I've been downloading games obsessively :S
And being such a pirate while I'm at it too :S
But I'm addicted :)

Cleaned up my room (1/2) yesterday night. I cleaned out my BIG cornflakes box (the box that contains the cereal boxes) and now I'm left with a TV box to clean. The ONE thing that really bugs me is the fact that my amp and bass HAS to go somewhere. And there's no where in my room to place them snugly in a corner without people walking into them everyday. :S So far, I've managed to place them (hopefully) out of the way, but now it's in MY way.
While cleaning, I also managed to count up my Shoxx, Kera, Cure, i-D, Missbehave, Flaunt, and whatever else guitar magazine that I have.. and I have ALOT of magazines. They're ALL over the place! Seriously! Oh gosh. I had no where to put them so I had to chuck them into the bookshelf outside my room. Which means, I can't just lean over to my table and grab one before sleeping like I'm used to. I DID keep the Shoxx, Cure, Arena 37c, Kera, Dir en grey books and all that junk in my room though. I think I'll give everybody a heart attack if they ever catch sight of them. Not because it's more expensive than most magazines but because the people on it aren't really normal.

Like I was telling Nat today, I've written up reasons why even if Dir en grey would come to Malaysia, they won't come back cause they'll be fined.
I mentally wrote it up and I think I'll let you know what I think.
Kyo is almost always shirtless. (This country doesn't allow people to take off their shirts on stage)
Kyo is ALWAYS swearing. There is not one song where the word 'fxck' is censored.
Toshiya is so hot that he'll most likely................
Okay, nevermind. Scratch that. His hotness will most likely kill me only.
:S
Nat was ignoring me while I was telling her. Sheesh.

Completed my draughting today. I didn't do the elevation plans cause I was a little confused in doing it and I didn't wanna just copy off somebody's work cause I wanna learn how to do it or I might just die in the future. Just in case I end up being a draughts(wo)man or something.

I needa start packing for my MSID trip next week :S
(I'm kidding, okay)
As excited as I am about going away on a trip, I'm quite weary. I'm gonna be leaving my Bone Daddy, Bear Bear, Ivan the Third, Dandy and all their little squishy friends behind! I can't sleep without all of them :S
I'm definitely gonna be bringing Baby Ivan *apologizes to future roommates*. Without Baby Ivan, I really won't be sleeping :D

Finally found the game Nat was talking about.
While sipping Caffe Lattes in Starbucks the other day, we were talking about the games and she mentioned this game called Azada. The thing is, I heard Azara. And I couldn't find any game of that name. -.-
I was sleepy, hence why we were drinking coffee to being with.

In OldTown Kopitiam today..
Lyd: This black tea is a little herbally :S
Nat: O_o?Herbally?! Isn't it tea?
Lyd: Yeah, it is but it's got this really bitterish herbally taste.
Nat: :S
Lyd: *glances over* Oh~ There's sugar here.. *sheepishly adds sugar in*
Lyd: ... It's nice now *lol*
Needa start sleeping earlier.

Those 1:20 scale models are bigger than ME! WTF?!

Sketch model accepted T_____T
That's tears of joy, by the way.
I stayed up the whole damn night just doing that stupid model. I was actually almost done when I realised my model looked like the San Francisco bridge. -.- So I took a break, ate my kitchen empty, and then started again.
This time around, the only ruler I used was my french curves! I officially love that ruler. It's so nice and curvy. :)

I love The Cure's Love Song (Yes, it's freaking old). It's still a nice song :)

Argh! I totally FORGOT (more like didn't realise) that the MSID (some shit for the interior students in Malaysia) thing is NEXT FREAKING WEEK LIKEOHMYGOSH.

They'll be shipping me off to a barren wasteland (almost anyway) in a week! I thought I had two more weeks to prepare myself for the lack of skyscrapers! Have I mentioned that I'll never move away from metal structures? And I know this place in Perak cause I use to go to that area quite often. And I know where this college campus is. It's in the middle of NOWHERE. Quite literally. You have miles of trees and endless hills and the occasional mining pond but nothing else. Even people are scarce. Lol. But I won't be so negative cause I'm actually quite excited to go :) Can't wait to see Claireeey perform in front of THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE (Am I stressing you out, Claireeey?)

I should really be cleaning out my room now but my sister is sleeping and she'll really have my head if I start clinking around.

But I should start soon, or I really won't be able to sleep tonight. Shit. And I have class tomorrow. Crap.

I haven't been blogging lately. I downloaded a CRAP LOAD of games and I've been busy playing them. It's very addictive cause it's those 'hidden object' games. Very nice :D And addictive.

Hello!

:D
Internet's fully working~
No more lurking around my Dad's computer!
:D

On the other hand, I'm stressed like a mad cow.
I have NO idea what to write for my IAC essay and I haven't started on my barge models.
:S I don't think I'm doing a cow justice for comparing myself to it.

My sister sent me The Wallflowers' One Headlight the other day. It's been so long since I last heard this song~ I love it! :)
There're so many songs that I really liked last time. All of them were heard while I sat in the car to my endless classes and schools when I was in primary school. But all of them were those 'one hit' things. :S And being so young, I wasn't concerned over who sang it so I have no idea what they're called now.

Is it weird if I say that the ONE thing I really missed while I had no internet were my jigsaw puzzles? :( Cause I really missed them!
(I can almost hear Shari calling me a nerd)

I was going through my folders the other day and I realised that I have saved ALOT of bass pictures :S What I did with them, I'm not too sure myself.
Anyway, they were seperated in folders by their brand and I opened my B.C Rich folder *whee!* and I realised that they have something called 'Heritage Classic Mockingbird'! A BASS! And here I was thinking that maybe I won't buy the Mockingbird because it's a guitar and I can always play my brother's... but I can buy a Mockingbird BASS instead!! :D
But that's what I thought... And then I caught sight of the Platinum Beast bass.
T_T *focuses on her love for her current bass*
Anyway, even if I'm gonna get another bass... it'll be a 5 string :) And those were 4 string basses (Do not tell me they have them in 5 string versions too. I'll scream at you)

Oh and my brother and I can finally play a song together for my grandmother!
Cause my grandmother has been wanting us to play a song for her together... but we were never on the same wavelength about which song to play! (I wanted Deathstars, he wanted Green Day *bleak*)
FINALLY, the other day, he came up to me playing Marilyn Manson's Sweet Dreams and I was just like ':D' cause I know the bass lines to that song too!
I'm so glad I got him into Marilyn Manson. *spreading the evil?*
But my brother was all 'NOO! I need a pedal for this song!! Especially the solo part!!'. Bummer.
But it's a nice song! I'll bully him into it somehow.
And that boy is earning money from his golf thing... Grrr... He owes me Starbucks. JUST for earning money.

But now, I'm really keen on learning Metaphysical by Moi dis Mois. If you could listen to that song, man, it's really nice on a whole different level. It starts off really soft with this airy keyboard-y sound and then the guitars start really subtle but quite heavy and then it just breaks loose even heavier! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA!

Sick-o but still not dead yet

Hello world!
I am totally the person they would quarantine due to contagious diseases.
I didn't go to class today~ Woke up at 8 and nearly died. Seriously.
Then Kinokuniya called and now SJ and I needa make a quickie trippy to KLCC because if we don't pick up our stuff soon, they would release them to the public. Apparently, somebody wants the stuff SJ and I have there >:( They better NOT release anything.

I'm most likely going to sleep soon. The flu medicine really makes me drowzy and I'm even having a headache.
Though, my room is gonna be really hot cause I'm airing it out (kinda stupid how I say the room's hot because I'm AIR-ing it out. Shouldn't it be airy? Welcome to Malaysia :>) I don't want any microscopic bugs with flu-like qualities to be lurking around.

And random sentence of the day:
I want a rabbit and I want to move to New York :(

I wish I lived in a country with winter. Then I get to wear nice coats and boots :(

I'm sick again
*does a little sickly dance*
I've noticed that lately, I never say 'I'm sick' or 'I've fallen sick'... It's always 'I'm sick AGAIN'. It's always again. I'm learning to really hate that word.
Anyway, woke up yesterday with my throat feeling funny and went to sleep with a fever :S
Now, I'm feeling horrible and I'm taking lozenges like a drug addict taking drugs. Absolutely horrible.

SJ and I were trying to buy stuff over eBay. DEG's Deadly Claris book and a Gazette something or another I forgot. THANK YOU to Jun Han for helping us bid for it! I owe you a big one!
But! We lost the bid. XD Some girl came on at the last minute and beat us. Stupid woman! I really wanted the Deadly Claris book as it's SUPER rare but... I guess it just wasn't meant to be.

The other day, on the day my internet died, I was in 1Utama having Nando's with Nat while it was raining cats and dogs and possibly some mice.
While my back was getting wet due to it facing the rain (we were seated outside), Nat brought out her laptop and said 'Let's take pictures!!' so I scooted over and we went at it like freaks.
While doing that, Nat mentioned that 'since we love taking pictures so much, we should dress up and all and like, really POSE!'. So that's the plan. Then we went shopping and tried on EVERYTHING that we found interesting, nice, weird, freaky and awesome.
And along the way, from every piece of clothing, or shoes in my case, we were getting ideas for our photoshoot. We're going to do the photoshoot in a very 'Mad Tea Party'-esque theme. There's Alice (Nat), The MadHatter (SJ, was there any doubt?) and the March Hare (ME T_T). I don't understand WHY I'm the March Hare! I'll show you! I'll make a sexy March Hare.
And then, while we were in Aldo going crazy over the amazing heels, we found this pair that was in dark bright pink and black and we were like 'COLOURS!'. So that is gonna be our colour scheme for the photoshoot. XD
We want the location to be in this torn down/deserted building (with rocks and all on the floor). Hopefully, we would be able to get a table [XD] and we'll be on one side and the camera on the other.
The problem is the camera XD. I mentioned it to Nee On, he seemed to be pretty stoked after hearing the Mad Tea Party part. So, I guess, we can get him? XD
But it won't happen anytime soon... we need to gather clothes XD I've been told to wear a really short black 'bum-cover' and some awesome dark pink leggings.
SJ has identified the kind of hat she wants to wear.

By the way, that perfume bottle up there is Juicy Couture's signature perfume.
I love the heart lock that drapes the bottle. I just want the bottle.
Now I see why there are people who would spend money for these perfumes. The bottles itself are so pretty to look at that it makes me happy.

Completed my essay last night :D
Now I need to do my concept models.
I hope I can go to college and use the tables cause it's going to be really hard drawing those stupid plans at home.

Something's wrong with the net...

... so I'm using my Dad's computer at the moment. The keyboard is really sucky and it takes all my energy just to punch in one letter.

Nothing much has been going on. One bore after another.
I learned how to draw those stupid architectural plans yesterday. Gave me a super bad headache. I'm not exaggerating about the headache. It was really bad.
And it's a CLASS. Not a one week thing. :S Many more headaches on Fridays to come.

Then I went for Japanese class and trashed my reputation (or whatever little I had, anyway). Since my slippers broke and my sneakers are all torn and in shreds, I've been living with 4 inch heels (at least) on my feet. So as usual, I wore them to Japanese class yesterday. While walking down after class, I was getting emotional while telling Nee On something (I'll get to this later), and I missed a stepped. :S I slipped but thank you Lord, I didn't fall flat on my arse or that would have been a good laugh.
I owe Nee On for grabbing me.
Anyway, apparently, I scraped my elbow during the fiasco. Nee On poked the wound and made me realise it hurts like crap or I would never have noticed.
I don't owe Nee On for this.
And now, for the thing I was getting emotional about. I told Nee On on Thursday that I want to lose weight and asked for advice. He said 'Take the stairs in college'.
So, I thought, 'Okay! Stairs it will be then!' and I took the stairs on Friday. Totally forgetting I was in four bloody inches of heel. That's what happens when you get used to heels.
So I took the stairs from the second floor wanting to go up to the sixth floor. So I counted my floors '3... 4... 5... 6...', right? WRONG! I forgot my stupid college doesn't have a bloody 4th floor and I landed up ONE floor above the real floor I was supposed to be on. Name-wise it's the sixth floor, reality-wise it's the FREAKING FIFTH FLOOR.
I had a field day walking up those floors -.-
Lyd: I'm not meant to take stairs!!! I'm never taking the stairs again! *slips* ._.
That's what happened. I wanted to stomp my foot to prove a point but I slipped in the process.

Mr. Soong said that the actresses in today's Hollywood are more scandalous! Scandalous in drugs, hell yeah. Sex, heck no. (except those few sex videos which they all 'regret' after it leaks)
I've got prove! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! Marilyn Monroe gave blows for movie parts! :D And she announces them! I love that woman!
I'm going to REGAIN MY REPUTATION! (whatever little is LEFT). Yes, I'm still emo over it.

I kinda envy Marilyn Monroe for dying so young... I mean, not that I really wanted her to die but she died so beautiful. Nobody got a chance to poke fun at her for being old or anything... Everybody just remembers her as that gorgeous person.

My Chemical Romance is coming to Malaysia and everybody seems to think I'm dying to go.
Lemme tell you something... I don't like My Chemical Romance!!
Good Lord. -.-

Another boring day~
Today was the start of term. Our term break of TWO FREAKING DAYS went by so fast.
Already got an assignment :S 'In your own words, what's an identity' or something along those lines.
I feel my stress level reaching the red area.
:S :S

I hit my tiny toe against my bathroom door.
:S It hurts~!

Talking about bathroom!! GOOD LORD!!
At dinner yesterday...
Sis: Oh, there's worms in our bathroom.
Me: WormS?
Sis: Yeah. Tiny ones. Alot.
Me: ._.
Then, I needed to go to the toilet, after dinner, and I was about to walk into my bathroom.. One glance at the floor sent me flying downstairs to use my grandmother's bathroom instead.
As I was running down, my Mum was all 'Why're you coming down? Don't you have your own?' and because I was in too much of a rush, I just yelled 'WORMIES~ Gross!' and flew into the bathroom.
When I came out, my Mum presented me with a pail full of detergents and scrubs.
"Scrub your bathroom NOW". o_o
So, my sis and I had to scrub. We found this little hole in the shower-area-barrier and when she shot water through the hole.. SO MANY WORMS CAME FLYING OUT! HOLY MACKAREL!
I refused to walk into the bathroom until my sister yelled 'ALL GONE LA, STUPID'. So I walked in to start scrubbing. And it went like this...
Me: *one scrub* EW!.... *another scrubs* BLEAH! X(
Sis: -.-
I'm not made out for such work :S I'll have five people hired in the future JUST to clean my toilet. I swear. If I earn enough XD.

†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† says:
cause like...if i were to write porno..i can have four different titles already
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
we'll give ourselves manly names
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† says:
all with me and toshiya
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
u can be your robert
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ†says:
I DON'T WANNA BE ROBERT?
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† says:
WHO THE F IS ROBERT?
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
hahahah
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
or george ?
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
or richard ?
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† says:
NO!
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
HAHAHA
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† says:
MY GOD
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
(im naming all the most awful names)
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† says:
CHOOSE NICER NAMES! DAMNIT!

SJ and I are planning to write some porno for money. Pen names are Richard and Robert. Respectively. *dies laughing*

Lol.

Dad: o\m/ (hand gesture)
Lyd: ._. Do it again! Do it again!
Dad: Why!? *like he wants to fight me*
Lyd: So I can take a picture!*nudges brother to take a picture*
Dad: *shows middle finger* Hehehehe! *looks around*
Lyd: o_o I'm at a very impressionable age, Dad.
Dad: Like hell.
Lyd: I may learn something!
Mum: Is Dad being naughty again?

Lyd: Is this skirt nice, Mum? :)
Mum: That's not a skirt.
Lyd: ._. No?
Mum: It's a bum-cover.
Bro: -________-"
Lyd: I take it it's too short then.

Toshiya with a ponytail is the hottest thing in the world.
And that's a statement.

I've got a problem...
I really do treat Ivan like he's real.
Even though I know he's not.

My Japanese teacher has told me that I'm a very easy person to read :S
According to her, the moment my feelings change, she can see it on my face. Or she can see my thoughts on a certain topic by the expression I wear.
Is this true?! T_T

[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
oh btw, u shud see the amount of hide plushies they sell!!
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
HAHAHA
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
(im trying to tempt you)
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
they have like another FOUR new, diff hide plushy!
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† [I'm not an artist I'm a fucking work of art] says:
NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† [I'm not an artist I'm a fucking work of art] says:
you KNOW the ONE thing i've wanted for a long time are the hide plushies!
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† [I'm not an artist I'm a fucking work of art] says:
don't tempt me!
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† [I'm not an artist I'm a fucking work of art] says:
i'm not financially able at the moment oh my god
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† [I'm not an artist I'm a fucking work of art] says:
(how much are they?)
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
such a bum la u
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
hold on i'll check
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† [I'm not an artist I'm a fucking work of art] says:
:D
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† [I'm not an artist I'm a fucking work of art] says:
i mean...:S
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
hahaha
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
dnt pretend
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
i know u man!!
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
haha
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† [I'm not an artist I'm a fucking work of art] says:
(trying to at least)
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
actually before u said (how much are they?)
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
i was gonna say
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
do u want me to check the price ?-.-

It's RM87.
T_T

[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
it looks...medium sized in the pic
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
do u want to see it ?
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† [I'm not an artist I'm a fucking work of art] says:
yeah yeah
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† [I'm not an artist I'm a fucking work of art] says:
NO wait wait
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† [I'm not an artist I'm a fucking work of art] says:
don't lead me to the site
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
HAHAHAHAHA
†£¥ÐĪǺ ΤӘЅћЇ¥Λ† [I'm not an artist I'm a fucking work of art] says:
try sending me the picture
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
ohmygod
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
being the good buddy that i am
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
i'll save it
[[* MadHatter ! *]] the Queen says:
AND send it to u

I'm afraid of entering that site. I've never actually seen it. LOL!
:S Loads of Gazette stuff. And the occasional Dir en grey. And a lot more X-Japan and hide.
If I enter that site, I'll be mentally broke.

The three Shinsou's in Dir en grey's Kisou album is really nice.
As I recall, all three are called Shinsou but all three have different kanji for the name.
I love Kyo when he does stuff like this.

Wanna know why my blog posts are always so long? Cause I blog for an entire afternoon :D

Talked with SJ till about 3:30 AM last night. Oh Good Lord. We are becoming nocturnal.

I'm currently finding locations for my barge. I wanna place it in the Mediterranean Sea so I'm looking for suitable pictures where I can imagine a barge just sitting there. Quite hard :S
My 'client' is gonna be Cat Casino. LOL! Was stalking his MySpace last night so I thought I'd use him for my client. I'm gonna lie about a few details. To better suit what I want XD
Oh gosh, the Mediterranean is so nice! It makes me wanna buy a mansion overlooking the sea! I will! I'm gonna work really hard and earn SO MUCH of money that I can afford to do that!
(Hey! A girl can dream!)

I just stumbled across a picture of something that is called Pierre Cardin's Bubble House.
SO CUTE! If I thought that the Archigram's Seaside Bubbles was adorable... this is definitely topping that. Just imagine the Seaside Bubbles.. but on land without the poles :D
I want a house just like that!! *rambles on*

I suddenly remembered this YokoYoko incident back in school X
YokoYoko is that deep heat thing for muscle aches.
Anyway, my cheer team, back then, used to have seemingly endless supply of these stuff. They use it like water.
So, we were attempting at a new pyramid which was a little bit more dangerous than others.
Needless to say, bumbling fools that we were, everybody fell on everybody and one of the bases' hands got twisted in this really painful way and everybody was wincing and yelling in pain except the one injured.
I'm not too sure what everybody was doing cause somebody's ass landed on my head (as usual) followed by a foot to the face. I was sort of blacked out on the floor.
THEN! Somebody brought out the 'all healing' YokoYoko and applied it to the girl's hand.
Unfortunately, she applied too much (see what I mean by 'using it like water') and the girl was in EVEN MORE pain than she was in before XD!
I managed to regain my consciousness in time to see her rolling on the floor holding on to her hand like it came off.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! Sorry. The image is still very clear in my mind.
Everybody had the whole '._.' look on their faces cause we were confused as to why she seems to be in even more pain.
Then she yelled at everybody for putting too much and everybody yelled at her for being ungrateful. LOL! I wonder how we actually managed to practice.

I love Gravitation's music.
Daisuke Asakura, yo! Don't mess.

SJ and I saw a hot guy yesterday.
I was saying something... cause I heard her say something that sounded quite bad.
Lyd: Who's a *beep*?
SJ: *whispers* Lyd! :)
Lyd: WHAT?!?!
SJ: *kicks leg* Lyd!! o_o
Lyd: WHAT?!
SJ: My God! *indicates location of said Hot Boy with eyes*
Lyd: Huh? *looks over* OH! Aaaah! I see :D
SJ: -.-
Lyd: You bum! I said 'Who's a *beep*?' and you said 'Lyd!'. How was I to know!?
SJ: OH! HAHAHAHAHAH!
Lyd: But he's gorgey! :D
SJ: YEAH!
Very gorgey :)

I've decided the mood of my space is going to be 'retro and relaxed'. I hope I can continue with this.
The colour scheme that I'm hoping will happen is dark red and a cream colour.
I'm really going to try my best for this project. I'm still very disappointed over what happened with my previous project. I'm gonna put my creative thinking into overdrive this time around.
God bless my sleeping hours.

What I said...

... the first time I entered college
- "Where the HECK are we supposed to go? Stupid people"

... the first time I laid eyes on Toshiya
- "Eww"

... the first time SJ said 'Let's form a band'
- "Okay~ I'll be on guitar!"

... the first time I was told 'I like you' by a guy
- "Okay, what do you want me to say? I don't? Cause I don't"

... the first time I really talked to Christina (age 9)
- "You got a SIX in MATHS?!'

... the first time I saw my bass
- "Awesome shit wow!"

... the first time I saw snow
- " :D "

... the first time I felt betrayed
- "Screw 'trust' "

... the first time a friend said 'Don't swear'
- "Fxck you"

... the first time I really felt like I was left alone (being lost in Disneyland Tokyo after 5 minutes)
- "Daddy?!"

... the first time a church member said 'Join us during Youth! You never come!'
- "Why should I?"

And I want to clear things up with people, right here..

Why am I vain?
Because I hate how I look.

Why am I hostile to you?
One, I'm not shy, damnit.
Two, I may not like you, that's why! Gee, thought you'd have it figured out already.

Why don't I like church people?
Because they appear superficial to me and I don't associate myself with people who pretend.

Why am I weird?
Because I'm not like you.

Why am I quiet?
Because I don't like a conversation that has nothing in it.

Why don't I open up to people?
I don't trust them.

Why do I hold back my emotions?
Because I don't want people to know how I really am inside.

Why do I like Marilyn Manson?
Because there's truth in his lyrics and he's not afraid to be different.

Why do I think I can actually meet Toshiya?
Because I have the right to 'wish'.

Why am I negative?
Because I'm just not positive.

Why don't I smile and talk when I meet someone new?
Because I've most likely heard about you from SJ or whoever, and I don't like you already.

Why don't I act like a normal teenage girl?
Because I'm not a sissy flirt, thank you.

So, anymore questions that you want answered? Feel free to ask!
Cause I'll tell it like it is right now.
What I do is up to me because I am me.
I have the right to be an individual and not a product of your factory produced teenagers.

Next time, if you aren't happy with who I am, SAY IT! Don't fxcking hint around.
I'm not one who would accept hints! I don't care what you think and I definitely don't care about what you're going to say.
So just say it, it'll go in and out the other side, see if I'll give a damn.
Afraid to hurt my feelings? Bury yourself and save the world from the eyesore that is you.
You think I'm shy? Just say that you think I'm a snobbish bitch! Because that's what I was to you~!
And to the one who told me 'I think you're lesbian because you don't have a boyfriend. How are you satisfied then? Do you masturbate?'
Here's what I'll say to you - Welcome to NORMAL LIFE! Where everything's not about sex and people are not sex starved like you! Perhaps you're just desperate because you know people would never wanna do you in their lifetime! Life here doesn't revolve around spending money and time on monthly girlfriends or boyfriends! People here actually look forward to loving someone whole heartedly and only get involved when they're sure! I sure hope you can get your head out of your clouds and see life for what it really is!
That was one stupid bastard. And I got asked by one of his friends 'Why don't you talk to him anymore?' Gee! You think?! He walks around with trash AND shit! And they're both UP HIS ASS.

Aaaah! People drive me crazy!
And they wonder why I hate socialising.

I think I'm falling sick :S AGAIN!!!! Grrrr~

Handed in my CD.. that means... the first term.... is REALLY OVER!

:D
Unfortunately, I only have tomorrow and Sunday to really rest myself before going back to school on Monday. How much does that suck? ALOT, I'll tell you.
:S

I'm really in love with The Pledge now. DEG is genius.
Masayo told me to listen to this band called Graveworm. Hm, from what I could hear from her phone.. it sounds pretty hard. I'll go check them out :P.

Something about relationships have been clinging on to my brain since last night.
Why is it that a guy would fall in love with a girl... and then try to change her to what HE wants her to be?
It's a little l-o-l, isn't it?
If he has fallen in love with her, shouldn't he have fallen in love with who she is?
If he has fallen in love with who she is, why is he trying to change her?
It just doesn't make any sense to me. It really doesn't.
Oh gosh, relationships are complex. I say, we all have fxcking fun being single.
It's not like we REALLY need to have a significant other.
Sheesh.

Oh, talking about this, my Dad was telling-wait no, make that-yelling at me that I should start setting my requirements a little higher XD
Lyd: My boyfriend doesn't need a Maserati, Bugatti, SLR McLaren, Ferrari or a Lamborghini. I'm not very interested in a Lamborghini anyway (The Bugatti's better for me). He just needs a really cool custom chopper :D
Dad: *goes on and on for ages about how a bike is cheap
Lyd: I'm not materialistic, okay?
Dad: *babbles again about the dangerous aspects of a bike*
Lyd: OKAY! IF he REALLY needs to come with a bike!... God, please make it a Harley!
Dad: Good girl.
I think he's happy. LOL. I think my Dad believes in the stability of Harleys XD
But I have a cousin.. who, whenever questioned 'Why don't you have a boyfriend?', amusingly replies, "I'm waiting for a guy to drive by in a Ferrari"

But, talking about the Bugatti.. Lordy Lord. That car is awesome. My Dad was shoving the advertisement into my face a few months ago. It costs 1 million bucks! X_x Whether that was in RM or USD, I'm not too sure. But still, the million is enough to scare me.

And he was telling me something about how it reaches a certain speed in .6 seconds. I forgot how many miles per/hour but.. it was alot of miles as I remember. Can you imagine? You touch the accelerator and you are going at light speed... of course, 2o seconds later you need to refill your tank XD
But that's a nice car. Aaaaaaah~ To own one :D
It's my Dad's dream car. Lol~ I want every single car that I listed above. Who cares which model! Lol! Not too big on the Lamborghini... Just said it cause, I think, most people links cool sports car to Lamborghinis or Ferraris. Lol!

And I'm still bummed about Hamilton not winning the Driver's Championship. I really wanted him to win cause he's the rookie!

Third time's the charm?

Lyd: I'm telling you, if I had the chance to sleep with Toshiya for just one night.. I would.
Masayo: What if, in front of you, there's both SynGates and Toshiya.. What would you do??
Lyd: :D Threesome!
Masayo: Whoa, abit 'cham' right, you, then?
SJ: *ignores very obviously*

Just one of those conversations that we had today. Lol!
And SJ and I have agreed. If SJ could sleep with Reita (even for a night) she would. And I very obviously would do Toshiya, anyday! :D

Oh, and to introduce who Masayo is...

I can almost see eyes bulging out and jaws dropping -.-

I can assure you, when I knew her three years ago, she looked NOTHING like this. Then again, back then she was into MYV like he was a drug and it's obvious she's moved on from then.

It goes from normal looking (SJ), to a lil bit of make up(me), to EXTREME (Masayo)! LOL! But I gotta say, that I like that she doesn't care about the fact that she's different as long as she's having fun.
We even took sticker pictures :) They put this stupid panda hat thing on my head while decorating and before they could put the shit hat and some other hat on their heads the time ran out! So I'm the ONLY one with the panda crap on my head -.-
The other one had a PINK ribbon in my hair! (Just because I wasn't the one decorating *sheesh*). Then I got into the mood to pose LOL. And I did the whole 'no pictures please' hand lol.
We had one where we tried to look cute..
Masayo: I can vomit looking at my face.
And that pretty much summarises what the 'cute' picture was like XD Needless to say, the 'cute' one wasn't printed. I think. XD Wait, I think it was. I don't have all the pictures. SJ is supposed to scan it.

Then we were waiting by the street for her boyfriend to come pick her up and these buses that were rolling by had people staring at her like O_O.
We dared her to wave at the next bus that stares at her...and she did ._. Lol?
People were walking by dropping their jaws everytime they see her. It was quite funny really. Funnier because she seems oblivious to the stares. And this security van driver was showing thumbs up signs at us while sounding his horn. XD

Got them from SJ~! The cute one WAS printed. It's the one where I'm holding up the blasted peace sign.
Let's consider this our first 'half-a-band' pictures or something XD

She has a thing for doing this, I swear she does.
Previously it was
[sometime when I was sleeping]
Lyd: Hm? *groggy*
Masayo: Hello! I'm in KL, now :)
Lyd: ._.
This time round, it is
Lyd: Yeah?
Masayo: Er, I reached KL already.
Lyd: ._.
She was only supposed to leave Kuantan at 4PM! But she called me at 4:15PM telling me she's in KL. What the hell did she come with? Bullet train?!
She shocks me everytime she comes to KL.
[Then again, I think she shocks the WORLD when she appears outdoors]
Anyway, we were supposed to go out to town tonight and just chill since it's her birthday today but SJ can't make it so we decided to go tomorrow instead.

Attempting at playing together might be a problem... Why?
1. SJ has STPM.
2. It's just me and her.
To play in a studio requires some of the stuff we call money. And there's not gonna be a point if it's just me and Masayo. Or as she, I think, would rather me call her, Garyu. That woman has more names than I have underwear. But ONE name she wouldn't want me mentioning is her REAL name. For sure.
Anyway, we'll figure something out tomorrow.

I was in the elevator with Ray and Ms. Huwi Huwi while I was on the phone with Masayo.
Masayo: *over the phone* Let's go out tonight la. I argued with my sister so I don't want to go home.
Lyd: Tonight...? Hm, I think I can. Yeah, I'm free tonight.
Ms. Huwi: :D Whoa, now she's very free... lol
In case you're wondering why... it's because......
TERM.ENDS.TODAY.OH.MY.GODLY.GOD!
Lol.
I'm freaking happy as you can tell.
But the second term starts again next week on Monday. In fact the only reason why I went to class today was to be briefed for my NEXT assignment. Or ASSignment. :S
We're building a 'Living Barge'. The moment we got the papers, the only thing I heard is 'What's a barge?!'.
Anyway, it's like a boat. And it's very narrow. So we have to create a living space in that stupid boat.
And YET AGAIN, we need a client. I want my client to be Cat Casino.
I don't care. He's skinny and doesn't need much room to move around. LOL. Saves my time. I WOULD NEVER CHOOSE A FAT GUY FOR THIS PROJECT.
I'll only be stupid if I do that.

I'm rearing exotic fish. ._.
Some stupid game.
And I'm quitting it. My fish just died ._.

And I've figured out the colours for my boat~
There'll definitely be dark red. And maybe white :D
I'm gonna 'isshoukenmei ganbaru' and do well for this term!

I love Dozing Green T_T.
I wanna see them play live!!

SJ: You know, my nose has been running since I last saw you. Isn't it tired?! STOP RUNNING!
Lyd: -____-"

And supposedly, her brother told her to enter the nose into the Olympics.
*cold joke desu*

I'm so failing my Design Principles class :S
My presentation board is ALL WRONG.
Somewhat wrong, anyway. There's no 'journey' as my lecturer put it. And the perspectives looked out of shape, it seems. And... OH GOD! I'm gonna cry T_T
And I can't re-do it cause there's no time! She didn't let me re-do it.

*wails helplessly*

I feel like a failure.

On the other hand, Masayo has chickened out of drinking!
She wanted me to teach her how to drink and I was supposed to bring her out somewhere to drink. But she has chickened out.
And now, we're going out on Thursday instead. I hope SJ comes along, we need to talk!

Oh, at the thought of a certain somone possibly landing up in one of our jam sessions, SJ got excited and told me to go book a studio.
This is what she said 'Go book us a room, Lyd!'.
My first thought was 'What KIND of room? What do you want to DO in the room?'
But she very quickly corrected herself *damn*

Just a short one before I leave this computer to go to my presentation board and my plan drawings!

Presentation today for IAC 1 went better than I thought it would :)
We were so sure that we were gonna be using the projector and all but we didn't need to! All we needed to do was show the PowerPoint slides on the computer. We could even sit down while doing it~
He said that I 'raised pretty good questions' and I guess overall I did quite okay which is good considering I was way behind time compared to everybody. He did mention that I lacked visuals and enough back up to support my questions. Which is quite true. Just that I didn't notice it very much.
I had to burn my CD for him but I forgot. So I was burning my CD on Nat's laptop.
Then we camwhored on her laptop ._. I swear, we find EVERY reason to camwhore.
And we had quite a few funny pictures so I'll just upload it here for fun!

Us as pop art? Lol~

And then we found Ting Fung :D
I look like one of those little green men from that alien show.

I have till 2 PM tomorrow to complete everything including taking pictures and all. I hope I can manage. I won't burn the CD now. I'll just burn it in time for Friday. :S
I can't wait for all this to be over.

It was so funny when Ing Hao (I think that's his name!) was presenting. Cause he had quite a lot to talk about and we had to keep to the 10 minute limit. When he only had two minutes left, we were holding up peace signs to show him that he had two minutes left and when he finally caught sight of our goofy behaviour, he sped up. And I MEAN sped up! He was going so fast it was so funny! XD And Ting Fung's ending was the best. He was talking and talking and suddenly '*click* andThankYou'. I think we were a little on the ._. side. XD So sudden!

And now I gotta go do my work :D
If I can afford to take a little break (cause I'm planning on splitting my work between tonight and tomorrow morning), I would!
Cause I'm actually dead tired. I just wanna sleep >_<

I haven't been blogging much these days.
I haven't had the mood.
I think I'm quite stressed. I've been annoyed at everybody. And I mean everybody. Everybody has managed to annoy me at some point.
I can't wait for this fucking week to be over.

I managed to finish my essay yesterday. Typed out a shit load of words. 2661 in total. I may have wrote lots of crap but I don't give a damn.
And I just finished doing my power point presentation.
I still have to do my plan drawings and my presentation board for Tuesday. That leaves me with tonight and tomorrow to do it.
I'm so ready to scream.
Which fxcking idiot said 'Once you get to your degree it's quite relaxed'.

I just realised that pressing the 'shift' key 5 times turns on this shit called Sticky Keys.
Stupid.

I think I'm in great need for a punching bag. I've been using that stupid mattress that is leaning on the wall. I think I've got some anger that needs releasing.
But if that's the case, then I'm always angry.
I tried telling my Dad a few years ago why I really do need a punching bag installed in my room.
He didn't even bother listening to me.
Now, he's got an angry kid.

Slept at six freaking AM in the morning. -.-
And then I woke up at 12 to draw my plans and went to school to find out I drew them wrong T.T. So I have to re-do them. -.-
Then I rushed to class. And forgot to bring my bag out. -.- I only had my phone and a pen.

Masayo messaged me asking me if I wanted to dye my hair a pinkish red. So I said, 'Okay!' And she's all 'You want me to dye for you? Free of charge!' and I agreed.
Then she messages me saying the colour is cherry red! ._.
NO! I might get cherry head jokes.
But, I'll get my own colour if I want her to dye my hair.
She's coming down on the 10th.
I wonder if we're gonna try playing.

This morning I went to sleep with a tune in my head. I really wanted to get right back up and try plinking around with the piano but it was too early.
And as usual... I woke up with the tune replaced by a song.
I'm trying to remember but so far, I only remember two lines.
This sucks.

SJ wants to photoshop a picture of her and Saga together.
Nice.

Mosquitoes are feasting on me like I'm the dish of the night. :S

Another long post about nothing in particular. Feel free to skip this. :)

I downloaded Versailles yesterday. No, I'm not talking about the place in Europe. I'm referring to the Jrock band. Kamijo's new band. I only downloaded one song the last time because.. honestly, I was quite afraid to listen to them. Why?

• Hizaki is prettier than me.
• Kamijo with long hair is pretty scary.
• Jasmine You is just scary.
• And I was afraid their music wouldn't sound nice.

But, you know what? I love their music. :)
It's like a harder version of Lareine. It's somewhat like a cross between Lareine and Nightwish. Very little Nightwish alot of Lareine.
But there were some reasons why I wanted to listen to them

• Teru is pretty hot. (SJ agrees)
• Hizaki is one damn good guitarist, even though he's prettier than every girl I know.
• Kamijo's voice is dreamy.
• I've heard people rant on and on about how great Jasmine You is at the bass.

And I still don't know the name of the drummer. :S Ah, I'll find out one day.

I slept at 6 AM yesterday and got woken up at 10:30 AM. X_X I am dying. Really dying.
It's all thanks to that Java Chip Frappe I had :S
But it was so good!

I was watching TV at 5 AM last night and I was flipping channels when my remote kinda 'hung' on me and I got stuck at MTV for awhile.
And then I heard the line '... it's almost easy'. And I thinking to myself 'LOL! This song sounds like Avenged Sevenfold's Almost Easy!'. So I looked up from banging the remote to see M.Shadows screaming on the TV and I was a little stunned. It didn't register that it was M.Shadows till I saw SynGates and Zacky. And then The Rev. And even then I was still stunned.
And then I went 'WTF IS A7X DOING ON MTV?!' I mean, this isn't MTV2~
I was glad that I could see them on TV but I have a thing against good bands going on MTV. Somehow or another, most of them start to suck and sound VERY mainstream after appearing on MTV. I just hope that doesn't happen to A7X. I'd be so upset.
And not just that, now that they're appearing on MTV... I won't be surprised if I see a couple of young teenage posers appearing in malls with fedora hats over bandanas just the way SynGates does it. Or putting on make up to look like Zacky or some shit like that.
:S

. . .
Dir en grey is releasing something on the 19th of December!
Hold on while I wait for the stupid flash shit to load.

!!!!!!!!!!

It's some...compilation thing!!!!
Their songs from 1998 - 2007!
There's two CDs. One is 'Decade 1998-2002' and the other is 'Decade 2003-2007'
AKURO NO OKA IS IN IT!
They left out Hotarubi :(
And there's NO Raison D'etre! Why?!
Thank God they put Cage in it.
And there's no Marmalade Chainsaw~
Gyakujou Tannou Kelloid Milk is in! *dances*
So is KIGAN!
Umbrella!! T_T <- Tears of joy
Audience KILLER LOOP!! :D :D
Saku and Obscure too!! *I'm getting very very happy*
Merciless Cult, The Final, Saku, Ryoujoku no Ame!!
(I was typing this as I was studying the list hence why it's so choppy)

YES! I'm happy!
Oh, right...this year is the 10th year. Wow~ It's been ten years, huh?
Luna Sea is reuniting end of this year for some anniversary thing too.
And X-Japan has reunited! I'm really happy now.