I just had a scary thought..
Like it or not, I may just get married and have kids one day.
Can you imagine ME having kids?
Imagine Shari, Nut, SJ and I having kids!
How scary would that be?!
It'll be so weird if the four of us meet up and drag KIDS along!
And I know they always say I'll be the first to have kids but I strongly believe that our lesson on pregnancy in Form 3 was enough to scar me for life.
And I know I treat Ivan like my baby but Ivan is the perfect baby! He never grows up, never talks back, doesn't make a mess AND he's cuddly!
And have you taken a good look at me lately?? How can I qualify for motherhood?? My kids are going to be juvenile delinquents! I mean if my son came up to me and said 'Mum, I'm gay' I'll probably say 'How wonderful!!' and mean it. My daughter will know about the birds and the bees before she knows what a bee really is!
I am not the parent-type of person.
And imagine me getting married? Imagine me devoting my entire life to someone. No, no, no.
I'm only turning 20 next month. This isn't something I should be thinking about. Oh Lord. Why do our parents say getting married and having kids is natural and it's something everybody goes through? Can I opt out?
I cannot imagine myself carrying something in my stomach. I'm carrying alot of extra fats in there right now, I do not want a foetus in there too.
Erk, all this talk is killing me.
And all this talk is reminding me of that horrible nightmare I had in 2003.
I've dreamed of myself being shot, caught in war etc. but the worst was when I dreamed I was pregnant and HAPPY.
And if the girls have good enough memories, they'll remember how horrified I was.
Eek. No babies. Not for the next million years. Shoot me in the head if I ever invite any of you for a baby shower.
And have I mentioned, I may have forgotten how to snog??
This is killing me.
