Bored beyond my brains and easily annoyed

I'm bloody bored now. Seriously, how bored can one get? Aaaaaaaaah~ I wanna do something exciting!

Nat-o. Are we still taking part in The Amazing Race Asia? XDD

Chinese New Year is coming soon. The roads and malls are filled to the point of spilling over with last minute shoppers. These people should do earlier shopping and save me the trouble of getting stuck in jams all the time!

I passed my Intermediate 2 exam with an A. *dances looney-like* My next class starts on the 27th of February.

Have you all heard Kagrra's new album, Shizuku? *squeals* It's so damn nice! ^_^ I love the track Shizuku especially. It's an obsession

Maaaaa~ I'm dying to play on stage. I'm dying to PLAY or JAM or DO ANYTHING that has ANYTHING to do with the band!

I had ANOTHER ODD, ODD, ODD, ODD band dream! Oh my God. I think I'm dead thinking about it.

We (the four of us this time, thank God) were backstage in this really awesome-ly designed white room. Everything was white. The curtains, the chairs, the tables, the walls, US! Everything was white. I still remember clearly, SJ was sitting on the floor with her guitar (Sj, I dreamed of you with a PURPLE ESP Viper! O_o) and was playing some tune that I don't really remember and I was lying on the sofa lazing around shouting some nonsense to Claireeey and I remembered Chris being around the room but I'm not too sure what she was doing.

Anyway, then I got up and grabbed SJ by the hand and we ran down the hall way (it was full of roadies) dodging the random metal case and person and we reached the end of the hall and we were standing in front of this huge door which had a sign saying 'DIR EN GREY' in front of it. We were both pressing our ears towards the door trying to hear what they were saying inside (Don't ask why) when suddenly the door opened to reveal Toshiya and Kyo in full gorgeosity. They looked at us like we were looneys and opened the door further to let us in. Just as we were about to enter, some random dude came and ushered us out saying it's our time on stage NOW and we NEED to haul our asses up NOW.

Then we heard this nice tune (I forgot the tune T_T) and we just walked out all at once and this bright light shined on us (I could not see the audience at all) and suddenly...

'LYDIA!!! It's already 2:30!! Get up get up! I need you to send your brother out soon! I've got stuff to do!!'

...

Thanks for ruining my awesome dream, mum.

But, whatever, it was still weird. What was my band(Black Rose, a little promotion here) and Dir en grey doing in the same livehouse?

And the bloody fact that I could actually dream what Toshiya's 'you-look-like-loonies' look looked like! I don't remember seeing him give that expression at all. Unless, my imagination has been working overtime and I was actually imagining myself dreaming of that? Whatever, Toshiya was so f*cking hot in my dream.

I'm so damn annoyed right now. Don't f*cking make any decisions for me! If you want it, do it yourself! Can't I take a f*cking break?! Nobody agreed to whatever you said okay.

I'm so FUCKING PISSED!

Wanna know what I hate the most in this world?
People who decide what my feelings are based on my fucking facial expression.

Just because I don't see the point in smiling like a fucking idiot all the time, does not mean that I'm angry.
Just because I walk off forgetting what you asked me to do, does not mean I'm not fucking bothered about what you said.
Just because I don't jump with joy at your fucking good fortune, does not mean I'm fucking jealous.
Just because I smile at your lame acts, does not mean I'm fucking amused.
Just because I accept what you say about things I do, does not mean I'm not fucking pissed at you.
Just because I don't tell you to fuck your own ass, does not mean I'm not annoyed at you.

Seriously, please follow the damn old saying, don't judge a fucking book by it's cover.

I really don't see the point in talking to anybody right at this moment. I think I'm much better off alone. Everytime I talk to anybody (except SJ and a coupla friends) I get so fucking annoyed. So annoyed that I keep vowing to myself never to talk to anybody cause I've come to realise that they're all just a waste of my fucking time.

I'm really quite sick of life. It's at times like this where I really don't mind dying. It'll save me a whole lot of annoyance. And I don't think people would mind very much if I go too, since they think I'm always mad at them. Fuck it all! Seriously, I don't see the point in living anymore. If it's just for all this bullshit and fucked up nonsense, then I may as well just meet God for my judgement as soon as possible.

NOW, I'm mad at everyone. I'm mad at everyone who breathes in this world right now. I'm mad at everybody who's laughing. I'm mad at everyone who's talking. I'm mad at everyone who's walking right now.
I'm mad at EVERYBODY!

It's time to be by myself and just now talk to any fucking person for the next few hours.
I've had it beyond my head with all your bullshit.

I'm so in love with Robbie Williams' She's Madonna! It's amazing! I love the song! It's got such a GREAT feel to the song.. It's just great! Not to mention that the video was amazing also. It's so different from your usual ass-and-breasts video.

We had our little bazaar today. It was fun actually, had a great deal of fun and my cookies sold out! XD I'm so happy! We actually earned some profit also~ It's nice. But, a little too much work for such a short period of time.

It's Valentine's today... And as usual (as I've been doing for the past 4 years or so), I went out with SJ. Not for a REAL date kinda outing but I took her to register for her Japanese lessons! YEAY~ We can FINALLY have conversations in Japanese! Then we went over to Asia Cafe for lunch (at around 4). I had Japanese food (was damn good and cheap) and she had her usual assam laksa.

Another uneventful day.

My Dad bought a Muse album. Whoaa~ Suddenly, he's all into Muse as well. He's got great taste in music! Now, all I have to do is get him into Dir en grey and he'd be perfect! Doubt that'll ever happen but one can hope.

Anybody know where I can get old Italian horror films? I'm dying to watch them!

La la la la

Waaaaaaaaaa~!
I'm so freaking tired! My ankles and heels hurt so bad I wish we didn't need to stand all the time!

I'm done making the cookies~ All 300 and MORE of them. Argh!
And we still have that sucky exam to study for tomorrow! What are we supposed to study? Stupid Malaysian Studies!

SJ! How am I meeting up with you tomorrow again?!

Can't blog anymore. I'm just too tired!

Hmmmm, I switched my blog to the whole 'Use your Google account and blog!! ^_^' nonsense. Nothing much seems to have changed... I hope.

Anyway, I baked today... after 2 years of rest from the baking scene, I picked up a spatula and baked away. I actually screwed up one tray-things of cookies O_o They burned. I died. Anyway, I'd probably have to bake away tomorrow and Tuesday also to make it in time for Wednesday. I'd be so happy when Wednesday is over.

I just felt like sharing this picture/screenshot with you. If I had the patience and time to wait, I'd even upload the damn video for you.

I'm not too sure why, but he kept sniffing in this video (bad nose?) and everytime he sniffed, I had to laugh. He looks so funny-ly cute like this.

He's so hot. Even if he sniffs like this and his teeth is bad. See, SJ! The power of love! XD

(Don't mind me, my mind is confused and a little bit gone from doing my 'illusory space' nonsense crap for drawing class)

I still have the colour/graphic surface nonsense. But I'll do that tomorrow. I'm so glad my class is in the afternoon this semester. I can sleep early!

I wanna cut my hair again. -_____-"

Went out to KL today and met up with SJ, Rachel and SJ's brother.
As usual, I supposedly went to 'collect my magazines at KLCC'... but we ended up in Sungei Wang.
SJ FINALLY got her sweater (which is fake) but it looked really cute on her so it's all okay.
Anyway, nothing much about the day except we went to guitar shops and played guitars on the floors and bought so many picks we could open up a store and not run out of stock for the next 20 years.

I'm bored.

Very bored.

I need to bake tomorrow.

Urgh.

So, I made a mistake with my previous post. I forgot to answer a few questions as I saw but I'm just gonna f*ck that, I'm too lazy to edit.

This, that you see on your left, is Toshiya! Holy shit, I'm dying just talking about it (let's not get to looking at it). I totally killed Claireeey and Nat talking (screaming) about this image today. XD Glad to see my love for Toshiya is back.

I was so tempted to call in to some radio station today to win Muse tickets. Heard it was all sold out.. -.-

I love Toshiya.
I love the thought of loving Toshiya.
I love the thought of dating Toshiya.
I'M SO IN LOVE~! *_*

Claireeey cut me a paper bunny today. I'M SO HAPPY~! But, I forgot to bring it back (;´Д｀;) My paper bunny!! T_T

Class today was boring... I was actually late for Moral Studies, but the teacher's laptop had no battery and she was very nicely delaying class because of that, so even though we walked in half an hour late, it's not like we missed anything much.

My Japanese exam was okaaaaay. I suppose. I got alot of the questions during the speaking test wrong cause I kept mishearing the shiteimasu. I keep hearing shimasu instead and so I kept answering wrongly. And the ~you ni forms also was abit confusing for me. But, overall, I think I would most likely pass... I hope.

Quizzical Quiz

I know I've done this before but I'm bored now, so I'll do it again XD...

Name: Vampyy... Or Lyd(ia)
Birthday: 28 October 1988
Birthplace: Malaysia
Current Location: In front of my computer... XD Selangor.
Eye Color: So brown it visually tricks you into thinking it's black.
Hair Color: Originally a dark-ish brown. Now, with patches of blonde-ness in it.
Height: 5"4? I think? Or taller.
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right handed
Your Heritage: Chinese
The Shoes You Wore Today: Slippers
Your Weakness: Toshiya, height, hamsters, rabbits and food
Your Fears: Anything with MORE than four legs or no legs, anything smaller than half my palm
Your Perfect Pizza: TONS of pepperoni, LOTS of cheese and steaming hot
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Pass my foundation year and start my degree with re-newed motivation!
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: XD
Thoughts First Waking Up: I'm so ugly, I need to go back to sleep *zzzz* (I'm just kidding)
Your Best Physical Feature: My left eye. Not the right, they're not the same.
Your Bedtime: Flexible depending on the amount of people online, the anime episodes I need to watch and the un-read manga.
Your Most Missed Memory: When I could barely walk and my mum carried me
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King: Burger King
Single or Group Dates: Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappucino
Do you Smoke: No... but I'm curious, but the whole family will kill me..
Do you Swear: Yes, my swearing has increased lately, but usually, only when I'm pissed
Do you Sing: In the privacy of my own car and room, yes
Do you Shower Daily: Do you breath?
Have you Been in Love: Yes. Toshiya. Dude, I'm STILL in love. Don't talk about 'have been'.
Do you want to go to College: I am in college.
Do you belive in yourself: When I'm jumping off a 43 storey building, yes.
Do you get Motion Sickness: If we're driving up and down the Grand Canyon then yeah, I think so.
Do you think you are Attractive: I wouldn't say attractive. I would go for very average.
Are you a Health Freak: No.. Definitely not
Do you get along with your Parents: Yeaaaap
Do you like Thunderstorms: Drizzles, yes, thunderstorms, no
Do you play an Instrument: I play THREE. I'm awfully proud of myself. It's not easy, okay
In the past month have you drank alcohol? Yes, I'm pretty sure I have
In the past month have you Smoked: Nooo... I would have died
In the past month have you been on Drugs: XD I'm in Malaysia not Netherlands
In the past month have you gone on a Date: I wish I had, unfortunately, Toshiya has to tour XD
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: ... YES
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: A pack not a box (make me look like a pig)
In the past month have you been on Stage: I wish I could say yes for this
In the past month have you been Dumped: Well, I wouldn't say dumped but I've been heart broken
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: With who? Alone? That's no fun
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: No
Ever been Drunk: Bordering on it, yes.
Ever been called a Tease: In what sense ^_~?
Ever been beaten up: No
Ever Shoplifted: No
How do you want to Die: On stage, naturally out of old age
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: I'm already grown up, so it's time to be a rock star!
What country would you most like to Visit: JAPAN!!!

In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Dark eyes... are the best
Favourite Hair Color: BLUE! (Red is okay, but blue is the best)
Short or Long Hair: Short hair (refer to Toshiya's Child Prey look for reference)
Height: *refers to Toshiya's height* THAT
Weight: Whatever Toshiya weighs...
Best Clothing Style: Toshiya's latest look!!! Oh my Gackt! I'm dying just imagining it!

Number of Drugs I have taken:

Number of CDs I own:
Number of Piercings:
Number of Tattoos:
Number of things in my Past I Regret:

Rodents, oh, rodents...

I'm declaring war against all ants in this world. Those small six-legged freaks can kiss my ass for all I care.
How dare they attack my ChoRong-sshi and Aiko-chan! Stupid freaks.

I wonder what's so sweet about my hammies that they wanna attack them that way.

Anyway, today was just the same thing over and over and over. I made paper bags the WHOLE DAY. Not that I'm complaining, it just gets a little mundane and slow after awhile. Oh well... -.-

Japanese exam is tomorrow and what am I doing? Preventing my hammies from squeaking and scratching me. I need to study...

I bumped into Rye-chan this morning.. and that twit has the nerve to tell me that my hair looks cute. EXCUSE ME?! (XD).. That's not the look I'm going for T_T I have to warn the hairstylist in the future not to make me look round.

My dad's going to Japan. Do you think he's willing to walk into a SexPot store and buy me a the striped sweater?
Or, walk into a CD store and buy me indie VK CDs?

I'm too lazy to title anything. Besides, why should I give something a title when I know I won't stick to it?

*trying to resist squealing at the absolute hot-ness that is the pictre*

Yet again, another boring, mundane day. I should really do some new things.

Malaysian Studies was okay, I think I'm actually over him already. (Or maybe it was because I nearly couldn't recognise him without his glasses).
We were learning about the Japanese occupation and had to watch Embun. I really hate the Japanese when it comes to them occupying this country but when it comes to music and culture, you gotta admit they're one of a kind.

*can't stand it anymore*. *squeals*. Toshiya is SO DAMN F*CKING HOT!

Anyway, after school, I asked my mum whether we could go New Year underwear shopping one of these days, and we ended up going 30 minutes later with my Dad and brother. No, they weren't following to buy underwear but more or less to get clothes. I bought alot of underwear cause everything was so colourful I couldn't stop myself. I got two red tops (my mum said NO to the black top with the guitar [which looks VERY SIMILAR to Toshiya's bass] on it... *sheesh*) and a pair of white linen-ish pants. It's not long and floor sweeping, it kinda stops above the ankles. PERFECT pair of pants to go to the beach in.

I wanna go to the beach~

I downloaded Dir en grey's new PV Grief. I'm not a fan of the song very much but it's still a nice song and the PV really does make up for it. Somehow or another, the PV kinda looks like a fusion between Mitsu to Tsuba's background and Obscure's deadbodies hanging off the ceiling. It's quite nice, really. Except that I don't see much of Toshiya which is a VERY BAD negative point to it.

Looking at this picture, I have this strange feeling that Kaoru uses an ESP Viper. The shape is similar but I know his is not called a Viper.. Ah, what the heck, Toshiya's hot.

Today was group project in school. Cutting, folding, painting, moulding, everybody was doing something. It wasn't fun FUN but fun anyway.
I'm totally looking forward to seeing all our booths set up next to each other.
Tomorrow is Malaysia Studies. Looking forward to it? I think not. Seriously, if you don't put me in front of him, I'll very nicely say that I'm actually over him but put him in front of me and I get all heart broken again. I was talking to Jun Han the other day about him and he says that he thinks I mainly like his looks only cause I don't know anything about him. Well, it IS kinda true that it's his height that attracted me in the first place, and I do find him cute in a nerdy way but I wouldn't say that it's his looks and height 100% that made me like him so much. Didn't think Jun Han would have understood so I just went along with what he had to say. Not that he annoyed me and stuff, in fact, I was very happily receiving his point of view and stuff like that, I don't know, it's just not easy to forget.

My Japanese Intermediate 2 exam is on Friday *shrieks like a little girl*.

I hate mosquitoes!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously, I can NEVER get bored of Dir en grey. They may have gotten a little scream-y and more metal than rock but they still rock. And I'm not saying that just because I think Toshiya is the sexiest man alive, I'm saying that because their new album rocks!!!
The first track, called Conceived Sorrow has got me hooked even more than before. I LOVE the song to bits. It gives me the same feeling as 305 Goushitsu, Hakushi no Sakura even though it sounds nothing alike.

I cut my hair yesterday~! I told the hairstylist in general what I wanted and told him to make it to suit my face but don't make me look cute, instead make it a little punk-y like. And guess what he gives me? A cute hairstyle that cuts 10 years off my real age. Not that I'm complaining, I think it's actually quite nice and I don't mind it. The problem is, everybody's telling me I look round now. Somebody didn't believe me when I said I actually looked a little on the cute side now, so I took a cute-sy picture for the first time just to show what I mean and the scary part is, my pose and FRINGE kinda reminded me of Bou from AnCafe. Not that I'm saying I look cute or anything, it just did. It's scary. I died. Then, I sent a picture to SJ, and even SHE SAYS I'M ROUND! I need to spike my hair, soon. The best part about this hairstyle is I can spike it ^_^!
Now I'm waiting to straighten it with SJ.

We got a new project today for Drawing 3. It SUCKS. I don't like it at all. We're supposed to design an interior space without logic but yet, with logic. Confusing? You have no idea.

Rye-chan! Read your blog~ What convention you talking about? I don't really get it. Anyway, I got my new top~ Did I tell you about it? The one with only one sleeve? I wore it just to show it to you~ Check it out... And yes, you can see a glimpse of my new hairstyle. No, wait, actually, you can see ALOT of my new hair. Don't I look round?

I'm really happy with this top. Now, I know how fashion designers feel when their designs become a reality. What I really like about the whole top is the sleeve. It's so big and flare-y! You know I like flared sleeves like that... XD
Now, I'm just dying to get my boots and SexPot sweater!! And I'm very into buying Vivienne Westwood from that site. Once I figure out how to pay them. Imagine me wearing a genuine Vivienne Westwood armour ring.

*dies of imagination*

Talking about paying, I need to get my SHOXX and Cure soon. I've got four with them... *dies again*. This is not working out. I shouldn't have started reading Paradise Kiss...

I am a semi-mother! Only because I'm a self declared mother. My sister actually owns the babies. XD We have hamsters!!!!!!
⊂二二二（　＾ω＾）二⊃
We named the boy Cho-Rong and the girl Aiko.
Cho-Rong was my sister's idea and I named Aiko.
Cho-Rong means shiny eyes in Korean and Aiko means something like loved little one in Japanese. They're so cute!
Though, we only had them for one day so far and Cho-Rong already nibbled my finger. He though I was a carrot. I'm not too flattered.
They don't move. They keep eating, drinking water and sleeping.
They reflect my personality. I think I've grown to like them.

I'm beginning to really like MegaUpload. It's downloading so fast for me. I'm a happy girl.

Ah, lunch is served!!!! *is f*cking hungry*.

Random emotions and a very weird something

[EDIT : Well, I re-read my post and it really was too long for anything. XD. So I deleted it. If you wanna know what I talked about. Ask me online. I'd be GLAD to REPEAT EVERYTHING for you.]

And now, enough of that shit. I'm just dying to move out now. I wanna graduate and move out!
I was walking in IKEA the other day and
SJ!! They've got nice stuff in the kitchen department! We SO go shopping in IKEA when we move out! As for couches and stuff, we should stick with our second hand furniture idea. I like that more. Better if they came from the sixties or fifties... right? But, where do you think will have second hand furniture from that era? We're not living in NANA land where they have Sabrina's you know... T_T.
OH! Also, SJ, I may have a chance of getting a donation for my bass funds. I told my Dad about my decision to NOT get an ESP after all and just go for some cheap brand (I think he totally supported my idea) and he actually offered to get it for me! BUT! I'm gonna be a good daughter and NOT make my Dad buy it for me. I'll try not to get any money out of my Dad and save up for it all on my own. My grandmother seems VERY into giving me 500 bucks for it but I'm very into NOT taking it. I feel bad, won't you? Anyway, the bass saving will have to start after Chinese New Year. I bought Paradise Kiss 4 yesterday and I'm very broke now. T_T Save me!

I keep having weird band dreams lately. Hear me out, I had another one last night. I dreamed that we were BACKSTAGE this time. The bad part was, it was just me there. The other four members of the band were TOTALLY unknown to me. And the me in the dream actually knew that the situation was very wrong. The thing is, the other members were very nice and they talked to me like we were really close friends. And the me in the dream also talked to them like we were very close and everybody was holding custom made guitars and basses and shit like that (the bass being mine, I dreamed my bass design came true!). Anyway, came the time where I had to do my face up, I walked to the mirror and I swear, I looked at least 10 years older. I looked OLD! (well, not so old, just around 28).
I don't wanna take it as an omen. I don't wanna think that when I'm 28. I'd be in a band WITHOUT SJ!
And I was the only girl in the band. Everybody else were guys! (I'm going to ignore the fact that they all dressed like Johnny Rotten)
That was very WRONG. Anyway, SJ, we need to talk about the band soon.

Bored and just a little bit more

I'm in school right now blogging cause I'm not in the mood to be in my noisy class. Don't get me wrong, a noisy class is a sign of a good class but I don't think my head and stomach can take the noise today.
That and I'm also suppose to be looking for greeting card ideas. I don't actually get what I'm supposed to search for but I'm searching. It's kinda like blind leading the blind, don't you think?

I was supposed to be in school at 9 this morning but I woke up with this horrible horrible stomach cramp (Don't need me to tell you why) and I couldn't really walk until around 9:30. By the time 9:30 came, I already had a million and one messages asking me where I was. I would have felt loved if the messages didn't all read the same thing... "Where are you?! Are you coming today?? It's group project, you know!... and your library books are due today"
Thank you. I do know my library books are due today. XD
Which reminds me, I haven't returned them yet.

I have Moral later. I'm not sure if I wanna look forward to it or not but I'll try acting enthusiastic about it. Very hard to do when you're bound to bump into somebody you don't wanna bump into. Urgh.

SJ and I went out yesterday. She came over at around 12 and we set off at around 2 for MidValley. Good glorious heavens! I KNEW it was gonna be jammed like crazy but I didn't expect it to be THAT jammed. And there were quite alot of f*ckers and just plain weird people on the road. Even SJ was swearing like three swearing people and she hardly swears.
Anyway, we caught the 4:45 show for Blood and Chocolate. The show was okay, I suppose. Nothing to scream about but it was a pleasant watch. Interesting story but not really interesting enough. Quite predictable but the hot girl makes up for everything. The guys weren't hot at all. Like SJ says, the guys gave of Il Divo vibes. I'm thinking it was cause practically all of them had curly hair. XD.
After that we had dinner at the place-where-the-cute-guys-work. (according to an old schoo mate).
It was a pretty normal day and no enormous spendings cause I only had 30 bucks.
I did check out the guitar shop and seriously speaking, I think I've decided on the cheap basses first cause I think it's no point to get some really expensive bass if I can only get it three years later. May as well just buy a cheap one and practice! XD
I'm just dying to get the band moving.
CLAIRE! PRACTICE YOUR DAMN DRUMS, DAMNIT! XD

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah~! 1 more hour to Moral.
Should I be happy?
Should I be sad?
I really don't know but I know being OUT of love really sucks. I can't get over him THAT easily. Although, I do tell people that I'm 90% over him, I'm actually still 90% in love with him. XD. It's much easier just saying that you ARE over him than saying you're not.
The truth hurts sometimes. Oh f*ck.
What do I do? What do I do?
I wanna go on a holiday and bump into ANOTHER cute guy and maybe my worries won't be so bad. At least then, I can just not see him again after the holiday and I wouldn't need to find out he has a girlfriend. XD Good plan?
I think not.

HEY! I just realised, I can type in bloody chinese on this damn computer! Let me try, let me try...
我。。。
LOL!
This is fun. Unfortunately, I do not know how to change the characters so I can only really type out 'wo'.
Fun though.

...

Guess who got her internet back?
Guess who is still heart broken?
Guess who is depressed that class was cancelled today?
Guess who is stressed that group project dateline is coming up?

They all add up to one big ME!

Hmmm~
I'm moodless now. I'll blog later.