different.. I don't know how to tell you but when people look at us, it just feels like they're judging me and it doesn't feel very comfortable.
And yes, Claireeey, SJ, and whoever else who knows and is reading my blog.. I don't give a damn if people find out what I'm going through. I'm so stressed right now, I need to blog about it. I know you guys say I shouldn't care what people think about us but I notice it. I don't care but I notice and to notice that sorta stares is not fun!
I'm glad I've made the decision to NOT keep this a secret from people! :D Somehow, it's less stressful, isn't it?
I don't know. It is for me. Screw what people think, huh? Gain back some control over who I really am! :D :D

I'm currently doing research for my new project. I've chosen clubs as my theme. LOL! Thanks Claireeey! I think my theme would be more on the sexy, drunken side. You get me?
I'm so confused, man. I've got two classes, Design Principles and Interior Architecture in Context 1. Doesn't that sound so confusing to you? But the classes aren't very close together so it's less stress (Thank you Lord).
If we don't have to stay back for studio time, I actually have Wednesday and Thursday afternoons off and the whole of Friday off :D.
I'm glad!
I'm in the same group as Nat for Design Principles but for Interior Architecture in Context 1, I got split! I'm with Ah Tung (James XD), Wan Hui, Wilson and three girls from FCA20.

*sigh* All this ass-ignments...

Today, I went out for lunch with ChrissyBaby and SJ! :D I'm glad I met Chris again! She was poking her nose into my love life XD I miss that woman! Then we went over to her house and 'studied'. I sat around being gloomy and they tried studying. I was reading Microeconomics at one point ._. Anyway, we then went over to Paandi's near Chris' house for a drink and we caught up on HER love life, this time. It's fun being with Chris. She makes me forget all problems. :D It's something like how I feel when I'm with SJ. They both make me feel happy all the time. Anyway, she was VERY interested in OUR love interests. As usual. And we told her everything. EVERYTHING. Which kinda surprised me cause we (SJ and I) usually don't do that. And it felt nice to let everything out without holding back and completely trusting the person won't let anybody know.
Then, I took one hour to get home cause the entire PJ is jammed. We had bak kut teh for dinner :D That was good! Then I followed my sister out to 1Utama and we both agreed that we like The Curve better. Cause at least The Curve had places to go for a nice drink without walking the distance of the Nile River. We eventually came home to drink 100Plus at home XD.
And then he called and made me feel a little better but I was still a little down after talking. Anyway, to people who are interested, we don't talk all that much over the phone. Usually it's 'How was your day?', I tell him my day and then I ask about his, he tells me about his and then we hang up. It's a nice short and sweet conversation. Saves money on phone bills and leaves alot to be said when we meet. XD LOL!
Now that I am freely talking about him, it feels kinda nice :D