La la la la.. Angry angry angry~!!

Found some quiz thing at Claireeey's blog. Thought I'd do it...
No Claireeey, I won't be emo this time round.

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Hmm, apparently I'm suffering a Peter Pan Complex. No doubt there. I always complain about being old.

And apparently, I'm self absorbed...and... HEDONISM?!? WTF?? -________-" I give up right now. The individuality and artistic-ness, I don't mine.. XD

Stupid quiz.

My sexuality and romantic-ness is... zilch. They shouldn't even have bothered with that.-.-

Got tagged by Leo-chan...

And here's the Tag:Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!

10 weird things/habits/little known facts:

1. I talk to my soft toys. (Wait, that's quite known)
2. I'm obsessive.
3. I am not happy.
4. I can't sit still.
5. I'm going to grow deaf by 50.
6. I want to play the gamelan.
7. I want to own a panda, polar bear and a fox demon.
8. Doraemon was a childhood obsession.
9. I love speed.
10. I hate certain people... (Trust me, you'd never guess who this is)

And I tag :
Rye-chan
Claireeey
RayRay/SeongSeong
Alex?
Everybody else...?

Walking down memory road and all that nonsensical bullshit.

This was me with my LOOOOOONG hair in 2004!
The picture was taken on my trip to China..
And that's my sister.
Seriously, I grew my hair for so many years just to get it to this length. There was absolutely no style to my hair. It was just long. XD
But my hair was wavy.. Quite annoying.
But it doesn't curl as bad as when my hair is short.
I WANNA KEEP MY HAIR THIS LONG AGAIN.
(with a little bit more style of course.
Ah, to have un-dead hair again.

And this tiny little picture... Was me in 2005! See how the hair is shorter?? That's cause I grew sick of the length and cut it all off. This was around the time I finally had a fringe.
Aaaaaah, studying for SPM. Such joy (not). I was studying so diligently, I swear, it's not funny. This was the day Christina came with her pink elephant! I think. XD
And our toilet photoshoot. Who could forget that?

And me in 2006!!! After the ash blue dye washed off my hair! We were celebrating Apryl's birthday at TGIF 1Utama. Another toilet photoshoot. XD We love snapping pictures in the toilet. Ah, my hair was shorter and my hair parting changed and my fringe grew longer.
Quite a big change from all my previous looks.

And this is me NOW!! Fatter, rounder and with uglier skin! (also very old).
Well, the hair parting is stil there, the fringe is shorter, and my hair is dead...but dyed black to make it look healthy. My hair is so pretentious.
You don't see the in betweens, the time my hair was dyed BLONDE... (I'm sure everybody who reads this would've seen that.. XD)

I was just looking through my picture folder and I saw the amount of pictures I had. So many! So I looked through and the memories held within the picture just flooded my mind and I just remembered how everything was so different back then. I was different. People were different. We had different ambitions. Different views on life. Different lifestyles.
Now, everything has changed so much and yet, I still know and still talk to most of the people in that folder. We still laugh about the things we've done together.
It's quite amazing, that we could change so drastically, yet still love each other.
So here, I'm gonna SHOUT to my friends who won't likely read this. XD

CHRISTINA ANN SEBASTIAN~! Darling baby, we need to meet up, okay? I MISS YOU SO BAD!!!

SHIAO JEENG~! We're gonna make it with the band! Move out! And live the life of the rich and the famous~!!!!! (lol, I'm kidding about the rich and famous)
MICHELLE~! Was great seeing you back in Malaysia, even though it was for awhile! I haven't gotten around to buying you that top from The Pink PussyCat, but I'll try to get it as soon as possible!
SHARI~! LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE. Even though you crack Lydia jokes all the time. And even though you cursed Lance to being gay... -.-
NATASHA~! Stop being so blur! Gimme more Sudoku~! XD
DONOVAN~! I don't owe you any bloody steak.
NnM~! I want my magazine!! XD Have fun in Melbourne!

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah~! SUPER TIRED!!

Went out yesterday, to school even though I didn't have to, to do my Malaysian Studies assignment. Told my mum I'll be out for a while and will be back for dinner... I ended up staying out till 12 at night. Mistake after mistake kept appearing one after the other. It was so frustrating!
This morning, I stressed my livers right out (Don't ask why it's livers, okay) cause he was picking the groups to present randomly.
Just when I thought we were off scot free, he called out Low Joong Seong.
SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIT~! I pissed my pants then (Just a figure of speech). Anyway, I kinda screwed up my part. I kept reading off my paper. Well, we weren't prepared at all so we kinda asked for it.

Gah, this window is lagging now. I'll post this up just in case it deletes it for me.
May blog again tonight.. XD

Warning : Long post ahead. Sit back and relax.

Have I mentioned I love playing Sudoku?

We had drawing class today. She told me that I had to be quicker again. She always says I'm sloooow. -___-"
I snuck off from class. She said she'll be back at 4:30 PM and the moment she left, everybody kinda started leaving. RayRay left. Claireeey and Alex were leaving when I left the Print Studio and even THINGY and Chermaine were leaving. So I left too. XD We were poking our heads out the door looking to see if the coast was clear and all. XD

I'm so bored. So so so bored.

Masayo just messaged me saying that she found some lyrics that she wrote awhile back.
She told me what they were but I won't type them all out. It sounds good, though.
Well, I've told myself that if I'm ever gonna play in a band, I won't comment on the lyrics cause I'm never gonna write lyrics. I'll leave it all up to the vocalist. So, whatever she writes, can go with me.
Her enthusiasm is quite good. ^_^ Right, SJ? Her ambitions too.. XD

I don't have to go to class tomorrow cause Group A of the Interior Design group is having presentation. Mine's on the 5th of May. (I can't believe I have to do a presentation 3 days after hide's death anniversary!). Anyway, talking about dates... My darling Toshiya is turning 30 on the 31st of March.
30! T________________T

I suddenly feel depressed.
I'm just wondering why, if you love somebody, some people just can't accept the bad side of people. I think people, generally, are living in fantasized worlds. They want everything to be perfect. They're afraid of being hurt. So they run away from the pain and dream up a world for themselves. They should realise that the more they dream up fantasies, the more they'll be hurt and the more things would be unperfect for them.
Romance novels and movies are just that, FICTION. Pure fiction. Nothing in this world is so perfect. A man can't be so perfect.
I suppose, I was like that before. And kinda still am. But I do have somebody to blame for that, but I'm not going to blame that person.
I ran away before the problem started, just because I was afraid of fighting and arguing. Just because I was afraid of crying or being hurt. Just because I didn't want to be at risk of losing somebody important to me.
I'm mentally scarred by incidents that happened when I was young and I'm just afraid to fight or argue cause I'm selfish and I only think of my own feelings.
I guess, people generally are like that.
It's something we should all wake up from.
Give yourself a big slap across the face and look at reality.
I think, life would be so much easier then, don't you think?

To hop onto another topic, I was watching TRL this morning. And I saw Good Charlotte's new video (not sure if it's new or not) called The River. I wasn't interested actually but stuck around to see if it was better from that annoying first song. Then I saw that it featured M SHADOWS AND SYNYSTER GATES! *hops with joy*. Yeay~! Synyster Gates! I find him totally hot. The song isn't bad (only the part M Shadows sings). XD Seriously, the song is okay. They then followed it up with Avril Lavigne's Girlfriend *cringes*.

I'm sure you guys have not heard this song but Taiyou no Ao [MIX] is quite funny. XD.
It's just this Ukulele sounding sound in the background and Kyo singing behind this bunch of girls shouting. And the girls are fangirling over the members of Dir en grey and talking about going back to the hotel rooms with them ^_~. They're all shouting 'Kawaii~!!!' or 'Kyo-chan! Kawaii~!!' [I'm not sure if it's Kyo but they do call one of the members kawaii]. And then comes Toshiya's turn and the girls are all 'Dare?' XD (They don't actually say that, it's just something like what they say).
It's very obvious who mixed the song, really.
Toshiya's awesome. I would never have thought to mix the song like that.
Definitely not with the Ukulele sounding instrument. XD
Dir en grey's KAI album is quite nice. That's their remix album. Listen to Hotarubi [The Name of the Rose] (That's D's album name XD), 304 Goushitsu, Hakushi no Sakura [Sub Dub Mix], Hydra [Buzzout Mix], Ain't Afraid to Die [Irresistable Mix](I think Die mixed this), Raison Detre [Nanago Mix]. Very interesting songs~! Hotarubi topping them all.

1. Honestly, what color is your wallet?
Yellow-ish green
2. Honestly, what's on your mind?
Presentation. Homework. Toshiya. People. The questions' bad english that I'm fixing.
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
Nothing. Blogging.
4. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
If you focus on my left eye under heavy eyeliner, yes.
5. Honestly, have you done something bad?
Where do I start?
7. Honestly, do you watch Disney Channel?
Yes. Nothing bad about that is there?
8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone?
Nobody. Just every girl who's managed to see Dir en grey live.
9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?
Music. Thoughts of my band. Toshiya. Art history (Not joking)
10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
No
11. Honestly, did you call your boyfriend everyday?
Even if I had a boyfriend, that'll still be a no.
12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
Yes. If eating too much is a disorder.
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
Yes, I do.
14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret??
Doesn't everybody? I have one so dark, even SJ doesn't know about it.
15. Honestly, do you have a "friend" you don't actually like?
I don't do that shit. If I hate you, I won't even talk to you. Doing that is pretentious.
17. Honestly, are you loyal?
Yes, I am.
18. Honestly, are you confused with your feelings?
Well, sometimes yes.
19. Honestly, who would you wanna be with right now?
My friends. We should be tearing down a livehouse somewhere right now.
20. Honestly, do you like someone?
Yes. But I'm supposedly over him. XD
21. Honestly, does anyone like you?
I wouldn't know. Unless that person is Toshiya, and he doesn't know me yet.
22. Honestly, are u an easy going person?
Sometimes.
DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY
*Anger Section*
1. What do you do when you're mad?
Do things without realising it. Say things without realising it.
2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
Break a couple of important/precious items. Was mad at myself after that.
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
Didn't really care.
4. Do you swear when you're mad?
I would say 'Yes, alot'.
*CRYING SECTION*
1. When was the last time you really cried?
A couple of months back.
2. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yes.
4. Do certain songs make you cry?
TEARS! And Forever Love. And Without You. Cause they remind me of hide to much.
5. What usually makes you cry?
Music. People. Myself.
*HAPPY SECTION*
1. Are you normally a happy person?
I try to be.
2. What can make you happy?
Music. Toshiya. AnCafe (no joke). Playing music.
3. Does being with your friends make you happy?
All the time.

I'm dead for tomorrow. And for Wednesday.

You know what... I know this is gonna sound so weird.. But I wanna dye my hair again.
I'm already sick of it looking dark... T_______________T

I wanna do white this time. Don't ask why.
I want white~!! Like... like... that guy from that band! (Not explaning much, I know).

But my parents and most likely family will most likely yak at me telling me that my hair looks so much better black cause it looks healthier.
Baaaaaaaaaah~! It's so boring now...

You know what I just found out? The three Shinsou songs from Dir en grey, all mean different things~! One means Shinto Funeral.. The others I forgot. But it's very cool, the way all the kanji combinations come up to Shinsou.
Ah, but nothing can beat Hotarubi. That's the best song. EVER.
I posted Obscure's PV on my Friendster page. I wonder who's gonna go view it. Judging by the fact that that's most likely their most disturbing PV with the moving dick and lady eating the baby head thing...... Yeah.
But it's a really cool PV!! Maybe I should have posted the censored version... XD But that's no fun!
If you are gonna watch it, look out for Toshiya!! He's being all vampire-y towards the ending. The part where they start going all mutated on you, he appears out of no where and dissolve into bats.
SO COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL~!
*fangirls for the next century*

Have you herad Kagrra's Sadame no Ito?... The instrumental break.. Nao's bass solo... SHIT.
It's awesome! I wanna go learn it now!!
Who's got the tabs!?

Something very random.

Have I ever talked about Mr. Flurries? If you read my blog around Christmas 2005, you'd notice I kept talking about this certain snowman that I bought on impulse mainly cause he was giving me a 'Come buy me! You know you damn well want to!' look. I know I said it daily then, and I'm going to say it now again...

HE'S SO FREAKING CUTE!!

Anyway, I'm fxcking bored now. And I was viewing my Friendster profile... My Friendster profile is overcrowded with Toshiya. My background's Toshiya, ALL my pictures are Toshiya and even my interests has Toshiya written all over it.
You know, somehow, I feel what people say is true. That the only reason why I'll most likely NEVER find a boyfriend is because I keep comparing everybody to Toshiya. (And of course, nobody can compare to Toshiya).
I can't help it! Toshiya is sooooo damn fxcking hot!
Just looking at him on stage or a random appearance on a clip sends chills down my spine!
This is so stupid. I wish I NEVER saw that word 'Dir en grey' written on my science lab table! Then I wouldn't be interested in finding out what they were!!!! If that never happened, I'd most likely be a very normal girl, WITH a boyfriend, and my biggest dream is to work in a famous Interior Designing firm!
NOW? I'm NOT a normal girl, NO boyfriend, and my biggest dream is to be in a band.

Oh, Toshiya... The things you've done to me T_T

I'm currently zen-ing myself out with Piano music. Aaaaaaaaaah~ Relaxing...

Tomorrow, I have to start on my Drawing project. Gah~ Nonsense. -____-"

I'm gonna go now, and continue working on that tune.

By the way, anybody have GuitarPro? That's NOT the demo version?

If you do, wanna send it my way? It's the only way to get tunes sent to Masayo over in Kuantan.

I am so fxcking sleepy now~! I just wanna sleep. I'm so tired~!
I couldn't sleep last night for reasons unknown (on the other hand, I finally got that tune out into tabs) and I woke up at 8 something this morning and went for class. We had some extra Malaysian Studies class to make up for the one week we didn't have class. Super tired.

Then I came home and waited for that Music Station to come on on Animax. No, I'm not a JPop fan (I found the Morning Musume girls quite... weird). I was just waiting to watch Gackt. Gackt is a crackpot high on crack. I like his live entrance, though. Damn weird XD And the way he went to visit his fan at her home...
Everything had something to do with his freaking horse!

I'm gonna go drown myself in water now.
I feel like taking a bath.

La la la la la.

Moral today was another waste of time.
Exam is next week.
I busted my knee.
Nat pushed me T___T.
Now, I've got a bruise and it hurts like a bitch.

My hamster gave birth last night!! ⊂二二二（　＾ω＾）二⊃
Everybody said I was panicking as though I was giving birth... -.-
The hamster actually had two babies... but she killed one!! Stupid male had to step on the baby.
If you don't know, hamster mummies will kill the kid once something new has touched it cause the smell on the baby has changed and the hamster mummy doesn't recognise it anymore.
Yeah, so all that's left is one hamster.
It's really weird cause the baby hamster looks damn gross and damn cute at the same time. I really do feel like a mother. (￣□￣;)
When I first noticed the baby hamster, I actually didn't realise it was a hamster... (this is gonna be embarassing).. XD My imagination got the better of me. When I approached the cage to find out the source of the strange squeaking, I noticed this red thing moving under the wheel. The 'red thing' had it's legs sticking out and it was moving frantically (I think this was the first baby that was killed). I stared at it for what seemed like ages and then panicked because... I thought it was some mutated worm with two heads.
Seriously, don't ask me why. I don't even watch sci-fi movies.

I have Malaysian Studies tomorrow. I'm so damn lazy to go to school.
Aaaaaaaaaaargh~!

Oh yeah, SJ, I keep forgetting to tell you. Masayo messaged me last night, said she got an idea about our cover songs. She said that maybe we could consider picking out all our favourite bands and play their best songs.
What do you think? (I think Phantasmagoria's Mikansei to Guilt will kill EVERYBODY, vocalist included, do you remember how the song went?! But I wanna play it so bad)
I think I should give you her number soon, right? Then she can message you too..
Please remind me about it when I talk to you. That is, if you can read this post.

The REAL post is under all the pictures.

I downloaded this file containing screen shots from the Family Values Tour DVD (or something like that). So I'm gonna be posting my favourite shots~ Of Kaoru, Shinya and Toshiya. Die was just kinda all over the place. He really made friends with everybody, that one. And Kyo was just.. there. Well, the NON bloody pictures was a picture of some paper with his picture on it and a picture of him sleeping.

Kaoru's pose is cracking me up. Little by little, I'm dying a little just looking at it XD. SJ.. Look at him XD
Well, I don't know, but he looks funny to me.
Wait'll you see him shirtless for, what seems to be, the very first time!
What's probably going to disturb people is that there's no chick in this picture.
I don't know why they're kissing Shinya but they just are.

⊂二二二（　＾ω＾）二⊃
⊂二二二（　＾ω＾）二⊃
⊂二二二（　＾ω＾）二⊃
I'll never again complain about not seeing him smile.
I'll never again complain about him looking old.
I'll never again complain about him looking angry.
HE'S SO FXCKING HOT~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(Toshiya, not the guy beside Toshiya)

I learned the bass intro for Bottom of the Death Valley~! I'm so happy! I'm happy because that was one of the very first Dir en grey songs I heard and I was so taken by Toshiya's bass line. Yeap~! So, I've played the intro and now I just need to get to the verse and chorus.

SJ and Masayo finally talked last night. I think SJ died when Masayo said she thought SJ was bisexual.
And I am SOOOO changing my band name. Not the BAND name but MY band-name. We were talking about announcing that we need people on Friendster and we were putting our names in. So I said my name was *** and Masayo said that was the Danger Gang's drummer's name.
ARGH~! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
It's not that I don't like Danger Gang (I've never heard them) but I don't wanna have the same name as another chick.
[Danger Gang is a chick band]
So, I'm gonna be looking for another one. *sigh*

Went to college just now and showed my sketch model to Ms. Karen. She said it was okay and that I'm moving on to my idea developement. She also said I work fast (she meant it as a compliment, I hope)! ^___^y

Round round merry go round~!

Malaysian Studies today was so annoying. Fxcking annoying! The lecturer made us debate politically and everybody was taking everything too seriously. Everybody's suggestions kinda sucked. Everybody's reason sucked even more. And they didn't really fight sense. I was so annoyed just sitting there and listening. And they were trying so hard to sound intellectual. -.- The best suggestion was the girl who said that instead of hanging all the rapists, why don't we just cut off their dicks and leave their balls. Everybody was just kinda ._. at that. We were stunned. but I lol-ed very loudly. I like that girl.

Then I came home and my mum set me to work immediately. I had to vacuum the floors T_T. Not that I hate helping my mum, I'm just 99.9% of the time really really lazy to move my fat ass.

Was watching concerts last night and I felt so... lost. It's kinda like, everybody (the bands) have made it there on stage, with all their fans, and being who I am, I just felt a tad jealous. That's what I want soo damn bad too and it's taking me forever.
We need to jam. We need a freaking drummer. *gah*

My bass fell on my head this morning and gave me a lasting headache.
I think my love percentage for the bass just fell a little.
I think I'm going to bruise.

Hmmmmmmmmmm~

I think I'm falling sick again. I'm not exaggerating or anything but I really feel very feverish. My shoulders really ache and my head really hurts. And just now in class, all of a sudden, I think I nearly died. My neck felt like somebody karate chopped it or something. It was really bad. I wanted so bad to go home~!

SJ is making me learn the bass lines to Avenge Sevenfold's Seize the Day.
I kinda nearly died when I saw the tabs... BUT~ I've managed to do the beginning part so far. The rest of the song kinda blurs out for me and I can't hear the bass very much unless I blast the song really loud but that'll kill my neighbourhood.

It appears SJ really dislikes Good Charlotte and Avril's new songs. It's a little annoying coming from them to tell you the truth. XD Avril + dancing in a shorts/skirt = OH MY GACKT! THE HORROR! And Good Charlotte's song is so monotonous.. all I hear him say is 'keep your hands off my girl'. Yeah, okay, whatever.

About the band. Interested, then read on. We need members (when have we NOT needed members?)

Soooooooooooooooo~!! ->

We went from Ilithyia to Black Rose. From Black Rose to Excentrique. From Excentrique back to Black Rose. And now we're Excentrique again.

-_________________________-"

And also, we started off with 4 members and no bassist. We moved on to three members and no drummer. And then we were 4 members without a rhythm guitarist. And now we are three members with no drummer.

[Are you confused yet?]

I'm talking about my band. Excentrique as we call ourselves, for the moment at least. *sheesh*

Before this, the line-up was Chris, SJ, Claireeeey and myself. Now, the line-up is Masayo, SJ and myself. Chris and Claireeey left. It's got nothing to do with anything, they just left cause styles clash, one couldn't commit herself, and mainly just that our styles clashed (massively).
We all still love each other very much and they all love me very much [XD].
Masayo asked me whether she could join the band as vocalist cause... Well, I won't say why cause it's very personal.

So now, Excentrique has a vocalist, a lead guitarist, and a bassist but no drummer and rhythm guitarist.

If you can strum or hit a drum... give me a call -___-"

[Back to square one?]

A random questionaire.

Okay, I'm really bored and I just saw a Friendster bulletin and decided to fill it up here. Since I'm bored anyway.

My 20 Firsts:

1. Who was your first prom date?
None, so far.
2. Who was your first roommate?
My sisters? XD
3. What alcoholic beverage did you first drink?
Either whiskey or beer.
4. What was your first job?
None~
5. What was your first car?
Iswara~
6. When did you go to your first funeral?
Erm, not too sure..
7. Who was your first love?
XD... A kindergarten classmate, that's all I'm saying.
8. Who was your first grade teacher?
Mrs. Wong. I think...
9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane?
Hong Kong~!
10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with?
I've never done that...
11. Who was your first best friend and are you still friends with them?
SJ SJ SJ...
12. Where was your first sleepover?
Joyce's house. Cheerleading sleepover.. XD
13. Will this be the first time you ever went to GoofyAuctions.com?
What the heck is that?
14. Whose wedding were you in the first time?
Whose wedding was I IN for the first time? I don't understand this question.
16. What was the first concert you ever went to?
Is Disney on Ice considered a concert?!
17. First tattoo or piercing?
Piercing in standard 2. Tattoo.. in a few years time!
18. First celebrity crush?
Lance from N'Sync? XD
19. First crush?
O_o... I'm just going to say Toshiya.
20. First time you smoked a cigarette?
Why would I tell you that?! XD

One dream down, three more to go.

Today was originally, a very awesome day. In fact, most likely, the best day yet of my life. Wanna know why? A dream came true. But~ A couple of things has dampered the mood and I'm not as cheerful as before.

But, I'm still happy.

Check it out~ I was saying that since everything I own camwhores, this new one should camwhore too.

I'm actually really tired right now and I'm in no mood at all to blog.

It was damn tiring carrying that thing around KL. Not to mention the heat today was damn intense.

I want to sleep so bad now.

So freaking tired.

I never guessed that the post which contained my 'I finally got a bass' rant, would sound so lifeless and boring. If you asked me, I would have said the blog post would most likely consist of alot of '!!!' and '~~~' and 'XD'.
Unfortunately, this is what it sounds like.

Bass and band~

It's my 661th post and after two whole years of waiting and never-ending saving, I can finally say..

I AM BUYING MY BASS TOMORROW~!

I went to Bentley's just now and tried out this bass that was RM790. It was actually pretty okay and not at all sucky. It wasn't THAT heavy and the neck wasn't THAT fat and I think I could actually handle it pretty well (I'm not talking about playing, okay). So I decided on that and we all decided that we're gonna get it tomorrow!

It's red~! Nice shiny red! I'm thinking of what to name it now. XD You know I name everything I own. Including my pillows!

I'm so happy~! It's not an ESP. It's an Ibanez. I really want an ESP but I think I'll wait for awhile. It's better to have a bass than no bass, isn't it?

But something very bad happened...
I found out I can't play in front of people!!! (Nothing I never knew)
When testing out the bass, SJ told me to play the Cage solo, and I CAN PLAY IT! But, with her standing in front of me, watching me play, I actually just couldn't play. I really couldn't play it at all. I remembered the frets but my fingers won't move.
This is very bad for somebody who's dying to be on stage, you know.

I bought more picks today. XD I'm a sucker for picks. I bought the Ibanez picks with the butterflies on it! It's damn nice. I really want the flower ones. I'll go get it tomorrow. XD

Talks of the band has come up. More people. And we need to talk.
As in, US! The CURRENT members of Excentrique~ (Our band is now called Excentrique, by the way)

MORAL is a TOTAL waste of my TIME!!
She even made us stay back today~! *roars in anger*

I'm feeling bored now~! There's nothing to do!!

You know, sometimes, I can't help but feel as though I really shouldn't speak anymore. Cause everytime I say something, I'm more often than not, ignored. It makes me feel so silly, cause it appears as though I am talking to myself. Seriously. I would be saying a whole long sentence and after at least 10 minutes, the person I'm talking to would lift his/her head and say 'Did you say something?'. And I'm always so tempted to say 'No, nothing much. Just a whole sentence a whole 10 minutes ago. You didn't miss much, really.'
It happened again, the other night. Twice, in fact, in a row. And I was so annoyed, I had to call SJ. I just needed someone who'd actually listen to me for once and not plain ignore me. I was wondering, what did I even say that would make them not want to listen? Nothing actually, cause I've not said anything to them for the whole day.
SJ said that she'll always listen and I was all 'Yeah, you're probably the only one.'
I always feel like a nobody next to people. And I always feel useless. Honestly speaking, the whole 'let's ignore Lydia' situation is making me feel even MORE invincible. That night, I was so desperate to move out. The desperation was quite overwhelming.
Probably the only person who actually would listen in this house, is my brother. He never manages to miss a word I say (sometimes, that's bad). Everybody else (grandmother not included) would just leave me talking like a total looney for the next one hour before they actually realised 'Hey! She just said something!'. And when I don't wanna talk because they don't listen, they ask me why I'm so quiet or what am I mad at. It's happened before. I always get a little on the '-.-' side when that happens.

My japanese class found out just now that I'm studying Interior in college. It all happened when my teacher asked who wanted to take the JLPT test and I was the only one who lifted my hand. She was asking me why I wanted to do it and supposedly, while I was trying to think up my answer, she said I was blushing~ So she thought I wanted to go to Japan because I had a boyfriend there -____________-" (I really wanted to agree with her and go 'YES! TOSHIYA!' but she wouldn't get it). Yeah, so I just told her I wanted to work there as an Interior Designer cause I LOOOOOOOOVE Japanese interiors. And she started talking about her friend's friend from another country, who moved to Osaka and bought over this old Japanese house and remade it to look modern. I think the idea is cool~ She even said that buying old houses is waaay cheaper than buying new apartments. It's cheaper cause nobody wants to stay in an old house in Japan. I wouldn't mind! (as long as there's air conditioning).

Ah~ Rye-chan. As for SJ's blog. I totally forgot but she actually didn't want to tell anybody. And I only knew about it cause I accidently bumped into it and realised 'Hey~ This girl sounds familiar~'. Yeah, so unless she allows it, I won't give out her site address, okay?
[By the way, I'm damn jealous of your tattoo. Sheesh. I'm gonna get myself a big big one to rival yours.]

I'm so in love with Dong Bang Shin Ki's Balloons. I know I was obsessed before. But I still am!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaah~! HEROOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I just found out from SJ's blog that Kisaki doesn't talk to Kyo and that he's only in contact with Kaoru and Die. And also, that Riku said he's bisexual [And he that he wouldn't have a problem kissing Kisaki right there]

Very interesting interview SJ. Keep posting stuff like that~!

(And also, regarding your last paragraph, I totally understand what you mean by having 3/4 of your life taken away)

Was doing my space design the WHOLE time during class. Not done with it yet and I have to show her tomorrow morning. I'm so dead.

Anyway, there's actually nothing much about yesterday so I'm not gonna bother writing about it. The only reason why I wanted to write about it was so I won't forget what happened. I think won't forget it very much. (I've blogged about it somewhere else).

I loooooove Dir en grey's Itoshisa wa Fuhai ni Tsuki~!!!!!! It's... (I know I say this alot but...) AWESOME~!

That picture up there was taken on the bus on the way to Petaling Street yesterday. Nat was doing something too but she wasn't in the picture. (That's because I angled the camera wrongly).

Hotarubi means firefly.

I think that'll make a really weird but cool stage name. What would you do, if you saw -Ba. Hotarubi- on things?

...

That looks WEIRD! No way am I naming myself Hotarubi.

Right now, I'm kinda looking for a little nickname. One that has absolutely NO resemblance to my real name. Give me all kinds of languages, Korean, Greek, Penguin. Whatever. Just give me something you think sounds cool~

TIRED!!!!!!!

Today was very tiring! I'm so lazy to write out about it! Will do that tomorrow or something.

In the mean time, I'll leave you with our camwhoring. XD

At KLSentral. After meeting up with Nat.
About 5 seconds after the first one, we took this. XD
At Times Square~ At 10 o'clock. I felt stupid and crazy. Nowhere was opened.
At Starhill. That place is so posh. Too posh for me.
At lunch. McDonalds~

I have so much more pictures. Will post them tomorrow.

I still have my project work to do. I haven't even started!! I'm damn dead.

Ho hum, pigs bum~

I saw what was most likely the HORRIBLE-est things ever in the history of my visual abilities!

I was on my way to class and I was driving along the road near my house and as I made the u-turn, the car in front of me hit a little kitten! The best part was he didn't even stop or brake or anything! He didn't even GO FASTER...or slow down, he just drove like NOTHING HAPPENED! And I didn't know it was a kitten, I thought it was a piece of torn paper flapping in the wind (the kitten was white) until I noticed that the only thing 'flapping in the wind' was that and the trees weren't even moving an inch. Then I got nearer and saw it was a cat! And the flapping part of it was it's legs!!! I was so... I don't even know what I felt. I think I nearly cried~! But as I drove past I noticed a car or two behind me stop and a guy came out to check the cat out.

Then as I drove home from class just now, I noticed the little kitty was missing from the road or anywhere closeby (I swear I keep an eye on the road [the other eye just sees everything else]). I hope that guy who walked out took the kitty somewhere....

I'm still grossed out. So inhuman~!!!!

You know what, yesterday, when I posted that picture of me with my new hair... I was wondering how many of you will notice that I'm actually trying to do a Bou-kun. Apparently, none of you said anything about the 'trying to be cute' pose!
And I was quite on the 'okay, whatever' side. Until I talked to SJ just now.

SJ : Lyd. Can you tell me.. WHY MUST YOU SMILE LIKE THAT IN THE PICTURE?!?!?!
Lyd : HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
SJ : Why'd you have to do a Bou and take a picture?!
Lyd : HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~!! I was wondering when somebody was gonna comment on that!
SJ : -______________________________-"
Lyd : The haircut DEMANDS for me to do a Bou!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
SJ : I gotta admit though, the haircut DOES look a little like Bou.
Lyd : -_____________________________-"

My sister is sending me Dir en grey's entire discography! FINALLY!! I missed them so damn much! my old computer is storing everything I want~! Oh..my concerts..!! All are in that one damn computer. *urgh*.
Nevermind. At least I can listen to Garden now. I can't believe I don't have Garden in here at all!!
DIR EN GREY ROCKS~!! Wheeeee~!!

Short one.

SJ did it again! She got me into another band~ She did the same thing with D. Anyway, this band is called Avenged Sevenfold. It's really nice! I actually only got interested when she mentioned the name of the guitarist (or was it bassist?) was Synyster Gates. Who wouldn't fall for a name like that? XD

I got quite a big reaction from my classmates today for my newly darkened hair.
I really want red hair~! Wait till I dye it red. I'll just scare everybody the same way I did with my blonde hair.

I'm bored. In awhile, I need to leave for Japanese lessons.
I've got no class tomorrow but I still need to do my photography project. I'm meeting KasonJang at the Kelana station at 9 freaking A.M in the morning. And then we'll meet Nat in KLSentral at 9:30 A.M. And we're all up for a whole day of walking about KL aimlessly looking for the perfect view .... Not sure if I'm looking forward to it. Walking in KL with people who does not have the same interests as me, wouldn't be so nice.

Dyed hair~! Again~~

Yeaaaaay~! I'm relaxing like crazy tonight.

I FINALLY dyed my hair back to black. Everybody seems very pleased with me. I'll leave them pleased until I break the news to them that I want red hair next.

Anyway, just 2 hours ago, I looked like this...

The light blonde has washed out of my hair and it was just bleached this really 'lala' colour that I couldn't really stand. So, I lent my dad's hair dye and ta dah~!

My hair is now black~!! Not really black but a darkish brown. It's never this dark even when I had no dye in my hair. This is new.

I'm looking for jet black now. I want Asagi's colour.

FINALLY DONE! I hated this project... (つ´Δ｀)つ

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah~!! I'm so f*cking tired now! I slept at about 5 something and woke up at about 10 something just to do my work. I wouldn't even have woken up if it wasn't for my mother... See, last night, I had this strange feeling I won't be able to wake up at 9 (which was when I was supposed to) so I counted my limit and how much time I needed till class starts to complete my work so I left a note for my mum saying "Hey, Mum! If I'm not awake by 10 a.m, please feel free to barge in and kick me". Thank God she didn't take me seriously. I think after all this years, she kinda figured I wouldn't mean what I said. So she didn't kick me, but she did barge.

I'm done.. I hope. I'm pretty sure I'm forgetting something but I can't seem to place what I've forgotten. Oh well, I'll just get it done by the time semester ends.
I can't wait for that. I really can't wait.

I'm listening to piano music now. Piano is so soothing~
My sister bought this album of piano and water sounds a while ago. And she ripped it to MP3 format and sent me the first two tracks. They're like 17 minutes each but it's very nice. I want the fourth song. It's very nice~

Eeeeeeeee~! ->
TORA!
(SJ, am I killing you yet?)

I was looking through his blog yesterday. It appears that all the PSC bands have got blogs on that Ameblo site now. I love Tora's layout! I like his pose in his banner. So hot. Seriously, nobody can be hotter (except Toshiya and Asagi).
But why is it that Gazette has ONE blog for all five...?
As for Shin Shin's blog, I was a little on the O_o side. Cause his banner had a frog.. And I remember when I first heard his voice, I said he either sounded like a lizard or a frog. Made me laugh a little.

You know what, I'm going to dye my hair back to black tonight. I'm kinda sick of my hair looking sickly. I'll keep it looking healthy (and in reality dead) for awhile. And then I'll dye it red.
I really can't stick to something.

I've now got acrylic paint ALL OVER my hands. I feel like I've been rolling around in paint. Doesn't feel good.

I looooooooooooooooooove Crucify My Love!
I was so excited about the whole X Japan thing yesterday that I was flooding SJ and my chatwindow. And even she said it was weird cause it's usually her that floods not me. XD But she's happy! YEAY! X JAPAN!
It's still depressing the way Yoshiki seems so hesitant in doing it. It's okay if he doesn't do it. As long as his 'superband' takes off. I still can't imagine seeing Yoshiki, Sugizo AND Gackt on stage together. I think I'd just die. I love all three of them! (Okay, so I MAINLY like Gackt for his warped sense of humour but his voice is really nice and I DO like his songs.. but only his songs in Malice Mizer).

And just because I feel like it, I'll add in a picture of Isabella! My favourite character from Paradise Kiss... XD

I am actually speechless right now.

I'm very speechless.

Want to know an update on Yoshiki?
Read this.

God!!!
I finally got the day off yesterday.
After the new year, I've been working and working……. I got sick, but kept recording and recording……. So I finally finished one of the projects I have been working on……. Not VUK, not yet…….

Anyway, it was a perfect day off…… I went to my studio, and interviewed several candidates for my entertainment organization, and went to dinner with several friends…… then went to see the "Dir en grey" show at the Wiltern Theater in LA.
Overall the show was great…… full of energy, and….. every time I see them perform, it makes me want to rock…… I'm doing a lot of different genres of music……. from classical to…… whatever…… but I think I really love rock. I've been playing the drums since I was 10 years old…… well, actually playing the piano since age 4 as well.

Anyway…… after the show, the entire band came to my house, and celebrated Shinya's (the drummer's) birthday party. Back then….. well, when I was producing Dir en grey, we used to hang out pretty much every day…… It was so nice to hang out with them again.
Last night we ended up drinking together until the morning,
I hope they're all OK for the show tonight.

On stage they were very charismatic, but off stage they are some of the sweetest people I know…… HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE THEM!!!

Well, I haven't been producing bands or artists for a while…… because at one point I was producing almost 10 artists at the same time, and it completely burned me out…… But I may be starting again…… well before I do, I have to finish so many other things……
OK….. I'm still working on Violet UK……I think….. but for the first time in many years, I'm confident that some of these songs will be able to blow your minds away……

When I used to do X Japan's songs…… every time I finished recording….. I hated them….. I always felt that something was missing…… but finally with VUK…… You'll see!!!!!!!

And…… some people have questions about "THE BAND".
Yes, Sugizo from Luna Sea came here to LA several times last year, and last month Gackt came to town, and we both went to dinner….. pretty much just the two of us……
Actually that was really funny….. Gackt came to my house and ate dinner…… that was good….. Then I said to him "why don't we go out to dinner?". and he said "we just ate…..???" then I said "I wanna eat different food….." well .... we ate Japanese food at my house, and then ended up going out to a Japanese restaurant in LA…..
(We are very weird…. Ha, ha, ha, ha)…… but that was fun!

Yes, I'm so lucky to have them as friends, and also to be able to work with them professionally.
Sugizo and Gackt are such talented people, also having such an amazing vibe. Actually, they are all going to come here next month with one more person that I can't reveal yet.

OK, and X Japan…..
I'm like…….Why now? ..... Why, why, why……
To be honest….. it took years to conquer the pain and sadness….. maybe not yet, I still cannot listen to…… or watch X Japan's videos….. without tears…..
" MY OWN GODDAMN BAND" ….. I can't listen to it without crying…… HOW CAN I BE IN IT AGAIN? …… IT HURTS SO MUCH…… TO EVEN TALK ABOUT ...... X JAPAN…..
Yes, I can play the drums. I think I can play them even harder than before…… of course my injured neck and wrists hurt….. but SO WHAT!!! ….. I don't give a fuck about that kind of pain…..
But mentally….. I don't know if I can take it….. I'm not saying if I'll do it or not….. I talked to Toshi (vocalist)……. He called me almost towards the end of last year….. for the first time since we went our separate ways……….
Toshi and I..... we grew up together…........ I don't know ….. I don't know…. I don't …… know …….

Yes, there are lyrics of the song "WITHOUT YOU" ….. That, I wrote, right after Hide's death….. also, I had to do so many takes of piano recording, because of the tears falling down and flooding the piano keys, and my fingers kept slipping again and again.
If there's somebody to sing this song ….. I think it should be Toshi….. but …… I don't know….. I don't know….. I don't fucking know….. It's too painful to……
I'm sorry, I don't want to make you feel depressed or anything like that….. but so many people have been asking me about this, so I had to say something…… just let me….. have…… a little more time……

I love you all.

YOSHIKI

In the that one blog post itself... everything has been said.
Depressing, hell yeah.






[I do like the Dir en grey part. Nice to know he still loves them! ^^]
[I enjoyed reading about his night out with Gackt too. Different food, it seems. -.- Yes, Yoshiki, you are very weird.]




(EDIT : And I forgot to say that I got the blog post from Yoshiki's MySpace.)

La la la la la la la la la... and more la

I'm procrastinating right now. I really should get started on my homework that is due tomorrow but I'm procrastinating cause I'm really really lazy to do it.

...

I'm gonna die tomorrow.

I want creepers! I can't believe SJ bought creepers!! (Yes, I'm still going on about that)
In case you don't know what creepers are... I'll show you a picture.

Isn't that such a cool looking shoe? Not to mention that Toshiya has those...

X-Japan is so not good for mental health. ESPECIALLY Amethyst. Nice name, I agree, but the song is a little on the depressing side. I seriously wonder what's going through Yoshiki's mind. Time to change to something more upbeat and lively... like Aural Vampire!
I watched this little clip of them in Cologne, Germany and Exo-Chika's voice (when not singing) is really nice. Very sweet like and she giggles... O_o. Don't ask why I'm shocked that she giggles but coming from a band called Aural Vampire and having fangs.. you don't expect her to giggle like that. But the crowd was showing so much of love and they were all dancing, made me wish I was there too~ I wanna dance. I haven't danced in so long... my feet are beginning to shuffle just thinking about it. XD. I really do love dancing.

I wish I was a British person living in 1970's London~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Claireeey's brother or her, I don't know, supposedly Googled for jokes and my blog turned up.
People think I'm a joke.
I should dig a hole and hide in it.
Claireeey, did you get the right Lydia, to begin with?

XD We can buy Vivienne Westwood online~
I seriously should stop trying to kick off my new hobby.

I'm feeling dramatic. And melancholic. Those two just don't go in one combo.

This is my 651st post. Oh man~!

Anyway, there's something wrong with my computer. Something very wrong with it. It kinda shuts off by itself.
SJ's brother said it may be hardware problem. Well, he SHOULD be right, he's the one who did IT in college.

I went to KLCC with SJ today. Yeah, KLCC is ALMOST becoming our weekend hangout.
I picked up my SHOXXbis and bought Paradise Kiss 5. Finally, I ended Paradise Kiss. I love the series.
I cried reading the end. I don't cry that bad watching movies (unless it's The Green Mile and I'm high on vodka) and I don't cry that bad reading normal books. But this is comic books and I cry so bad. It's very touching, the ending I mean, cause eventhough George and Yukari didn't get together, they all still managed to achieve their dreams! It's very nice! I may read it five million times now.

Remember what I was doing yesterday? My whole 'Let's count how many magazines I have!' thing, well, I forgot to count my 3 GothicLolita magazines, 1 Kera, 2 Nail magazines, 3 Dir en grey Photobooks and 2 Arena 37c.

Aaaaaaaaah, me and SJ were talking about moving out AGAIN today. We seem to do that alot. I really want to move out. I'm at the point of desperation. But, thinking on it, as I was driving back home, I was looking at the buildings that past (No, I'm not being melodramatic) and everything was so familiar to me. I've been driving past these roads for almost all 18 years of my life. Moving away from something so familiar, I wonder if I can ever do it. I'm serious about moving away but I'm wondering whether I can actually bring myself to move away from all that I know. In a way, I'm somebody who does not like to move on. I don't want people to grow up. I don't want people to change. I don't want THINGS in general to change. I want everything the way it is now and moving away from my family, from my friends, from people that I know, would be sort of like moving on to another chapter in my life and moving away to something new altogether. It would be exciting but I know that I would miss the way things are now.
I know it's way too early for me to be pondering on things like this but I can't help it.
I just know that I want to move away because I'm feeling very 'suffocated' living like this now. I want to be so free, even the birds envy me.

SJ, we need the band to work. Immediately.

Pictures and more funky vocabulary from me. What DO you call Shinto follwers?

Yesterday, I was looking through that one shelf in my cupboard that plays house to all my magazines, CDs and comic books. Dude! I think I died a little inside looking at the amount in there. I seriously never realised I had so many items. So, I photographed them to show you what I mean.

This here are my comic books! Count them~ 4 Paradise Kiss, 7 Demon Diary, 3 Princess Ai (the story's crap, seriously), 1 Eerie Queerie, 1 Skyscrapers of OZ *coughyaoicough*, 1 FairyCube, 1 The Devil Does Exist and 2 Under The Glass Moon. That equals to? I don't wanna count!!

And this are my SHOXX magazines~ I've got a Nightmare cover, 2 Gazette covers, 2 Kagrra, covers, 3 MUCC covers, 2 Sid covers, 1 LovelyMocoChang [XD] LM.C, actually, 1 AnCafe and a couple more I just forgot. I've got 15 SHOXX magazines. Dude..~ If that is scary, check out my Cure!

And THESE are my Cure... I've got 2 Phantasmagoria covers, 2 AnCafe (One is actually just Miku), 2 Bis, 1 UnderCode Production, 1 Vidoll, 1 D (ASAGI!), 1 12012... Argh~! I don't remember anymore. I've got 18 Cure magazines~

Okay, so all together I've got 15 SHOXX, 18 Cures, 20 comic books... That comes up to around... You do the damn math, 15+18+20 = ? My maths suck.

Then, I thought that was all there was to it until I stood up and glanced towards my CDs, DVDs and VCDs... And that's when I noticed...

My beloved CDs!! Owning that ONE Dir en grey DVD changed my life forever. And managing to find that Dahlia Tour Final VCD was so awesome, I couldn't stop staring at it long enough to WATCH it. And the hide Seventeen Clips ~perfect clips~ one is special to me. My mum, sister and I were taking a walk in Times Square cause my mum wanted to see the place, then I saw the store that sold it and not expecting her to agree, I asked her whether she wants to get it for me... and she was all '-.- I can't believe my daughter likes this sorta thing' (Well, I could tell she was thinking it!). But she pulled out a fifty and gave it to me! I was nearly jumping with joy in public.

My biggest mistake was buying the one on the far right. It's practically a documentary about his death and funeral. Excuse me? As if I need to be reminded that he's dead. But, it seems to be the only one I see everywhere. Maybe cause nobody wants to watch his funeral.

Ah~ Now, the one with the Japanese title. That is XJapan's Vanishing Vision album. It was probably produced in 92 or before. This is amazing. Seriously, the story behind this one. I was walking in Pyramid with NnM and she picked it out and shoved it in my general direction and was all 'Check out the cover, Lyd!' (the cover has a pair of very female boobs being grabbed) and I was just staring at it wondering why it looked so familiar to me until I saw the words 'Vanishing Vision'. I died. I literally died. Wanna know the best part of the whole thing? It was in the 4 for RM9.90 rack. Which means that one very old and precious CD for about RM2 something. How much do you think I can sell it for?

I'd love to talk about my Dir en grey one but I think I've done it more than a few million times already. I've watched it for more than a few million times. When I bought it, I watched it 5 times within 3 days. I was mad. (still am)

I'm really bored right now. I don't know what to do. What to do?

Moral today was a total BORE. I'm telling you, I wonder how my lecturer became a lecturer. She's so freaking boring. Our class is around 2 hours or so. She spends one freaking hour explaining what she kept repeating the week before and the next hour is spend repeating in this really slo-mo way about ONE topic. Seriously, NOBODY listens to her. It's probably the noisiest class I have. And she tried to get our attention. In my opinion, she can run around the class naked, jamming on a broom to Britney Spears and nobody will notice anything.

She's THAT bad.

And we were learning about religions around the world today and she mentioned Shinto. I don't understand why people all think I want to convert to Shinto-ism (if there's ever such a thing) just because I love Japanese ROCK BANDS. Which part of ROCK BAND does it say that I WANT TO CONVERT TO SHINTO-ISM!? I don't get them. -_-"

And Japanese class today was okay. My teacher is so happy with me just because I've been completing my homework. She was asking us questions like 'Did you know so and so is doing so and so?' and one of her examples were 'Lydia-san wa ishoukenmei benkyoushiteiru no o shitteimasuka'. Which translates to Lydia-san is doing her best at studying, did you know? I kept laughing. And EVERYBODY answered 'Iie, shirimasen' (It's something like, no, we don't know). Wow, thanks. She was all 'O_o Shirimasenka?' So she followed up with ANOTHER question about me....I have very supportive classmates.

I was about to drag Rye-chan into the bathroom just now to strip her and check her tattoo out. XD She ended up in my moral class. She looked very stressed (maybe cause she KNEW I would strip her) and was all 'Noo~ Next time next time!'. I would have laughed at her stressolosity if I wasn't so damn serious about it.

I want a stupid *bleep*ing tattoo too~!

In reference to my title. What DO you call Shinto believers? Shinto-ians? Shinto-ites? Shinto-ismers? XD

Oh Gosh. I give up now.

My capability of coming up with random English words has amazed me.

I'm blogging from school. F*cking noisy here and it's kinda pissing me off. Nat and I are rushing our Moral assignment. Stupidest thing in the world if you want my opinion. Shouldn't have been given to us in the beginning. Wasting our time and brain cells.

I've got Moral later on... I've really got no mood to attend class.

Rye-chan got a tattoo! And she didn't even show it to me. I'm so damn jealous now. I want a tattoo too! Did it hurt? Like, alot or little bit or something we can get used too... Or do we have to be masochistic like you to enjoy it?
I doubt I'm masochistic... Sadism is more up my alley... XD (I'm so kidding)

And now I'm bored of blogging too... *sheesh*
I need excitement in my life. On the other hand, I just need to save up about Rm400 till I can get my ESP! Was flipping through the ESP catalogue SJ and I charmed *cough* the guy into giving us. I'm quite in love with the F-something or another. I'm guessing, if it's the F-series... it should be around RM1000+ right? Cause that's what I see the others to be.
I really like the ESP Ninja guitar... but if I were to get a guitar, I'd get a B.C Rich Mockingbird. Even though the sound sucks. I only want it cause hide used it... XD
Which reminds me, I'm wondering what's going on with Yoshiki's new band. Remember the one I was obsessing about awhile ago... the one with Sugizo and Gackt. I'm wondering whether Rye-chan's darling MYV-ers will be in it as rumoured. That'd be a riot! XD
I read somewhere, that Yoshiki updated his MySpace about the Dir en grey concert he went to but when I went to his MySpace... I didn't see anything!!! Oh maaaaaaaaaaan~! I wanna see what he had to say about it! He better say something nice! XD

Everytime I use this computer, I get so tempted to write in Chinese... Let me try my name...
爱。。。

Well, I can't get the 'ru' part. But still, that's an improvement XD I can type chinese!!
I'm not crazy.

Tagged. Again. Thanks Claireeey, you've got too much freetime on your hands.

TAG 1 :
People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

6 WEIRD FACTS ABOUT ME :

1. I wanna be a rockstar - No, really, I consider this weird because everybody seems to like being all safe and comfy with their normal 9-5 jobs and I seem to be the only one who wants to do something like being in a band.
2. I talk to soft toys - It's just something that happened when I first got my elephants and duck (my dad said he nearly died when I told him the duck was talking to me).
3. I tend to like doing the exact opposite of what people tell me to do - I do and I accept the fact. Maybe it's cause I don't like people telling me what to do.
4. I want to go bungee jumping and I'm afraid of heights - Easy, I'll just bungee jump when I'm 80 or above. Then, I could die and nobody can blame the bungee. They'd just think I died of old age (500 kilometers above sea level).
5. I'm actually quite obsessed about music - I cannot go ONE day without listening to some music.
6. I actually think there's a possibility of me meeting Toshiya - Don't ask me to explain this one, I'd just end up talking about how hot Toshiya is and we'd go way off topic.

TAG 2 :
Why do i blog?

1. To write about things that annoy me, sadden me, anger me etc.
2. Because my sister dragged me into it. Now she's off it and I'm still doing it.
3. I get to obsess about Toshiya and nobody can cut me off.
4. To tell my friends about stuff. (Then we'll just end up talking online)
5. Just because it's something to fill my time.
6. It's just a little space that I have... (So cheesy I know, but shut up this is my blog)

I tag :

1. YukiRye-chan... XD I suddenly realise that the Yuki in front makes the name look special.
2. And er, everybody else.

*insert title of choice here*

And I'm back online again.
It's damn stupid cause right after I blogged about finally being online, my internet kinda died on me AGAIN. I was cursing like three cursing things.

I'm sooo tired!! Well, technically I'm not supposed to be tired cause I didn't do much today but I'm still tired. I sense my inner pigginess coming up.
Went to school, had tutorial about my sketch models and surface graphics then went off to SS2 to meet up with SJ. She came prancing my way with her new skirt from Singapore. JEALOUS! It was damn nice. But I have a feeling it would have looked like shit on me. I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE YOU HAVE CREEPERS, SJ! Can you feel my jealous vibe? I still really want my 305 Lace Up though. But I think I'd go for creepers first.
Then we went to AsiaCafe and sat for dinner with Nat and Shari. Man, how long has it been since the four of us sat together like that? XD We kept talking about what we did during form 2 and 3 and how the teachers were terrorised by us (or pissed at us depending on how you want to see it) and we were making a whole lot of noise. Not to mention that after NOT talking to Shari like that for about three years, she still manages to crack 'Lydia jokes' without blinking. And now, it's 'Lance is gay' jokes. -____-" She has a thing about insulting me. And something I noticed is that after so many years, we're still wondering what happened to the Green Day and Ben poster we doodled on. It kinda just disappeared without a trace. (We were thinking that the juniors who used our class took it cause they appreciated our sense of style and creativity. Although, I doubt that's what really happened but it makes us feel good about ourselves.)

Right now, I'm trying very hard to do my Moral work. I have to write 5 sentences for Nilai Ekstrinsik and another 5 for Nilai Instrinsik. I actually DO understand what they want but I can't come up with ANY sentence. It's all very mind wrecking. Can anybody help me? I'm really not looking forward to class tomorrow. God knows, she might be late again, or her computer may be out of battery AGAIN! She's honestly the weirdest teacher I've ever met in my life. My secondary school teacher were more effective teaching wise than her.

SJ brought her Arena 37 magazine for me to look through just now and they had this whole photoshoot of Alice Nine in it for Valentine's Day. Okay, you know I don't really like Valentine's, but Tora in a suit has changed my mind. It's most likely my favourite celebration at the moment (after Christmas). If it means seeing Tora in a suit, I like it.

Back and hopefully, for good!

⊂二二二（　＾ω＾）二⊃

I am online! FINALLY! Wanna know what happened?

...

I'm lazy to explain. I just realised it's a very very long sad story. So I'll pass on the tears and talk about the joy instead! INTERNET! Seriously, my life is so sad.

Oh well, at the moment, I'm up to my eyeballs (and most possibly, beyond) with work. See, this is what happens when you choose to relax and do your homework at the last week of holidays. Anyway, I'm going smoothly for ONE subject. The other subject, I'm most likely dead but I'm very ready for it.

My hamsters are fat now.

XD

They're so fat, they squash my fingers (if they haven't bit them all off yet, they're the fiercest pair of rodents I've laid eyes on).

In my boredom, yesterday, I tried playing my sister's game called Emperor or Dynasty or something Chinese like that. The point of the game? Build houses, create jobs, plants and all that old fashioned nonsense for old chinese people. XD I nearly died. Everytime I'm creating jobs for them, I get this warning sign 'YOUR PEOPLE ARE PATHETICALLY JOBLESS'. Well, something like that, they just don't use pathetically. And when I'm building watch towers for them so their houses don't burn down, they burn down. It's ANNOYING. I kept evicting people just for the fun of it. I gave up halfway through, cause their hygiene level was so low I kept getting those warning signs. If I had gone on, they'd most likely die of malaria or something. Or, they'd just get burned down.

The other day, SJ and I went to KLCC to FINALLY get my magazines. I had SIX of them waiting for me. It was sad. Anyway, I finally got a poster with Tora in it! I was so happy! I gave the other one with Saga and Nao to SJ. Tora was posing with Hiroto. And two of my new magazines had AnCafe on the cover which equals to me getting two AnCafe posters! And one had Kagrra,! I'm a happy person. The other one had Sadie, I think. Whatever. SJ managed to get the bassists edition of SHOXX bis! JEALOUS~!! She has Nao (Kagrra,) and Reita! Grrr~! I wanted it. But it was the last one and she saw it first. I'm gonna find a way to get it. On the other hand, I reserved another SHOXXbis and it has D on the backpage. OH MY GOD! ASAGI WAS SO F*CKING GORGEOUS IN HIS AWESOME KIMONO!! Have I mentioned I LOVE Asagi? I would honestly liken his voice to sex. And I'm saying this with a straight face.

So, how was everybody's Chinese New Year?

Throughout the whole celebration, I kept thinking that it's ALREADY another new year even for the Lunar Calender and I was thinking.... WHAT ABOUT MY FREAKING BAND?!

I wanna dye my hair again~ I'm thinking of red. A bright bright red. I wish Malaysia had the colours Japan has. If it did, I'd totally do a Jun on everybody. I'm talking about Jun from Phantasmagoria. He has the exact kind of pink I like!

I'm very close to getting the bass I want. And I just may be able to get my ESP!

I'm very happy about that! My ultimate dream is one step closer to coming true! Owning an ESP will be practically death worthy.